least that's what I think when I read the newest essays about what the universe is. Strings twirling about spawning multidimensional particles which appear as waves. Or is that the other way around? I'm pretty in to how reality can be interpreted through physics. I can understand up to a certain point and then my mind just starts travelling among all these possibilities of what reality is. I try to put strings through what I know. I wind tauruses (tauri?) through reality. I think of cubes within cubes, 10-dimensional cubes?

Just yesterday I was watching Dragonball Z (auf Deutsch) where this guy from the future comes and messes with the present and then comes back later to find that the present (his past) is very different from his experience. Yeah, deep. It made me think of this idea of time as a wheel which keeps spinning, and if you were to backtrack you couldn't do it by reversing, but rather by jumping to the next nearest wheel of possibilities. Thus you could go back in time, but it would never be your time. You could change all you wanted there, but everytime you went back to your own time it would be the same.

I haven't read anything "physical" for awhile so I'll imitate our resident ozone-making genius (e:ajay) and read The Fermi Solution. [inlink]ajay,251[/inlink] I just put in a request to our beleaguered library system and should have it soon. Bis dann leute!

I stopped eating the beef over a year ago after the whole BSE scare. A couple years before in Germany I stopped eating beef because of their Mad-Cow scare. Now, apparently I will have to stop eating goat too. Admitedly I don't eat a whole lot of goat, normally just when I have Carribean/East Indies food at Palm Tree (MAP TO: 69%20ALLEN%20ST) or Steel Drums (MAP TO: 1410%20MAIN%20ST) but it's so tasty when I do eat it.

Perhaps I should just cut all "hooved" animals off the food list. Stick to just birds for the meat. And maybe a little bacon here and there. And sea creatures, no problem there. Should just go veggie, but it would never work with my emaciated roomates: they'd just shrivel up and die.

Goodbye, dear goat.

when I wrote that little rant below. Huh.

Welcome to new user Spinyuwhatsit.... er, Spinalyakist... um, okay sorry (e:Spinuyashagc) I'm only making a little fun cuz you asked us not to. And I have a couple straight girls I could let you hang out with if you promise not to hit on them. [inlink]spinuyashagc,1[/inlink] Just plain hitting them is fine though. (e:lilho) for example, or (e:tina). They like it nice and rough. K, nuff trouble for the morning.

Is this the story of my life?

How I am supposed to do something for you if I don't know what you want?

Why don't you know what I want?

You don't know what you want.

OK, great.

Just clicked the transfer button to finally fully pay-off our car. Feels very nice. Plus an extra $250.00 a month (unfortunately it will just go to other bills). This is the first time I've actually owned a car. Can't say I terribly enjoy it. A big hassle. Car payments, insurance, registration, shoveling/scraping... So annoying. I hope soon to live in a place with a viable public transportation system again. In Jena (Thüringen, Germany) there was an excellent system with buses/trains that ran 24-hours. In the day I never waited for more than 10-15 minutes, at night never more than 30. It was so good and regular that you didn't even have to know schedules, you just went to the nearest stop and knew that a bus/train would come within 10-15 minutes. Plus in the summer it was very bicycle friendly and small enough that you could get just about anywhere in less than 1/2 hour.

we are supposed to have a plow-service with this apartment. If we do have such a thing it has not been very active. The cars had a very difficult time getting out this morning. Where are you bozo?

Don't ever see One Hour Photo with Robin Williams, even if it's free from the library. In fact, maybe it's best to never see anything with Robin Williams...

Happy Day of Birthing to (e:paul)!!!

So obvious?!?

9:13 PM. I met (e:flacidness), but hours ago. He wasn't where expected to be. In the interim I replaced borrowed books and decided to learn a language, another stupid white language. Kennenlernen baby, aber nicht wirklich so. War ebenmals so dissatsifastisch gewroden. But the puppy was cute. Trying to think of now makes me wish for the good old days. Sweeping out the stable, and such.

When you forget to close the door behind you, does your aunt ask you,

"were you born in a barn!?!"

Mine does. I'm trying to resurrect the phenomenon, with heretofore little success.

Only 9:18, plenty of time for fun.

and no, I'm not talking about Condi!

[inlink]paul,[/inlink] The rice-bag was 25 lbs. not 15!!!
And after buying all that Indian convenience food, we ended up actually using the recipe book and making some tasty Balti Chicken and curry vegetables (thanks (e:lilho) for your generous contribution, not to mention the dishes). Today I shoveled the new driveway for the first (last?) time. We've traded very wide for very long, I can't decide which one I prefer. Went skiing in the park today. It was like slogging through sand, and for the first time ever I actually slid backwards down a hill (3x). Hopefully once it sets, and some other enthusiasts get to it, it will be much nicer.

