December, 28. 2001.

soyeon,

wow, what a crazy trip this has been so far. I'm sorry I didn't get to see
you before I left from Buffalo. The security people took me away because I
was going to be late for my flight. They went through all of my bags -twice!

It was all very strange and I'm wondering what you're thinking. I didn't do
it on purpose, they just made me leave right away so I would make the
flight, I wanted to say goodbye to you but they wouldn't let me see you.

In fact, in every city they have been checking me and going through my bag.

My first flight was late to Chicago which messed everything up. Now I'm very
late in getting to St. Thomas because I missed all my flights, also I have
no idea where all of my luggage is, I could never see it again. It had all
of the Christmas presents I was going to give to my family plus my clothes
of course.

Right now I'm in San Juan, Puerto Rico. It is 2:30 am and there is nobody
here. I'm the only passenger in the airport. It's weird and very lonely. I'm
very sad and very tired.

My flight to St. Thomas Leaves at 7:00 am and will only take 45 minutes.

I left a message for my mom telling her I was going to be late, she was mad
because she thought I missed my flight out of Buffalo.

I hate flying, it is so bad now, I like to travel but I really hate flying
now. This whole vacation has been very bad.

I also feel sad because I left you back in Buffalo. I really want to come
home now. Now it really sounds like I'm a baby.

Help !

I really really really miss you.

I hope things get better. I sent pictures of the lonely airport. I'll to my
parents house to rest and will call you in the afternoon. Talk to you soon.
love

---

It was raining a few minutes ago and I feel melancholy now, cause' I dreamed about you again. I realized that I already lost you at the airport 3 years ago. I was looking for you all over the places at the airport, but you just disappeared. I was on the security line for you. But, you were not there when I turned around to look over where you were standing again. I couldn't go home until most of people at the airport went away. I felt so strange and I got so feeling hurt at the time. Now, it left behind as my memory. Take care.

Soyeon.

The love which is started in passion calls a destructive future,
and the love where the passion is lost is dry.

I already know this two fact too well, it is empty.

-- SJ

That's me and robin's favorite place to eat out in the middle of night. I don't know where to go from now on. I love the pancakes with strawberry there. I should buy strawberry and make pancakes at home. That's better idea.? But, I'm not good at cooking american food. Well, the boycotting Panos email is circularing around media grads list server now.

And here the web address to sign up for saving the old building is.

www.petitiononline.com/1089elm/petition.html

So sad,..

Needless to say... 8*

[inlink]u=robin&id=272[/inlink] Robin, I'm not shy to talk about my dream with my close friends, but I just don't feel comfortable to talk about it with other people. Sometimes, I tell you my dream... "hey, Robin. I dreamed strange thing last night" like that because you are my sweet friend, so I can share some of my personal stories with you. But, you know why other people have to know about all my personal things. So this is totally a pressure, and I'm not ready to do that. So, do I have to lie about my dream because my professor told us.? Writing journal should not come from somebody asking. It's totally from our motivation. I don't know. I know they won't jurge me from reading my dreams, but still it is strange to me. I know you write about your dream, and it doesn't make me feel strange at all becaue it is your internal thoughts and you are motivated and willing to talk about it. But, I can't.. I mean, for myself, it is fine, I don't know.. anyway, I will think about it. . I'm not able to be articulate what's on my mind about this exactly.

I have so much things to do.. I've been lazy again, but something makes me feel good and smile these days. See you in the class tomorrow.