tina and i are amazed with jill's sketching ability. jill, what drugs are you taking to complete your wondeerful sktech masterpieces, can you share with us, we need help!

the rain has come ,and shows no signs of stopping. at least we can have two months of nice weather(maybe) before we return to the snow.
i can't update from home anymore. my computer wont load the site, how strange?

do you think you have a problem if you are constantly high? i mean high at work, high at home, and just high in general? i would say yes. some other people say no. pot is fun, in smaller doeses. we must learn to appreciate it, rather than use in large quantities and spend our days in utter supidness.

i have decided to devote more time to crafts, as they are fun, and i am good at them. i have this one really cool project in mind; it involves records, and that is all i will say for now.
if i don't do laundry tomorrow, i will just have to be naked all day, and knowing that i will have to leave the house at some point, i will have to do laundry. this, i am not happy about. i hate doing laundry, lets all move to a nudest colony, or just wearing very little clothing all the time.

the last point i will make is about this weather. dear buffalo weather: please stop being decent only when i am at work. i have many outdoor activities planned that require sun amd warm weather. i am really tired of being inside all the time. thank you

i have been completely devoid of estrip for the past five days, or so. why is my computer so dumb? the answer is easy, its really old, and was never good in the first place. perhaps my recent separation from the strip has caused this horrible mood i am currently in.
i want it to go away, right now. i think this is the normal cycle of moods. i am happy most of the time, and then sad for a while. i think i have just reason. the biggest change of my life thus far is in the process of happening, and it is making me feel not quite together. other emotions include, fear, lonliness, anger, and blah, blah , blah. the most upsetting thing is that i have to let go of this mazing piece of family history i have lived in for over 14 years now. i love you 27 Mang, you will be in my heart forever. i heart you.
the good news. well there is just so much. my friend nicole comes home soon, and we have so much planned for this crazy summer. lots of other people are coming home too. but, nicole has pool and hottub. summer is coming, and there aint nothin bad about that. oh summer, how i have missed you. we will be happy together, when you finally come.
tina leaves thurs or fri...sigh. i am really going to cry very hard. this will not be good. this is no good. tina, if you don't come back to visit this summer, i will hunt you down, in bali, or wherever the hell you are, and bring you back here, and make you stay until i get sick of you. then, you can go stay with flacidness, or estrip peoples.
i wrote too much. i am going to find some pizza. pizza is the new love of my life.

don't want to write much, i am not in a typing mood, or writing mood for that matter. maria stopped by today. matthew terry and i went for a nice long walk. i feel refreshed. met with my aunt today, and i shall live with her for the summer. yay! i have so much stuff to do...shit.

it seems that life is constantly making us wait. waiting for the phone to ring. waiting to hear to good or bad news. waiting for someone or something, just sitting, or pacing and wanting that monet to come and be over with. well, i do not want to wait anymore. enough of this passiveness.

in other words, if you make me wait, i might not be there when you are ready for me.

note to flacidness: i cannot resist temptation either. or is it that i am looking for something, and when i find it, i no longer have the need to have everything? you will find your thing, and thn you will no longer have so much desire.
did that make sense? am i making sense?