I decided as I do all the time that I need to change. This is good cause when i don't want to change I know I am not feeling inspired. I have decided that I am not a very interesting person.

A)I never pay attention to what is going on around me

B)I never know what is going on in the world
---can someone just tell me daily what is going on in the news so i don't have to go searching for it? Its all just too much effort.

C) I am not very smart, and at this point its too much effort to catch up on what everyone else knows so I think i should just give up now
---but i am not going to, but I need to actually start doing stuff like learning spanish, the countries of the world, reading my magazines,studying for the GRE's (which i am nervous about now that Maureen is already studying for them)

D) Am I EVER going to get better at the guitar? Gosh i actually need to start practicing.



Its just a matter of finding time and daily inspiration to do all of this. Any suggestions?

I don't think I ever talked about the summer research I am doing? Its on resiliency and how people bounce back to stressful life events. I think its a really important topic to people's lives. We are so afraid of failure and things going on in life that we loose faith in ourselves to keep going after sometime bad happens. I think its partially because we don't have a very supportive society. There are very supportive people but I think our society as a whole just does not look out for each other or take others into consideration. I am really curious as to people's thoughts on resiliency and if people think of themeself as resilient? Or if people see good things that come out of bad situation, etc? If people are interested in this topic I would be really interested to see what you guys think. I am not using it for my research I was just wondering in general what you guys think. Thanks!

So today (actually 7/5/04) was Justin's birthday, but I forgot. I just happened to ask him when his birthday was and he said 12 minutes ago. So strange that I even though to ask him. So I think I will send him an e-mail and a present in the mail with a card.

I shopped all day for a bathing suit and I think I may have settled for one. But does anyone have suggestions for a place to find a nice 2 piece that covers a lot bathing suit? My one that i got was like $40.

Oh...I didn't realize that I had posted all the thank you's to Jill. Apparently I still don't completely understand how this whole thing works?-hahaha.

I tried to make you a sketch but everytime i did it didn't come out. But thank you so much for cheering me up-you are the sweetest! Thanks for being such a great friend.