i wrote the last research paper of my undergrad career last night. i feel like it really sucked, but oh well. i was tired from a long week of class, internship, work 1, and work 2. that kind of schedule is probably not conducive to successful paper writing!

so basically, i have to attend a few more classes, write a reflection and a final essay, and take part in a drum circle performance and i earn my degree in special education...

i feel like i should interview for teaching jobs just to see what is out there. however, i am greedy and would rather work for tips at the golf club since the busy season is coming up and there will be a lot of money to be made.

i've got major bills to pay and i'm not interested in being a teacher and part of the working poor.

so, i started working at this golf club right down the street from me and it's a pretty cool job so far. most of the people are pretty nice and helpful, and it's a laid back environment.

so far, i've been serving in the clubhouse and i've worked in the halfway house. it's not a halfway house for druggies or recent jail releases, it's a snack bar type set up between the first and second 9 holes of the course. working down there is pretty cool because you get to zip down on a cart and then listen to music and hang out while you wait for people to come around and buy food and drinks.

i may get fat because they feed me for free in the restaurant and my fav are the garlic fries. actually, i've gained prob 5 pounds in the past few weeks....

anyway, this guy comes in and orders 5 beers and he got all mad at me because i had to ask him to repeat himself twice. people always assume i am ditzy or not paying attention, but even with hearing aids, it is sometimes difficult to process sounds and filter out background noise. i tired explaining to him that i have a hearing loss, but he didn't care. he yelled at me and stormed off with his kid(who seemed very timid and scared looking by the way). clearly, this man was just angry drunk guy and i brushed it off.

later on, i had a couple at the bar having drinks and beer. they were a really nice couple who just moved here. somehow we ended up talking about my hearing loss because the husband wears hearing aids too. he needed a new audiologist and i gave him the number of mine. during our conversation, angry drunky came back and overheard our discussion. well, he must have felt badly because he approached me before he left and said, "We got off on the wrong foot, this should take care of you.", and handed me the bill. He gave me a $20 tip.

moral of the story, sometimes putting up with jerks pays. also, people can be really mean to others when they don't understand that one has an impairment.

This is going to drive me insane and send me into a nervous breakdown. After 6 days of having hives, itchiness, and an overall serious allergic reaction to a mystery source I still cannot figure out what I am do allergic to. I thought t was a result of a tb skin test bit it couldn't be that because I had the injection almost two weeks ago and I am still having problems.

The scariest part of that after a steroid shot, steroid pack, and rx strength benedryl.... I still have symptoms. I still have hives and itchy skin. Perhaps I should entire a sterile bubble and live there.

There are three last things I can eliminate: new coffee creamer, body wash, laundry soap. The body wash and laundry soap aren't really new though and I have never had a good allergy. It's getting hard not to cry about it because I am tired of getting up everyday and trying to figure out ways to make it go away. It's also annoying not being able to wear anything because I have to stay completely covered because I look like a freak. In addition to that my skin is so itchy nonstop and I am going crazy because it feels like chicken pox times a million for a week now.

This post was supposed to be about thanksgiving but I would forgo the entire holiday and possibly even Christmas and New Years just to be done with this whole ordeal.

My mystery allergic reaction was so bad this morning I had a giant day lip and giant red welts covering my legs and my chest all the way up my neck... Seksi.


Urgent care gave me a steroid shot and it was so painful I thought I was going to cry. Shots never bother me but apparently you these are different. Then the pharmacy gave me rx strength benedryl which induced difficulty breathing and I was about to call 911.... Took 3 I inhalers and I think the worst is past me.


I'm so over all of this... And I hope this goes away for good and never comes back.

having thee worst allergic reaction to a tb skin test.... red itchy welts all over. so attractive and fun... espesh when at work.

this started friday night and i want to go to sleep and not wake up until they are gone because i am going crazy. doctor tomorrow. i look like a freak.