Good food..good people..

Geographical points of interest: Kunis, Spot, Allen Hardware, Cathode Ray, The Pink (can't ever call it anything else!)

People of interest: (e:paul), (e:terry), (e:matthew), (e:mike), (e:jason), (e:joshua), (e:keith), and (e:ladycroft) (and moi!)






















I loOooOOoOooOOove this picture! Aweeee..makes me feel all warm and fuzzy


(e:ladycroft) and (e:carey) having fun in Pinks bathroom. Here are a few more..












ahh, like a cherry on top, a suprise visit by the super cute and delicious Larson brothers ;)

I love when I don't know what I am doing, where I am going or who I am doing it with; so my goals for this evening..

the tenative itinerary is as follows:

Shushied up- Kunis
Coffeeied up- SPOT
Liquered up- pearl street brewery or alternative brews on sheriden
and later..Liquered down ;)

(I insist on grammatical and spelling license-- see carey to english dictionary)
haha.



Any takers, give me a call 622-6639
the more the merrier.. always up for good oral intercourse

thats conversation, my dear pervs.

I must have hit a hot spot, as I am in my car and have wireless connection on my lap top.
neat.

I just wrapped up my mid term-paper-project

Wish me luck and fore sight to not procrastinate to this severity ever again.
but then, I love the intensity that pulling it all together brings; even if it is at the last second.


Now that i am at school, I just noticed the guy that holds my future of sushi in his arrogant hands. *death rays*-- but cut the check first. I need my $$$$$$$$

This girl needs sushi.. its been too long
sushi
sushi
sushi

hmm.. kunis

in general or specific, what do you think of this.. a few brain cells please..


consider these quotes by Russell Ackoff:

"... improving the performance of the parts of a system taken separately will not necessarily improve the performance of the whole. "

"Systems thinking is holistic, it attempts to derive an understanding of the parts from the behavior and properties of wholes rather than derive the behavior and properties of wholes from those of their part."



I think so intensely about something, then I cannot get my thoughts into writing.

a quick primer: Systems thinking, focuses on how the thing being studied interacts with the other constituents of the system—a set of elements that interact to produce behavior—of which it is a part. This means that instead of isolating smaller and smaller parts of the system being studied, systems thinking works by expanding its view to take into account larger and larger numbers of interactions as an issue is being studied. It wounds wacked to write it like that, as it seems to go in a circle, but I love this stuff.

For example, when there is an issue, people tend to look at the immediate cause and effect relationship, where the reality is that it had a much longer time frame of reference that which was more likely the cause.

When you toss a frog into a boiling pot of water (I am NOT advocating this act, i am using a parable that demonstrates the idea), it will jump to get out. However, if you put a frog into a warm pot of water and gradually turn up the heat, the frog is not uncomfortable at all, and otherwise seems to enjoy it. It is not aware that it is in danger, until is is really too late. (gross, i know)
If you plug this into the foibles of many an organization-business-political-relationships, then it would show that we react to immediate and obvious needs and threats opposed to more subtle issues that are really part of the larger picture.

This is where a lot of blame comes in.. no one owns up to their ignorance and mistakes. People are corncerned with maintaining the status quo, being defensive and image conscious.


Make mistakes and learn from them. make some more.
Speak your mind, have a voice, but don't make it personal.
Challenge me. Challenge yourself.
Learn.
Unlearn.
Dont just do things right, doooo the right thing.
If it feels good, do it; but don't screw anyone over.


Then again, this might be just the hedonist talking in me.

thank you, I needed to mentally spew.

any thoughts?

I was excited to go to work today.

I had taken a couple of days off to prepare for and recover from, the party. I had only thought of having a party officially just a few days prior, therefore it left me with no time to shop, cook or get anything ready for guests. I have classes on Wednesday and Thursday, so that had left me with Friday evening and Saturday. Most of my parties are last minute and I can accommodate my whims just fine, but I felt I needed the extra time, and since I have a butt load of paid time off to use, I figured I would go for it. I also had family coming in and a mid term exam to prepare for. So with that, I had taken off Friday and Monday. Very nice..

I had been feeling blah about my position for some time now, but as of recently I have a freshened outlook on it. I do not know where this turn of perspective came from, but I am rolling with it, although a bit cautiously. I am not sure what the future hold for me there, but I should try to stick it out until I graduate next August with my masters.

I am open to anything...

I applied for a position that just opened up. I had people approach me all last week, inquiring as to whether I knew about it and whether I would go for it. It would be a promotion. I debated on whether to do it, then after speaking with a coworker/friend that I highly respect and after going into ranting details with (e:pyrcedgrrl), I just went ahead and applied without looking back. we'll see..

I have also had the opportunity for people who know me, extend offers of employment in the fields they work in. I am humbled over their high regard for me. It is always appreciated.

However, I want to make a calculated move. Not just jump into something just because it offers a few extra bucks. Intrinsic factors such as ability to balance lifestyle, use creative energy, tackle challenges, feel good about my job and excitement is more important to me than the extrinsic factors, such as the amount of the paycheck, although it certainly does not hurt.

To reinforce this, I pared down on some of my expenses. I dropped my digital cable. Actually, I dropped my cable altogether for the time being. Now I can catch up on renting movies that I have yet to see; I figured this will still be less expensive than a monthly bill, besides I can borrow movies from friends :)



This feels so junior high, and I might erase this before I publish it, at best I will get some clarification at worst it will add words to the 2 million mark, but here it goes. I don't often write or talk about relationship stuff but let me run something by the wonderful and intelligent people within e-strip. I find myself in the following situation frequently enough that I am bit perplexed.

How do you tell someone that you are not interested in them, other than friends? Everytime we hang out it is under the context of a friendly get together. But one day, he took my hand to hold and I internally spazzed out. I held it together for a few blocks to see if I would relax, but that just didn't happen. I am a bit emotionally skittish and I felt that my emotional space was suddenly closing in. Since then I have been a little reticent on getting together like we had been. Now, at no time had I thought I was acting or saying things that should have led to the belief that i am interested. I know I can be forward, but believe me, if I am interested, I will let you know. And it doesn't happen that often..or it takes awhile (funny thing I am kinda shy too). It isn't something I actively seek.
Now if it was a matter of physical attraction/lust whatever, that is an entirely different story. ahh, theeCarey's lacivious post.

So anyhow, nine out of ten times this is the case. The tenth time is when the situation is that I am interested and they are not. But that's how it goes.. maybe its karma, maybe i am just an a**hole.

I hate to find out that I have hurt someones feelings, I hate when people are mad, and I really hate it when they retaliate. or engage in stalk-like behavior.

This time I think I need to try a different approach, figure out what create this situation and then start doing something about it. I am all about owning up to my jack ass tendencies.

publish? erase? ..