A couple of times within the past week I have had comments directed towards me about being 25 and not being married. One was from a customer I was waiting on, he asked me if I was going to school still, i told him no, then he asked me if I was even 18 years old yet, I told him that I am 25, and then he says are you married? I said no, and then he asked why not? I told him that there are a few things that are more important to me than being married, and besides i am not all that interested in being married, atleast not until I am maybe...i don't know...40. Another conversation was with a few girls that I work with that are between the ages of 18 and 21, and one of the 18 year old girls said that she doesn't want to be 25 and not be married and with out kids, then when she realized that she said this in the presence of me, she looked like a deer in the headlights. I found it to be amusing, I told her she didn't affend me, and I told her that I think that her thoughts on things might change between now and when she is my age, just like mine might change between now and 7 years from now. I just don't understand why people find it strange that I am in my midtwenties and not looking to walk down the aisle any time soon, I think the thing that is most important to me now is finding a full time job with in my field. I also know that I am young still and if I was meant to be married at 25 I would be...I am happy that I am not though.

I was at the gym working out yesterday, and when I am there I enjoy reading the closed captioning on the news channels. There was a story about some new gummy candy that is called "road kill", in the package there are gummy animals that look like road kill- they even have the tire tracks across them. I was reading this and started laughing, I thought it was such a funny idea, especially for little boys who love things like that. Well, I guess that animal rights activists were all up in arms about this...and all i was thinking was THEY ARE GUMMY CANDY, it seems like a joke to me, maybe I am insensitive to things like this, but I don't see what the big deal is. On another note, but kind of the same in a round about way...I was watching the Jennifer Lopez special on MTV the other day, she did a fashion show, and it was all about the planning and execution of the show. I have a secret addiction to silly shows like this, and I truly believe that if my "real" dreams of being a back up singer don't pan out, that I will do something with designing fashion and helping with runway shows...anyway, this one model on the show said that she refused to wear an article of clothing that was fur because it came from an animal, and she doesn't agree with that, but then later in the show she wore something that was leather, and JLO made a comment that I found amusing, she said something like, Doesn't she realize that leather comes from an animal? I don't understand that whole thing... I love to eat meat, and I have to say leather shoes are way better than pleather shoes!

I have recently joined a "dart league" with some friends, and my team is the laughing stock of the entire league. When it comes to playing darts, my team may be dead last in the fun little league, but we can hold our own. I believe that if there wasn't so much smack talking and if my partners eyes could actually open all of the way that we would win, well atleast one game. I really do think that the last week of dart league we are going to come back strong and kick some ass, and then the teams that lose to us will be understanding how we feel. My partner needs to focus and choose either beer or weed...not both, and I realized that i need earplugs, I get distracted way too easily.
On another note...it is official I am going to Raliegh next month for a minivacation, and to look for a job. As sad as it is to admit that I might have to move away from a town that I love so much, I have to think of my future, and unfortunately Buffalo may not have what I need. I know that I would move back though, my life is here, and family, I love living in Buffalo.

Dan, I know that you know this is me so, when and if you read this I would like to tell you that it is your turn to buy cigarettes for tomorrow. Thank you!

Last night I was out with my friends for our usual Friday night Happy Hour, my wonderful couple friends left early, big surprise considering that they have aged from 25 to 95 in a matter of 1 1/2 years. But, some other friends came and enjoyed a few drinks with us, and I have to say it was a breath of fresh air when they showed up. We always have fun together, and it is so refreshing to be able to laugh and truely enjoy my time with them. My one friend is such a gentleman, it is amazing to me, he needs to teach all of guys how to treat a girl like a lady. Although I may be looked at as one of the guys, it is really nice to be treated like a woman, it doesn't happen all too often. When he showed up he kissed my hand, he lets you go first through a door, he genuinely wants to know about your life, and he compliments me like I haven't had in some time now...it is really nice, and I have to say I admire him in a whole new way now. I think that chivalry is endangered, if not totally extinct, I believe that the womens rights movement might have something to do with it, but when did we say that we didn't want to get treated respectfully, we should get treated equally, but when did we start getting treated "like one of the guys". I personally still would like to have a little bit of romance in my life, and it is definately the simple things that a man can do for me that make me really happy.