so tonight was so great. a harry cd for $2.50, an amusing waiter at applebee's, high voice galore, a legolas tin (THANK YOU J-DAWG!!!), an exclusive european treasure from mo (thaaaaaaaanks!!!!!) and a male j***e b******** sighting (censored). ahh these crazy buffalonians =o)

even though I sort of think resolutions are dumb because they are usually just things people should do normally, and are usually forgotten by january 6th...i will make a short list, similar to Mike's, but of course not as entertaining, as usual =0)

1) to travel...this is a bit cheating, because I am leaving for seattle on the 8th, so this is like a guaranteed resolution. I would just like to add on to that. I'm thinking about making a trip to pittsburgh with jill and beast in february, and have promised to go to guilderland, and then there's new orleans hopefully...and of course, CHAMBER SINGERS TOUR! (turning 21 while in new york city...=0)

2) to make money. and actually keep it. What an annoying thing, but essential if I wish to afford the best apartment ever. Well, the apt plus all the other essentials (i.e. rain forest room, sliding ladder, ICE CREAM MAKER, waffle maker, 30 to 60 magazine subscriptions, sandwich maker...)

All right well that's all I can think of. And I'd like a higher GPA. And to see Jimmy Eat World in concert again. Well, hopefully they will go on tour, haha. And to find the most fantastic apartment everrrrr. AND TO SPEAK IN HIGH VOICE!! (written in high voice)

good night, sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite

happy new year, again! i can't say i am sorry to see 2003 go...i am looking forward to making 2004 a great one. paul's was a lot of fun, thanks for having us!! i'm really glad di and matt came. i was nervous about the whiskey but it went down quite well and certainly did the trick =o) sorry for no making out but there was plenty of other making out to go around.

i would like to say i'm a superstar at guesstures, by the way. i really stole the show tonight, if i do say so myself. yessss team hotness.

so i have to be up at 7 am tomorow, and its 1, yay! i feel like i'm back at school. but i get to make money, soooo that is nice.

oh i can't wait to go back and see my screamers on the 8th!!! yay seattle.

why is harry connick jr sooooo amazing...i leave you to ponder this...mmmmm.....

Your hands didn't move,
well neither did mine.
New Years will bring
so much to say
but nothing comes out right
both of us left without words
both of us lost in this world
it's softer than ever before.

I'm waiting to give you whatever the world may bring
I'd give you my life
cause I don't own anything.
I'd give you my life
if you'd give me yours somehow.

-- new year's project, fsf


happy new year everyone =0)

I have been informed of the true identity of Jacques, straight from the mouth (err, keyboard) of Di...

HulaKiana17: jacues is a crawfish by the by
FoOcHiK 1 8 2: OHHH
FoOcHiK 1 8 2: yay!
FoOcHiK 1 8 2: thanks!
HulaKiana17: like from new orleans hence the french
HulaKiana17: matt told me when we saw it because I didn't understand why he was french



so there you go, i stand corrected.=0)

Well tonight I decided to do something I should have done a long time ago and looked through the website made in Lauren's memory for about an hour. It has been up since October, and I looked at it a little then but tonight I decided to really go for it. I put up a posting and then went through the whole site, which includes pictures, quotes, messages from the family and an extremely moving and emotional speech by her younger sister.

Please look at the website if you can (called "Remembering Lauren" under my links). I don't know if you have ever lost a young or close friend but I can tell you, it was the hardest thing I have ever gone through. I just cried continuously for about an hour just looking at and thinking about Lauren. My thoughts are with AJ's family, as well. This time of year must be so difficult for their families, and my prayers are with them.

Never miss an opportunity to tell someone that you love them. Remember what truly matters, don't take anything or anyone for granted because you never know if it will be your last time together, and I mean it. I know I don't always remember this advice, but it's so important. You may think that worrying and fussing about little things is important...but when you find yourself sitting in the funeral of not only a 19-year-old girl, but one of the most talented, beautiful and amazing people I have ever known...you realize what is actually important. I wish it didn't take something like that to make me feel this way, but I am doing what I can and taking away the best things I find. I miss Lauren every day, more than words could say.

I don't mean to be all depressing. But everything I just said, I mean with all my heart. I know it may not mean as much just hearing it from me, but please keep it in mind. Tell people you love them, hug people if that's your thing, whatever! Don't hold back because you never know what will happen. Make memories and live life as much as you can. It's times like those that will live on and never stop making people smile. Thanks for reading.