3rd try to post: 1st one lost; second one gone.this one doesn't do the first any justice. whatever - i am soooo stressed out; by means of my own procrastination. so much so that I am in pain - crazy muscle spasms. i need a new back massuese. the old one just up and vanished without so much as a "see ya its been real". whatever that was about. crazy young bucks. where are the mature bucks at? this little doe is so tired of games...

anyway. so there are tons that i need to do to progress yet i hold myself back without true justification. just lies i tell myself. whatever.

things that make things better:
wine (not really)
friendly gestures
love
plans, backup plans and backup plans for the backup plan
whatever again
blah blag blah blag blah...

I need a Kanye West "work out plan"
i should stop sipping and start walking home. its been a very lond day and it will probably be the same tomorrow since it all seems the same every day. nothing freakin' new.

last week my friend suggested that i "dumb" myself down so that I don't seem like a "smart ass" i replied...thats what i have done for the past three years. and frankly it seems like it has made me more of a hard ass that ever before


I feel like the longer i stay the deeper the grave I dig. no matter how lucrative they say it will get its not lucrative enough for me. i bet those western settlers thought the same thing as they dug for gold: "ima get rich betty" we gon hit the muthaload!

whatever.
it could be worse i suppose. how long will this dysfunction last?
arghhhh.:(

ps
weird: song on itunes now playing: Pearl Jam - Jeremy; very weird; very 1995ish;has nothing to do with any of the above listed references.

well...off to being a "smart ass" for the day 8* !!! There's no greater thrill that I look forward to other than to trek to cheektowaga in order to carry out my daily paid duties of being class smart ass #2!!! yipee!!!:)

i just woke up 8* it's 4:32pm - that's crazy - the day has passed me by...
but again, last night was well worth it. :)
I need to study too before a really good opportunity passes me by...
I too need to clean my apartment, however it looks no where near as
crazy as PMT's did when I left earlier this morning...

I want more of the delicious cake that I think Jill made for the birthday boys!
I can eat cake for breakfast/lunch!!! :)
so, plans for the day(not in the appropriate order):

1) study
2) eat cake
3) shakespeare in the park - before it ends tomorrow ("Taming of the Shrew")
4) clean apartment
5) clean hard drive
6) more partying somewhere???
8) assess budget
9) assess returns
10) clean carpets (uggghhh)

I should go for a walk first. priorities, priorities.

The party was really great! Kudos to all who came and represented - especially on the dance floor and to those who put together a really nice shindig!!! Sorry to all those who missed all the great people and the overall goodtime we had tonight. I just got home from the party. It's 6:26am and my neighbors above are still rockin' the house! party on...
Happy Birthday Terry and Mike "WHOO HOO" - you guys are the best!!! Mike I really hope you are feeling way better by the time you read this. I am sorry I could not stay and nurse you but I think you are ok as you finally drifted to a peaceful slumber.
It was great meeting all the elmwood strip community and then some...

I must retire to bed now, I biked home and I am beat!
Hope everyone had a fabulous time at the e-strip house!!

good night all or good morning...

funniest thing> (e:lilho) peeing in the spotlight @ kleinhan's for all of richmond ave to see her shadow! :) while (e:Terry) tries to push me on the bike in the water, yet, I freak out> he calles me a pussy. I reply "that I am when it comes to my phobias" :(
perhaps I should list a few of them:
1) birds
2) fluffy birds
3) any kind of fowl creature
4) mostly anything with wings
5) any animal essentially
6) swimming in the unknown where I cannot see the bottom! (yes this includes
lakes oceans, etc. -
7) etc....

so anyway - Metalpeter [inlink]metalpeter,77[/inlink] you can also purchase slurpees at the 7-11's in cheektowaga (union rd between walden and william as well as French Rd. right off of Union between clinton and losson rd)

p.s.
who's up for an e-strip end of summer, bring your own dish, community picnic in the park?