all day, writing the date; feeling distaste, dissonance and flashbacks to that day. Hard to be in the present when a day in the past is still so fresh. Has it really been five years already?

9/11

This evening: A quick stop at Wegmans resulted in elation over finding one of my favorite elusive cereals. I have been trying to find this specific kind of Weetabix for too darn long. yum yum yum:



A few other groceries and about $75 later, I return to Y-Town to take a much needed trek through The Fort. It was sunny, the air chilly and I needed to see and hear the crash of waves and the feel of sand pressing under my shoes. The sunset was gorgeous as always. A venture into the surrounding woods added to this repreive. Look what I found..





Vibrant! and this is just with the razr camera phone:





I came home feeling refreshed although my stomach still feels weird. Not sure what is going on. It is all in my upper abdomen-- a strange sensation-- I am aprehenisve to eat or eat much at one time or anything too advneturous. Hoping this helps, I engaged in a short bit of yoga before slipping into bed with a cup of Lavender Rooibos (red bush) tea:

It smells and tastes yummy:



ofcourse, I can't settle down for the night alone.

The Original Laptop:


I had two other pictures of the furblob, laying between myself and the laptop, but the pictures havnet come through to my email as of yet. I'll add them later.

I aim to be more energetic and enthusastic this week. Being sick earlier in the week wore me out straight through the weekend.

I'll be back to me soon.

Hope all is well..

A decidedly lovely late summer afternoon.

at some point today... a walk along the waters edge.


aiming for balance and rejuvination-- it will just take time; but the time is right.

I love this time of year.

Horkfest is officially over as of sometime late yesterday. My doc had prescribed me some pills that worked wonders as (e:pyrcedgrrl) mentioned as a comment to my previous post.

Today I am just super sore and a bit tired. I felt like I have been lifting weights and doing mass reps of ab crunches- -and I can say that I certainly haven't done any of that lately.

Overall I feel tons better. I kind of went through the work day in a haze. I am about to make some tea and crawl back into bed. I aim to be even better by tomorrow morning. I look forward to having my energy back. I am grateful that yesterdays agony has passed-- it really freaked me out at some point.

hmmm wonder if there is anything interesting on tv. If my eyes have the energy, I will continue with a book I am reading.

I need to clean, but I can't quite do it just yet *yawn*

(e:paul) , your office fireplace looks fantastic!! I think it will go well with Nuclear Orange or Atomic Tangerine or Armegeddon Nectarine...

I keep having these weird dreams about school. I continue to dream that I am not done yet.. that I still have more time to go. Not sure what to make of it. It really has been a crazy busy summer and a bit surreal at points too.

ah well, nothing I am up for figuring out right now.

hot red bush tea awaits..


again, Happy Birthday Timika. hahah, the post-it was from me this morning that was sent from Guest. Dont remember if I signed it. Hope you had a good day. ciao!

ok, not you or anyone else.

I think its a line from a late 80's movie, with River Phoenix, "A Night in the Life of Jimmy Rearden"

Warning, the following is a bit gross:

Anyway, today was a most aweful day of being sick. I woke around 5am to abdominal pains. Not able to do anything to get comfortable and resume sleep, I got out of bed and paced my apartment. No relief in sight I decided to start getting ready for work. Took a shower, brushed, flossed (I didn't do it night before, felt a little under the weather.. so I crashed kinda early) and then proceeded to projectile vomit. Yup, that was great. It wold have made for a great authentic epeep chatter sound, and yes, I actually thought that as I was spewing.

Then I stopped for a few minutes and I proceeded to get ready for work. wtf? I am horking it all out and I think I am going to work? Well it wasnt until the horkfest began again that I decided that I am calling in. I HATE THAT! especially since I *just* started this job. ugh..

So I left the required messages to the required people and even managed an email to the big boss.


And then the Perpetual Vomit Escapade began, every 10 minutes for the next 9 hours. My stomach was emptied within the first few aquaintences with the blue toilet bowl. All that attempted to come up later was just exhausting. It was bad bad bad.

fever, ab pain, constant vomiting/heaving (I was unable to stop heaving until something came up- I am surprised that my throat isn't burned.), sweat/shiver sessions and the inability to find comfort due to the ab pain. ugh.

My kitties never left my side. They watched with concern and knew something was wrong. They didn't even play all day.

Eventually was able to find the enrgy to get in touch with my doctor. He said I have a nice case of the stomach flu. Apparently I NEVER had this before, as I don't recall ever feeling this awful. bah.

So some med was prescribed. Something to help with the persistant vomiting (nothing is coming up except stomach acid), and this should aslo help with the ab pain. My orders were to begin drinking a little bit of warm flat pop after two hours of not vomiitng (I was soooo thirsty at this point!!), and later on to try to eat some bland food. I wish I had jello-- or felt up to making some.

I can go to work in the morning based on whether I can hold down food and drink and that the ab pain has ceased. So far I am able to hold down some pop. I am about to try some broth, not that I fell like eating.

I hope I am back to being well tomorrow.. I HATE to take anouther day off from work. ugh.

so here's to hoping that my ab pain ceases, because I wont get any rest otherwise-- and I still havent slept other than a minute here and there.

fun fun

this is just a snag-- no need to sweat the stuff that wont kill us-- even though for awile there I wondered :)

night all-- hope all is well with alll of you

~The Horkster