I don't know why really but I just feel a little down lately? So while I was already feeling down, I was taking pictures in my room to try to cheer myself up by getting interested in a project. I took a picture of my fish tank and I am zooming in on it after I take the picture and I am wondering what this thing is in the picture. I look up at my fish tank and my frog is dead. I have had my frog since i first got the tank about a year and a half ago-he was the last surviver of the original fish tank. I was so sad that I was crying and went downstairs to my parents and sat on their laps. WHen am i ever going to grow up?-i really don't think i am ever going to be able to move out of my house.

I did nothing for the fourth. In fact I didn't even watch fireworks. I was taking a bath at the time trying to figure out why I am so sad? I don't wish i had done something I just wish I felt more in the spirit!!

Today when driving home from meeting one of the Polish boyz that I am going out with tonight, on the 290 there was a most disturbing car accident. I know its not exactly on the "strip" but did anyone see it? It was so so creepy. All I really saw though was a red convertible on its side across 3 lanes with glass all around it. Does anyone know how it happened or if anyone died? I hope no one did but it looked horrible.

Robin-I would say the order of pics from left to right is Matt->Terry->Paul. Is that right? I am sorry about the punk that stole your $5 and cell phone! What a jerk!!!

MK-thanks for the thoughtful response to my entry! I am glad that you had so much to say about it. Yea i don't remember all of what you or I wrote, but basically everyone should do what they want-but I don't recommend on giving up on life and doing really cool things just because of a significant other. There are just many things that I don't want to end up like-and although I do think people would be happier if they took my advice that doesn't mean I think they should.

So I plan to have a good time tonight and I hope to see many of you out and you guys can help me give the Polish boys a good time.

Oh and my mom is the one that set me up with them and she saw what I looked like when i met the one and she was really mad that i looked so bad/ugly when i saw him because she told him that her daughter was "good-looking." Its nice to know my mom thinks so much of me-hahahah.

I just had a whole long entry abou all kinds of "important stuff" and I LOST IT-ahhh I am so mad. I was trying to add a sketch which i also lost to the entry which I apparently cannot figure out how to do. ahh I am so mad

I will recapture SOME Of it....

So I got up early and went to the gym again 7:45

Posting my entries early does not seem to get me into bed any earlier since I still went to bed last night at 1:30ish.

Mike and I went to AAA and put tickets on hold for $158.80 for Tampa-AMAZING price.

I am trying to calmn myself down about Justin, cause I get too wound up when I talk to him. It is just bad! But I seriously CANNOT wait to see him. It's been over a year.

My dad is upset at my sister and I for not writing out the standard nice Father's Day card. Generally holidays we write out really nice cards which bring him to tears. But we did get him presents and baked him a cherry crumble thing. But I decided that i didn't want to write out those kinds of cards unless I was actually feeling sentimental cause then I would actually be writing from my heart. This is the only way I think these cards should be written. They mean more than if it is EXPECTED-cause you know it is real. So I am upset that I was upset at.

Metalpeter I will be sure to try to remember to refer to you as Peter.

Jesse-I am sorry that you had a crap crap day...I know what ya mean.

Jill-I am sorry about the concert...that totally sucks. Don't worry though, there will be plenty a' concerts to cheer you up :-)

Jill tried to tell me how to upload a pic, cause it always says the file is too big...but I forgot. Can someone please help me?