While I was talking to my friend Chris who is in Germany for this moment (He has just singed up for elmwoodstrip.com), I realized that the way computer feature is female body. -- I usually tell people that I can't live without computer, coffee, and cigarettes although I really think I should quit smoking. -- Since I got my power book, my life-style with working on computer has been changed as well. I can just lay down on my bed and do something with computer. Also, my bed is so warm because I have an electronic blanket that makes me fall asleep unconsciously easily. It's quite strange because it looks like I sleep with my computer these days. Well, which is good since I don't have a boyfriend, it can be my boyfriend. Right..? ;)

Chris knows that I joke a lot and think a lot in a metaphor way and I am actually very sarcastic too. But sometimes people don't get it; for example Metalpeter totally got my point with my last journal in a different way. By the way, Hey! Metalpeter, I don't watch or look at porns at all. I really think porns are just playing with your psychological weakness. ;)

Chris asked me how I am doing these days, so I said that I'm bored. This is my psychological problem if I'm not in any specific working obsession. I can get crazy. Anyway, so I told him that I've been sleeping with my computer and trying to find out how to have sex with it. (I think I told Paul this as well before). Of course he laughed a lot. And we talked bunch of stuff; how I can use my computer on the plane, how I can recharge my battery on the plane and so on. Then, realized that I can't have sex with my computer. It doesn't have any outlets. It has only inlets. Everything we have to insert to computer. Damn it. ;)

Here is more..

In a sense of stereotype, men are visualized sexually. So, these days the way computer feature is very visualized. I don't know how many people can remember that the beginning of computer feature was so ugly (it was DOS) before coming out window version. So, it has become stylish like female body. And a lot of men used to want their women to be dominated, not contemporary society. In a sense, computer needs to be placed. Well, it's getting portable these days like how women are in contemporary society. Also, it is very complicated. In a sense, women are more complicated than men.

There are more.

It can totally screw you up in many ways. Also, men more got into doing computer in a sense of stereotype. Well, there are more, but I don't want to mention it because it sounds like I'm a sophism or sexism.

Well, too bad that I can't have sex with my computer anyways. ;)

I had three poor refugees (Paul, Terry and Matthew) from their toxic house last night and Robin joined us later. We watched a Korean movie called "Friend", well first second, they wanted to watch a serious German movie, but soon I realized the German movie might make them sleepy and bored, so convinced them to watch Hollywood style Korean movie. Actually, it was the first Korean movie for them ever, well Paul said he has watched Korean Pornos. 8* I think I should ask him where I can get one too ;)

Friend: A Long and Close Company.

I'm thinking of the definition of friend for this moment. In the movie, it says that the definition of friend is "A long and close company". hum.. A long and close company. Do I have one..? I have lost in touch a lot of friends in Korea, but I know I will get in touch with them again whenever I go back to Korea. Somehow it makes me feel shame because I feel like I call them up when I need. I mean it's hard to keep in touch for me because I'm here and our life-style is totally different.. the saddest thing is that we have lost a lot of commons. Nevertheless, they are always there for me.

Just thinking of friendship.. It's easy to say "she is my friend or he is my friend "
But, Don't we just use this word extravagantly? There should be loyalty when we call someone as our friend. My first younger sister said once that there should be needed a psychological and physical attraction to each other, then friendship can go continue.

I'm glad that my friend Craig is no longer mad at me. He was mad at me because I used a part of his personal story for my video work that he insist on. But I was very defensive and thought it wasn't a big deal both him and I at all. Even I thought why he could not think that one as an artwork. Well, I should've known Craig hasn't got over his ex-relationship. So, we didn't call each other for one month and half.

The other night, we finally talked to each other and I let him know that I'm leaving for Korea from JFK this Sunday. He is trying to come by JFK to see me before I leave. I have 3 hours layover. Yea, Craig is my long and close American company that I believe..

Here is a picture of Craig when he visited Korea about 5 years ago.
We went to traditional Korean folk village. The one he puts on is a kind of old traditional punishment for kids. If a kid pee in the bed while sleeping, the kid has to go around neighborhood with on it in the morning. I think it's a cute thing.

I got up early today. It's kind of funny to me because I could never get up early during the semester, but now it's over.. then get up early. I'm too bad.

I'm looking for a song for this morning right now. I've been listening to "The Album Leaf" too much, so I need to change music to something new. How about "The Rapture"?

I need to start updating my website before going back to Korea. Nothing really is there and I want to have own my blog site too. So, I have to bug Paul for PHP things. Also, I've just started making a poster for Elmwoodstrip.com.

It's cold again. I don't like cold and snowy weather anymore. Whenever I complain about weather in Buffalo, a lot of people ask me about weather in Korea. Some people think of Korea is hotter than America. Well, Korea is definitely hotter than Buffalo. But, it is not like weather in middle Asia. Probably it is like weather in New York or Philadelphia in US.

Still looking for a good song for this morning. I think I should come over my friend's house to get some music because he said he has very good music collection. I've been looking for DJ Spooky.

My youngest sister finally got in Korea. We talked last night, but she was in a jet leg, so couldn't really say anything to me. Oh well, too bad, my second younger sister is in China for her business trip right now. So, we can't get all together again until the end of this year.

Coffee and a good music for this morning.. hum sounds good.. doesn't it..?

Well,Well,Well.
Until my friend, Nick in New York asked me to try to connect my video camera (not computer camera) into power book, I never thought it would work. He connected his video camera into his power book.. and I did same way. AND, we had a video camera chat. WOW. I was busy working on my final presentation for tomorrow.. but I had to do this modern experience. I told him if I do the video chat, I should take a shower, and put some makeup on my face. Then I will look better. I'm completely comfortable being in front of my computer right now. Also, even I didn't take a shower for today.. Can you smell something bad from me..?
Nick and I will try this again while I'm Korea. Now we have to figure out how to record our video chatting onto a DV tape. I'm doing memory of time difference between Korea and America, which is 14 hours difference, for one of my thesis project. Korea is 14 hours earlier than America. So, I will talk to him from the future time. Oh well, one problem has been solved.

It's only the time you can get crazy. That's how every parties stand for in America. No more calm person at the party for me anymore. I got crazy again.
But, I'm still not drunk. I really want to drink a lot, then go really crazy like how 19 or 20 years old kids do.. start getting curious of all kind of sexual things. But, I already perceive things good and bad too well.

There were two kids kept making out all the night at Robin's party. I don't even know who they are. One boy is one of Robin's student's friend. And the other girl came with some epeeps. Well, no one really cares of them actually, also it didn't even bother me at all. It was fun to watch them making out. I told people that I would tell them like "here is my apartment key, if you guys need a room for making out, you guys can go ahead at my place" and I really did it. This guy apologized to me. But I was totally teasing them.

I think I never saw people making out at the party in Korea. Well, I didn't even go to a party like this. But, I've seen it a lot in America. Well, now.. it's fun to watch it. Go ahead.. whatever.

It was a fun party. Of course, it was Robin's party, therefore it was a good party.
In a week, I will be in totally different situated place again. Even I can't really bring this story to my friends or family in Korea. I have to be another person for Korea that how I used to be.