I have recently joined a "dart league" with some friends, and my team is the laughing stock of the entire league. When it comes to playing darts, my team may be dead last in the fun little league, but we can hold our own. I believe that if there wasn't so much smack talking and if my partners eyes could actually open all of the way that we would win, well atleast one game. I really do think that the last week of dart league we are going to come back strong and kick some ass, and then the teams that lose to us will be understanding how we feel. My partner needs to focus and choose either beer or weed...not both, and I realized that i need earplugs, I get distracted way too easily.
On another note...it is official I am going to Raliegh next month for a minivacation, and to look for a job. As sad as it is to admit that I might have to move away from a town that I love so much, I have to think of my future, and unfortunately Buffalo may not have what I need. I know that I would move back though, my life is here, and family, I love living in Buffalo.

Dan, I know that you know this is me so, when and if you read this I would like to tell you that it is your turn to buy cigarettes for tomorrow. Thank you!

Last night I was out with my friends for our usual Friday night Happy Hour, my wonderful couple friends left early, big surprise considering that they have aged from 25 to 95 in a matter of 1 1/2 years. But, some other friends came and enjoyed a few drinks with us, and I have to say it was a breath of fresh air when they showed up. We always have fun together, and it is so refreshing to be able to laugh and truely enjoy my time with them. My one friend is such a gentleman, it is amazing to me, he needs to teach all of guys how to treat a girl like a lady. Although I may be looked at as one of the guys, it is really nice to be treated like a woman, it doesn't happen all too often. When he showed up he kissed my hand, he lets you go first through a door, he genuinely wants to know about your life, and he compliments me like I haven't had in some time now...it is really nice, and I have to say I admire him in a whole new way now. I think that chivalry is endangered, if not totally extinct, I believe that the womens rights movement might have something to do with it, but when did we say that we didn't want to get treated respectfully, we should get treated equally, but when did we start getting treated "like one of the guys". I personally still would like to have a little bit of romance in my life, and it is definately the simple things that a man can do for me that make me really happy.

I haven't written in awhile and things haven't really changed much. Still having a good time with my friends...just working a lot more. I guess somethings have changed though, when it comes to my friendships with some people. I have a friend that since she has entered the relationship she is in,she has completely changed. She has become miserable, especially when we go out, and I am convinced that her boyfriend does not care for me just because I am single, and she has a questionable past, and I think he might think I am trying to get her to do the same things that she did in her past...I am not getting into details, and that sentence barely makes sense,but,can't we all just have fun, and get along. Some friends may call me the "pep squad", but who cares, life is too short to bull shit around and act like an idiot.
And another thing...I wonder if you find out that someone has said something about you that is not in the best of taste, why is it so hard to be the stronger person and not stoop to their level? I know what I am like, I know my faults, but I also know my strengths...I have made mistakes, and taken risks, and I am ok with that. And I know that the friends that stick with me through the years love me for that! So, as my mom always said to me "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all."
Finally,For an update with the fellows in my life...still having fun with the noncommitted relationship i am in...as for the others, they are just friends and always will be. I may sound fiesty in this journal...just haven't gotten things off my chest in awhile, thanks for listening.

Happy New Year! Last night was a fun night, this year a few of my friends and I decided to lay low and go to a party instead of the downtown/bar thing. Usually I head down for the ball drop, and then go to some bar from there, and this year I did not want to deal with the crowds. I did miss being at the actual ball drop though. It was always fun, even when the weather was not that great. We had plans last night to start out at one party and go to another, but we ended up just staying at the one the whole night. There were the typical drunk people that can not hold their alcohol, and the ones that don't talk that much, but all in all I was fortunate enough to hang out with some old friends and some new cool people. Good times for all, and a safe night for us!