..than a young person's funeral. (e:amanda)'s brother's funeral was today. It was soooo sad. I have never been to a young person's funeral before. It is so differently sad. Though I never really knew him, it was still incredibly sad. Seeing amanda and her family was heartbreaking. Her grandparents seemed soo distraugh. Who ever imagines burying their grandkids? I don't know how you ever recoup after something like that.

(e:amanda)'s brother andrew died today. He's only like 26. He has been sick for a while so it wasn't completely surprising but still utterly horrible. I can't even imagine what her and her family must be going through. He is her only sibling. I can't even imagine if (e:paul) died. It seriously leaves me speechless. I feel so bad for them. He has been sick for a while though so maybe it is better but still it is horrible. This doesn't really make sense but it just I don't know, I felt like writing about it but don't really know what to say.

sick. I completely forgot how sick it makes me. I remember now why I stopped drinking it. It makes me completely sick to my stomach in the worst way. And trust me I can deal with stomach aches but these are way worse!!!

We saw Children of Men tongiht. It was good but really draining. LIke I felt like I ran a marathon when I got out. Like so suspenseful but also emotionally drianing with so much ups and downs, well mostly downs. But it was really good. I kinda want to read the book becuase i wonder if there is more detail about what happened in the world to make it like it was. The movie leaves most of that out.

So as yo ucan tell by the lack of pictures of me at this years party (and all of them fully dressed) I was not feeling so well this New Year's Eve. I got sick while at work (sore throat, shaking, cold sweating, headache, the works) I took a whole bunch of pills determined to party no matter what. After a few drinks though,the sickness returned and I laid down upstairs in the smoking room never to get up again til like 6am. I think I barely made it til 1am not sure really though. It was quite sad but I did enjoy myself until tha tpint.

I especially want to thank my (e:secretsanta) for an awesome gift. I love the scrapbooking stuff. I can't wait to start making one. I have seriuosly been wanting to start scrapbooking for a long time and now I have no excuse not to. I am gonna make a 2007 (e:stirp) scrapbook and will show my results at next years new years eve party.

New years day was a complete bust. I never got dressed or out of bed for the whole day cuz I was feeling so sick. Today I am somewhat better but luckily I only work inthe morning and night and had the afternoon off to take my dad to the docrtors for surgery and I could rest then>

HOpefully I will be better soon. And then I am ready to party it up super dupa style. Whose with mE?

i seriously need a break from life and scheduled things. I just want a whole free day that I don't have to spend finding gifts, doing errands for my parents, and working. I seriously badly need a day that has nothing in it. JUst lay in bed and do nothing all day. I have not had a free day since like i don't even know. Not that like everything I have to do isn't fun. Like I like all the family things and things with my friends i enjoy but its just like every minute there is something that needs to be done or somehwere I have to be. I just want a day where noone even talks to me. I can't be everywhere at once and get everything done. I am stressed and stretched to the max!