It was a wonderful day outside and I spent 4 prime hours of it sleeping it away.

Now I am getting afraid of the darkness screwing with my head. Soon enough I will be waking up in the dark to go to work and coming home in the darkness.

I think i need to purchase a Lightbox soon, URG!!!

Or doing something to pump up my mood.

I almost have my final paper wrapped up for my one MBA Class. So soon enough I'll be able to have some free time once again on weekends. I would go nuts tomorrow night but I switched with someone at work so they could go to the Bills game on Sunday. Ironically enough my Dad tells me last night that he has 4 tickets for the Jim Kelly Club. After the game against NE I just about have lost all desire to watch NFL football. They have almost broke me.



It's right now I'm in a really "chill" place mentally. The kind of mood where I'm mentally loose and content. I was talking to my Ex last night and she added that over the last few years I may actually be the most happiest I have been. This was after she was looking over at pictures of me from years past. In some ways I have to actually agree with her.


In some ways the good relationship we have had lately scares me. It's just I know my lack of track record of getting anyone around here to be in total commitment with at a high level. The bad part is if by some stupid reason we get back together I totally know that the same B.S. will happen again and the fallout will be so much worse than before. I'm glad to have a great friendship with her, but I just have to be firm in keeping the line. I've had success in keeping things separated especially during my little escapades. The trouble would come in when I would be feeling guilty when I would be out with other people. It's so hard sometimes.

After "wasting a weekend" I actually feel a bit refreshed. My body thanks me for not abusing it. I did manage to do a couple of things in regards to school. Plus my final project in my MBA class isn't going to be as bad as initially thought. Hopefully I'll polish it off tomorrow.

Although I did enjoy sleeping and doing not much of anything I just feel "that time of year" coming on. It'll be dark before 5 now with being back on standard time. I just can feel the chemicals changing in my brain in about 2 weeks from all of the darkness that we are going to be abundantly surrounded by.

There is an upside. The winter months bring the two great pastimes into play, drinking and sex. Since you have to have someone with you in your bed to keep you warm in the winter.

I came across an album cover from the guy from Deep Purple Ian Gillan. I didn't know he recorded his last release a double album here in Buffalo. It's just after looking at it reminded me of the fun times that can happen in winter and it just came over me. Yea it was the thoughts of sex and drinking but it's that building that is his "Inn" that maybe did it for me and not winter itself.





Nothing like a little "Smoke of the Water"

So I haven't done anything in a while.

It's Halloween weekend and I am not going out. So Yea I sit home on my computer on a Saturday Night like a pathetic loser. I don't even have the motivation to head over to Canada and play cards.

The wind is hallowing and it just gives off the impression that it is worse than it is.

I keep telling myself that I'll snap out of this BLAH next week when I have my last MBA class for the semester.

The worse part is I have almost $400 in my pocket and I have no drive to do anything. . .

I thought that the Dems may have had all of the momentum going into next month, but now I think things may be shifting.

The local commercials with Tom Reynolds a REPUBLICAN saving Social Security and Public Projects are just too surreal. Wasn't that the Democrats battle cry for the last 70 years?

Politics is a business and with the Dow at an all time high and the Real Estate "Bubble" not as bad as hyped out to be I just don't see people ready to take on a risk of giving back control to the Dems.

As we are seeing with the latest round of Tom Reynolds ads that are totally off base with traditional Republican platforms, it basically is going to come to him getting re-elected due to the constant pounding of stupid Ads.

Then again if that doesn't work to combat the Foley/Iraq problem you can always fall back on the "Southern Strategy"


The sad part is it appears to be working.



Garbage advertising like that is going to keep things status quo. I suppose nothing will change until we get 10% Prime Interest Rates and 20% Unemployment. Because "if you mess with da 'Dough you got to Go" is the only way we change things politically in this country.

It's only about the Benjamin's...