In an attempt to free myself from my self-inflicted prison of boredom, I decided to read a book that I bought awhile ago called Serpents in the Garden : Liaisons with Culture & Sex. It's by The Nation contributor, Alexander Cockburn (who also has a website called Counterpunch ), whose articles I have found interesting in the past. The main reason I bought the book is that it has a list of the top 100 books of the century, and I'm always on the lookout for interesting books. The book itself is pretty good and is divided into 5 subsections: Culture, Music, Art and Architecture, Sex, & Death. The essays are from various sources and most are interesting, a few very much so.

I got a couple books off the list to start with and just finished the first one, Deschooling Society by Ivan Illich. As the title suggest, the main thrust of the essay is to explore what schooling really is and to convince us that it is not only unnecessary, but harmful to society. To be quite honest I am apparently so institutionalized that I had never seriously considered that school could be anything other than benevolent. Sure, there are problems with the way schools are run, with what they teach, and with whom is taught, but with the whole idea of school? Illich starts with the question, how much of what you consider to have learned in your lifetime came directly from school? When I asked myself that question I had to agree that relatively little of what I consider useful knowledge was imparted to me through the institution of school. With this in mind we should consider then what exactly is the role of schools?

Illich believes that schools are primarily indoctrination machines. They teach us how to behave in society. They teach us that learning can only be accomplished through schooling. They teach us to value certificates and degrees above actual practical knowledge.

"Everywhere the hidden curriculum of schooling initiates the citizen to the myth that bureaucracies guided by scientific knowledge are efficient and benevolent. ...[It] instills in the pupil the myth that increased production will provide a better life. ...[It] develops the habit of self-defeating consumption of services and alienating production, the tolerance for institutional dependence, and the recognition of institutional rankings."

Schools are also not available to everyone to the same degree and quality. They serve to keep the gap between rich and poor, learned and unlearned open and ever widening. And once you have school those who have been schooled are ever aware of their privilege, and those without of their lack, schooling keeps everyone locked in their positions while at the same time promising opportunities for advancement.

Schools keep secret (or institutionalized) knowledge secret. No one is allowed to skip ahead of the planned path. No one is free to choose their own path to knowledge, or even which knowledge to seek. Mandatory schooling gives children no choice in their own development. It deprives them of what each of us as humans feel is our right: free will. Why are children dehumanized in this way? Why do we pretend that children of 12 and above are unable to form even the most basic of notions of self-interest? Why is it okay to lock these people up in buildings for eight hours a day without regard to whether they want to be there or not? Maybe our answer nowadays is something like, what else do we do with them?

Illich proposes a system of "learning webs." These are systems in which people who want to learn are paired to people who have the knowledge. He envisions some kind of computer database where users could register skills they have and ones they wish to have and which would spit out contact information for meeting to take place. The book was published in the 70s when this might have seemed somewhat complicated but with the web now I don't see why (e:Paul) couldn't program something himself (this of course disregards the digital divide...). To me, it seems that the hardest part would be the necessary paradigm shift away from authoritarian teaching institutions and empowering certificates. Nowadays you can't walk a dog without some sort of license, everything has become institutionalized, subject to some higher authorities guidance.

Illich acknowledges that with deschooling would come many other changes (in fact he believes it is the most important part of any progressive revolution) in society. In utopian fashion he imagines a world where action is valued over making, where living is a matter of people and not objects. I agree that the world he describes is a better place than the material-oriented place we live today, and it saddens me to see the reality that 30 years of "progress" has had on education and culture in general in America. We are pouring more and more money into an educational system that is failing more and more children. We are placing ever more emphasis on the pieces of paper given those who have the access and patience to sit through years of compulsory and voluntary education. We are even saddling university graduates with unprecedented amounts of loans which ensures their direct entrance into the corporate world.

My thoughts used to run towards a more socialistic kind of school, where it was compulsory to a certain degree, than became a choice (at which level both vocational and liberal arts are offered), but remained a service rendered free of charge from the government. But it would remain an institution in and of itself, which now I question. Does learning need to happen only under professional auspices? Is compulsory education a benefit to society? These are my questions now, and I need a bit more time (and maybe some more reading, the next book on my list is called "Growing up Absurd") for my thoughts to settle.