will combine for a most unfavorite day of mine. i just spent two hours being thuroughtly confused by three different tutors in the math lab. aren't these people supposed to know this stuff.

so, an offer stand that i will feed you , massage you, and bath you on sunday if you promise to help me with my stats. i have an exam on mon, and have to get better than a 65 this time. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE, ANYONE......

and with that, i bid you good day. enjoy the cold windyness and wet snow, i know i will.

waking up to rain, and having unpleasant dreams is not the best.

im missing my mom a lot. and i need a huggle. thats a huddle of hugs.

so much work to do...

anyway. my car is depressed and refuses to pass inspetion. what shall i do. speak softly to it, and hope that it feels better soon.

i ordered netflix and will be receiving my first order on monday. hells yea.

also. my bday celebration. 1000 voelkers, sat night. if you don't i automatically hate you. if you do come, i might show you a nipple. lol.

if you come and buy me drink, ill go home with you.

its win/win.

is everyone having PMS, or a case of PMT? LOL. drama. hey, lets all just drink and be merry. besides, if there is no party. terry can't be my lion, as i am his tamer. people, come on.

apparently i didn't get any of my voicemail this week. i suddenly had 15 new messages today. aobut half were from my mother. i miss her.

the more the holidays near, the more i hope i don't spend them alone, as it is unlikely i get to go away for thanksgiving, and i will definitely be here for christmas. thats really depressing.

i hope (e:hodown) can come and celebrate xmas with me, and that i will be ableto get away to nyc for thanksgiving. otherwise, i will prob intrude on one of your holdiay celebrations, bitches.

on another note, i need to get my damn inspection sticker. I've been without one for a while now, and i tired to go in friday, but they "didn't have time". i was supposed to get my ass up in time to go before work today, but i didn't. my bad. monday will be a very special day.

i keep having these awful dreams, which also include close friends and family, and something very bad happening. like, the time my brother was going to kill me. or the time i was having an illegitimate child, and wouldn't tell the father i was pregnant. freud could have a field day with those.

on another note, i am getting too large. i am going to be on vaca in a month, and don't want to hear it from mother that i shouldn't carry so much weight in my torso, and will be forced to be something about this in the next few weeks. if i can drop 5-10 lbs that will be good. i just need to stop eating only bread, cereal, pasta, and subs, and some fucking vegetables. and do a couples crunches here and there. maybe go to the gym at school, maybe. maybe i can actually work up the courage to wake at 6 and work out before class. if i did that, i would be the shit.

i miss my girlfriends and currently have an opening for a girlfriend who: is smart, has similar style, likes to laughabout stupid stuff, will dance, will party, will listen to my many issues, and who is looking for the same. i do love my gays, but the bf is away, and i don't get to talk to her much. (e:tina) is great too, but we never see eachother anymore. she always has to do art shit. i hate artists. jk. i just miss having someone to talk to.

fall is a lovely season, but somewhat lonely, and winter even more so.

i really think im gonna paint my apartment in the next few weeks...if i ever get that damn loan check...

have a good weekend (e:peeps). i better see ya'll at the bowling alley next sat. :O)