You were one of the only people ever to talk to me in person from this site. You were one of the only people who gave me a chance. The fact that I see the world differently than other people was okay with you. You were my favorite journal writer. You were my birthday buddy. Now who will write my favorite journal?

You have to do what is best for you. I understand. I just wish it never had to come to this. You know my take on it so I won't repeat it. It's an unfortunate situation.

Jason

What? You're 25 and not married with babies yet? WTF? (Only kidding)

One of the great things about being a guy is that when you turn 25 your dating life really is only beginning. Nobody looks at you weird if you don't have a serious girlfriend or a wedding band. Finally you have some dollars in your pocket and are somewhat stable, so your dating pool becomes larger. I don't know too many guys who care about marriage at this point. Why would they when they haven't even reached their peak yet?

I don't think that anything is "wrong" with marriage itself, but most people give themselves a hell of a lot more credit than they deserve when it comes to keeping a commitment. They don't fully understand what they are getting into. They don't have what it takes to stay faithful or to be compassionate. We aren't raised to be able to get through the hard times. People think they should never have to go through hard times. I can't believe how many stupid, selfish young kids get themselves into a situation where it is so painful and expensive to get out of it after they realize they weren't made for each other after all (we expect and demand perfection, nothing less).

You've said yourself that you aren't a very commitment minded person, so who cares what other people think? You're doing what's best for you, not what's best for someone else. Forget about the pressure. I'm glad you march to the beat of your own drum when it comes to this. I have a friend who is 26 and is dying to meet her husband and pop out kids before she's 30. She has an agenda and wants the perfect man to fit the agenda. I feel sorry for her. You know yourself better than anyone and I'm glad to read about someone being realistic and doing what they like. Good for you.

Jason

Anybody ever heard of this? 20% of men get 80% of the women, through their looks or money or power. Women are willing to share a "winner" rather than being with someone who isn't the creme de la creme (after all, we all deserve the best don't we?), leaving many men unable to find a partner. This may explain why you see girls trying to go after married guys. I don't particularly think it's true or false. I want to know what you think.

Jason

See, this is the extent of my artistic ability. Good for you who can do this stuff!

Jason

I mostly agree with Doc C on this. I think he made some reasonable observations. I've had conversations with an unnamed e-stripper about art because I want to understand from their perspective. I appreciate people who have the creativity and imagination to produce art works for us to enjoy because I know sure as shit that my stick figures are not impressive.

I tried really hard yesterday to come up with some art using Photoshop. All I wanted to do was take Doc C's face off of his user photo and superimpose it on Max Julien's body using my VHS copy of "The Mack". I couldn't even come close to doing it. I suck at Photoshop, so maybe I'll just stay with what I know: stick figures!

Jason