Your hands didn't move,
well neither did mine.
New Years will bring
so much to say
but nothing comes out right
both of us left without words
both of us lost in this world
it's softer than ever before.

I'm waiting to give you whatever the world may bring
I'd give you my life
cause I don't own anything.
I'd give you my life
if you'd give me yours somehow.

-- new year's project, fsf


happy new year everyone =0)

I have been informed of the true identity of Jacques, straight from the mouth (err, keyboard) of Di...

HulaKiana17: jacues is a crawfish by the by
FoOcHiK 1 8 2: OHHH
FoOcHiK 1 8 2: yay!
FoOcHiK 1 8 2: thanks!
HulaKiana17: like from new orleans hence the french
HulaKiana17: matt told me when we saw it because I didn't understand why he was french



so there you go, i stand corrected.=0)

Well tonight I decided to do something I should have done a long time ago and looked through the website made in Lauren's memory for about an hour. It has been up since October, and I looked at it a little then but tonight I decided to really go for it. I put up a posting and then went through the whole site, which includes pictures, quotes, messages from the family and an extremely moving and emotional speech by her younger sister.

Please look at the website if you can (called "Remembering Lauren" under my links). I don't know if you have ever lost a young or close friend but I can tell you, it was the hardest thing I have ever gone through. I just cried continuously for about an hour just looking at and thinking about Lauren. My thoughts are with AJ's family, as well. This time of year must be so difficult for their families, and my prayers are with them.

Never miss an opportunity to tell someone that you love them. Remember what truly matters, don't take anything or anyone for granted because you never know if it will be your last time together, and I mean it. I know I don't always remember this advice, but it's so important. You may think that worrying and fussing about little things is important...but when you find yourself sitting in the funeral of not only a 19-year-old girl, but one of the most talented, beautiful and amazing people I have ever known...you realize what is actually important. I wish it didn't take something like that to make me feel this way, but I am doing what I can and taking away the best things I find. I miss Lauren every day, more than words could say.

I don't mean to be all depressing. But everything I just said, I mean with all my heart. I know it may not mean as much just hearing it from me, but please keep it in mind. Tell people you love them, hug people if that's your thing, whatever! Don't hold back because you never know what will happen. Make memories and live life as much as you can. It's times like those that will live on and never stop making people smile. Thanks for reading.

I can't stand when I write an entire entry and then I accidentally hit something and the whole thing is deleted, ahhh how annoying!

So we'll just summarize. I think I'm going through an "I can't stand any item of clothing that I own anymore" phase, and that's never good because I'm not going through an "I'm making so much money to buy clothes" phase, and it would be nice if the two coincided. Well at least gift cards exist.

Yesterday I enjoyed mucho shopping. I also learned how to wash hand wash sweaters in a machine, listened to some new musica and talked to that "Critter" on the phone for awhile, hahaha. All in all a good day.

This morning my family went to the Original Pancake House and it was so crowded!! But mmmm...so good. I basically inhaled my food. Then of course today I did more shopping and washed more clothes and am almost finished with Cat's Cradle. Good book, it's a really good part but I had to put it down. We're going out to exchange Secret Santa presents (and Mike has gotten me so excited for it...:P ) at Jimmy Mac's. Somewhere new and exciting...very unlike us. I'm sure we'll end up at Coffee & or someplace familiar because a whole new atmosphere might freak us out too much.

Well, time to sign off...any good book ideas anyone??? email them my way!

so would you think i was cooler if i could sit down at any piano and play random Gershwin tunes? because that was my main issue of the day, memorizing chord progressions and stuff. maybe i could even impress people and act like i'm just figuring them out in my head, hahaha.

hmm i should have asked for the new saves the day cd for christmas. while i am not really into that stuff anymore, i'm so in the mood for it right now. it is blasting in my new awkward behind-my-head headphones. yay rock music.

Missing Image ;(

ahh why is dori my favorite character ever? i watched finding nemo tonight with my roomie and company. she is so funny. a cute movie in general. i am also a fan of jacques, the little french shrimp. i cannot find a picture, sadly enough. the google image search did not deliver this time.

i got my jimmy eat world dvd today, =o) why are they so great???? i can't wait to see them in concert again, it is just the best time ever.

good night y'aaaall.