Thanks to jill i am inlove with tilly and the wall. I have been searching all day for a sight where I could listen to their songs and I did. thats the link to it. I think everyone should try it out. and the website is sooo cute. It even has a "register to vote" link! Thank you jill!

hokay, so here is something that a lot of people seem to have; the ability to determine weather or not someone is gay by looking at them alone. A alam goes of in their heads called "gaydar". I don't have that. Whenever I see any guy gaydar goes off in my head. Which gets me into trouble. So I found a book called "GAYDAR" by; donald F. Reuter. I've read the whole thing and I will qoute some of the things it said and maybe it will help repair my baydar.
1. Straight girls are their bestfriends.
2. Things that would make him say "awwww".
- card stores especially around christmas
- plush pets
-in front of a window of a real pet store.
3. Things that make him go "eewwww".
- bugs
- roadkill
- flatulence
- female genitalia
4. words a gay man would use.
- divine, dandy, precious, delightful, enchanting.
5. the gayest sounding words end in "ous"
ex.- fabulous, marvelous, stupendous, pendulous
5. three "regular guy" jobs we wish were gay;
- fireman (sleeping arrangements, and that pole)
- forest ranger (bear lovers)
- gym teacher (duh!)
6. What gay men would have as body art
- navel ring
- prince albert
- tattoo above his butt
- a chain or vine like tattoo above his biceps.
7. Finally the music:
GAY MEN FAVORITE DIVAS:
- Donna summer
- bette midler
- Aretha franklin
- Whitney Houston
- Eartha Kitt
- Sara Vaughn
- Peggy Lee
- Grace Jones (which I don't understand personally)
- Madonna (duh!)
GAY MEN FAVORITE MUSIC VIDEOS:
- Vouge by: Madonna
- Love Shack By: the b52's
- Free your Mind By: envouge
- Groove is in the heart by: DEE-LITE
I hope this has helped you as much as it has helped me. If a guy you are not certain about carry more than two of these traits chances are he's gay. Thank you and good luck finding him.

I am in the middle of the divinci code now and I LOVE IT! I also would like to read the clinton book, so if boxerboi reads it before me write about it please. Late night lastnight led to wierd night night, which led to tired day. I thought of something creative that I have to give myself snaps for. When I was at the pink lastnight Tron said "one mans trash is another mans treasure". And I replied with "just like one mans penis is another mans pleasure". We all laughed and I thought of it right on the spot. I hope no one famous said that. My next entire will be about GAYDAR. Something that I lack and I hope will help me and help all of you who are not sue if the guy you are diggin is gay. I would have wrote it tonight, but I forgot my notes. So it will be up next time. Anywho keep safe all. And remeber love.

Foolishly enough I dreamed. i just wondered what It would be like with him. I let my fantasy actually take me into absurd actions. You and i are different. You prance your falming shit around and draw his attention. Now I am invisible. I had his spotlight before; and I became his star for one night. What I didn't know is once you are his star, the spotlight searches for another star to shine on. And mine is dimmed completly out of the light. Now I am just being paranoid right? No. He lives up to his reputation that is rumored. i should have know better. And that is not the first time I've told myself that. When will I learn. So what do I do? DO I confront him and ask him if he is slepping with me, then why is he slobbering over you? No. I finish what I am doing, leave, and let it happen. me against you? You win.

The first time I ever played that game, i played with some friends of mine and a girl I just met. The deal was If you picked up a certain card You had to say something that you have never done, It didn't have to be sexual, but they were. Anyway so after you say something you have never done, the other people playing the game has to drink IF they've done it. I felt like a slut. Because my friends were conservative prudes. And the girl stranger was a VIRGIN! So ofcourse fate had it that she would always pick up the never have I ever card and make me look like a whore! Thank you girl I got mighty drunk that night. And thank you trisha and springfaerie, it's nice to know that people are reading what you write. And also I find there is a lot of things I have never done now that i've read you guys journal. And I say we should tackle them together! Even the GIANT pumkin! Thank you again, peace and love.