So happy now.. but I still need to get more memory.. Ram.. and external hard drive and.. DVD burner.. a bag for all these stuff.. But, I'm so happy..

I watched a DVD movie on my bed last night, then fell asleep.. I can just lay down on my bed and do work.. so great.. I can just carry it around my house and do interenet.. This is so cool.. I just want to stay home and do something with my new powerbook.. that's why I didn't go to the party at soundlab last night.. Finally I have my big toy.. happy.. happy..

[c]
Yeah, there is a halloween party and it's also Holly's birthday party as well on this Saturday. Oh well, halloween costume is highly recommanded. It's going to be around midnight. What else..? oh.. Paul Vanouse (art Professor) offered us his friend's house to have a party, which is very nice of him. ;)
Where we are gonna have a party..? Uh.. 20 Auburn that is the address.
And, you don't wanna miss it because it's also Holly's birthday party as well.
(I think I'm not good at posting up this.. oh well) [/c]

Halloween Party & Holly's Birthday Party.
20 Auburn. Midnight, Saturday, October 30
Here the map is..

Happy Birthday, Holly. Where are you right now..? We were waiting for you at the old pink.. Happy birthday.. Holly

From all my heart. Soyeon.

Why not.. It's okay driving.. it's nothing. I can drive for 15 hours.. why not. I'm strong enough.. I'm getting sick of running into hearing the name everyday, also getting frustrated of running into left images of that here. I'm going.., Also, I feel that I'm stuck in my work.. it doesn't seem to go in progress at all. I'm going to take a break. That's my final decision.

One more person I was close to has just left Buffalo a few minutes ago. He was like my little Korean brother. Well, he was in New York to study GRE after graduating.
Finally, he got back to Buffalo the day before yesterday and packed all his old stuff, and then just left for New York again. Feel sad.

I drove for him to go to a restaurant that hasn't happened for a long time.
(He used to get a ride from me often long time ago)
He said, "Sister, what's wrong with your car.. it's dirty in here"
I replied to him. "It's okay.. it's not really dirty"
He said, "I meant, you were not used to be like this"
I said, "It's okay, it doesn't matter"

I remembered that he and my old housemate used to complain to me cleaning up the house and everything too much.. They used to tell me.. "Stop cleaning up, please" Yeah, I did care of even one hair on the floor. Now, I don't care. My room gets mess so often.

There will be no more person who knew me how I was. So, I can rebuild another history of me. Do you think that sounds good.? or sad in a way..?

He and I had a great brunch together. We talked about getting old. He pointed out that my facial skin is getting bad and suggested me to do some excercise.
"Sis, please take care of yourself, I'm worried about you."
He left behind this word to me and drove away. So sad.

Whenever I'm in the place to send away people I was close to, it makes me so sad..
I don't know how to explain the feeling exactly.