i have my very own cute little place. now all i need is a job until sep. ahhh.

i have talked with, gone to so many salons, and no one wants me yet. i have to make them want me. seriously. im good. i should strap them down and show them my skills. hmmm.

i love apartments of my very own.

mommy leaves soon. t-2 days. :(

and i don't feel the same.-keen

kinda how i feel. im just a little nervous. found a new place. have to get a new job. working in a salon. im nervous. i guess i just hate the idea of rejection, even though i've dealt with it and we all have countless times. i think, why can't someone seek me out and offer me a job at a great salon? that is not going to happen. somehow i hope it will.

i need to get over this. i need to face the fact that nobody is going to walk me through life, except me. nobody. you just can't depend on people to be there.

i keep thinking, man, this would all be a lot easier with nicole and tina around, and of course, (e:hodown). the big sis always tells it like it is.

i have no girlfriends here. jess is out of town, or always with doggie. nicole is always on some big epic adventure, and tina, well, ladt year was a bad year for us. we will see eachother more this year.

well, good day peeps. stay cool.


p.s. i did my mothers hair last night. amazing.:)

something that makes her unable to sit still for more than two minutes. this woman is nutso. i am stuck where she is staying, while she is here, for the day, because i had to take my car in and she going off to meet some friends. hmmmm. a day spent in someone else's house waiting for my mother to come back from playing with her friends. i wonder how many paper airplanes i could make today. probably a ton, literally.

so, im hoping that the apartment i am sending my mother off to see while i'm at school today will be the one. im really at the brink of sanity.

im hungry, need breppast.

p.s. my street is covered with pollen. so if you are allergic, steer clear of ashland b/t bird and potomac.

but don't we all?

started out with bacon and egg and one (e:thesimeon). then ooff to the boys for some cemetary walks and giggles with (e:terry). (e:matthew) was off taking pictures of pretty lady statues.

now, we are done with walk, and im hungry again! the guys are trying to get me to invite mommy ho over for some gumbo night...mmm. hmmmm. maybe.

either way, why must it be monday tomorrow?

below is a pic of (e:terry) speaking into someone's grave fountain. just can't ever get that boy to be serious. damn.

just spent the last two nights at crystal beach. i come back thirsty, with headache and strange mystery gash between my eyebrows. it seems to be getting bigger. hmmm.

anyway, we jumped off the old pier thurs night, and i think i forever injured my ears. i figure in about 20 yrs ill just be totally deaf.

the beach is nice. just being by any water is nice. even if it is the chemical infested great lake erie. i do not like sleepy in gritty sandiness, so it will be nice to return to my bed tonight.

today is laundry and odds and ends day. tonight, the possibilities are endless. actually, that's not true. ill probably just finish the book that it has taken me forever to get through.

this journal has no real order of events, but, randomness is good.

so these beach people... they were cool. sort of friends of friends, or something like that. its nice to be around big families, but i guess its never as good as being around your own. its weird though, we never seem to be in the same place at the same time anymore. nobody lives in blo anymore,and i guess i wont stay here long either. its just getting harder and harder to make things work here, pkus there's a whole world out there, and i feel like im holding back. where's the crazy sarah of yesteryear? she's been locked away for quite some time now. ah well.

i miss the boys. i think they come home today.


p.s. i hope the mystery gash doesn't scar.