So I picked my first flower of 2005 today. It's a glimmer of hope that spring will be here soon. I'm sure winter hasn't left yet, but he's definitely winding down. I can smelll the grass again, visions of childhood fill my head, bike riding, my childhood home, and my little blue suit I wore on Easter when I was like 4. Good feelings, It's terrific how the mind can paint pictures with scent. But nothing brings me back more than the smel of lilacs, I can't wait. Lilacs, to me, are happiness. A time machine to a time when I was fearless, ignorant, and on top of the world. Melancholy memories, my mind swirls around them, I'm filled with calm and longing. The past is so close I can smell it, because no matter how much I change, how much the world changes, I'll always have Lilacs and fresh cut grass. I am so grateful for that.

Well I'm sure we can all agree, winter blows. It's funny I've lived here my entire life and every year I can't believe how long winter is. How do we forget so fast, how do forget 6 MONTHS of winter ??? Well in less than two months I'll be smelling the roses in Europe, can't wait. Maybe I'll even come back.

I'm very worried about this new fantastic four movie. I just can't see any way that it could be good. The worst part is, I'm sure I'll see it just to prove myself right. I was excited about Spidy, and the Punisher was a wonderfully violent movie, but whats next ? I know, how about another Captain America movie or even better all of the Avengers. Suck Suck Suck. What was the last original movie to come out ? It's all remakes, cartoons/comics, novels, or just stealing the premise of another movie. I wonder if I'll ever get to use my free movie passes ?

Well just two more months before Europe. I've been brushing up on my French and attempting to learn German. I've been going to chat rooms at Yahoo UK and Yahoo DE ( Germany ). My time there makes me feel like a total retard, most kids in Germany speak three languages, I speak one fairly well. And I do mean kids, like 15 y/o's. I know that English is becoming our worlds language, when I was in Paris, you see Chinese and French people speaking English to each other because it's a common language. We're just spoiled, I wonder the percentage of Natural born Americans that are fluent in another language, due to schooling ( high school, college). I doubt it's very high. Well, my last complaint is that I'm irritated that Orchard Park didn't have a German class, and the last I knew neither did ECC. I like the language, and it's closer to English than French or Spanish. If only i went to Frontier, then maybe I'd know what anybody in Schindler's List was saying. All I could grasp was " Gute nacht mutter " Oh well, auf wiedersehn !

[size=l]When we two parted [/size]

When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted,
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning
Sank chill on my brow -
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame:
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me -
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well: -
Long, long shall I rue thee
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met -
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee? -
With silence and tears.

~ Lord Byron