Okay, Game On. Bank crush came in today as it still single! Whoo Hoo! I had decided that the crush was over, because, frankly, I was acting like an idiot! He'd walk in and my heart would start to race, my hands would get shakey, I'd get this surge of adrenaline, and turn beat red, and not be able to stop smiling! Basically, I was acting like 12 year old spazz! And then I heard he was getting engaged and I said, "That's it. It's over. I'm myself again. I'm acting like an idiot anyway!" He asked, she said no. He's single! I don't know if I can *not* act like a 12 year old spazz, but I'm going to do my best. Game On!

I detest writer's block, and yet mine seems to be an ever constant in any of my work. Even with this, I feel as though I am reaching for ideas (originally, I had typo-ed "Ideals". Hmmm.... perhaps I am reaching for ideals- anyway-) It used to be that I would sit and stare and re-read and eventually- *POW*- I would smash through that seemingly impenetrable wall and begin to write, to create, to flourish. Or, I would begin a new idea and work until I was stuck and then go back to a previous story, or draw, or something- anything, but I could get past it. I have so many projects, so many stories, that are started, but that isn't what's really worrying me. What's worrying me is that there aren't really any New ideas coming, nothing that grabs me enough to sit down and WRITE! This hasn't happened since I first discovered I loved writing in the third grade. Which, ironically, is also when I discovered I loved reading and I haven't been reading very much either, not really. Again, things are started and not finished. I don't like this pattern that is evolving, not at all. Suggestions, e-peeps? I'm starting to feel rather lost.

The 20 Happiest Cities

1. Laredo, TX: A+

2. El Paso, TX: A+

3. Jersey City, NJ: A+

4. Corpus Christi, TX: A+

5. Baton Rouge, LA: A

6. Honolulu, HI: A-

7. Fresno, CA: A-

8. San Jose, CA: A-

9. Lincoln, NE: B+

10. Bakersfield, CA: B+

11. Buffalo, NY: B+
12. Anchorage, AK: B+

13. Stockton, CA: B+

14. Shreveport, LA: B+

15. (3-way tie) Madison, WI: B, Montgomery, AL: B, and Des Moines, IA: B

18. Wichita, KS: B

19. (tie) Sacramento, CA: B and Omaha, NE: B

The 20 Most Depressed Cities

1. Philadelphia, PA: F

2. Detroit, MI: F

3. St. Petersburg, FL: F

4. St. Louis, MO: F

5. Tampa, FL: F

6. Indianapolis, IN: F

7. (3-way tie) Mesa, AZ: F, Phoenix, AZ: F, and Scottsdale, AZ: F

10. Cleveland, OH: F

11. New York, NY: D-

12. Salt Lake City, UT: D-

13. Atlanta, GA: D

14. (3-way tie) Yonkers, NY: D, Pittsburgh, PA: D, and Kansas City, MO: D

17. (3-way tie) Long Beach, CA: D, Los Angeles, CA: D, Nashville, TN" D

20. Portland, OR: D

Do you ever feel like your life is one big, perpetual crossroads?

Flacidness knows and I know that Flacidness told little Lilho and, let's face it, if Flacidness knows, then everyone knows! Trisha and Paulnotpaul are expecting a little bundle of joy in November. LingLing (as I refer to the sproglet) is the reason that I have been in the throws of Baby Shower planning and knitting like a freak! I'm super excited for my best friend, but at the same time- well, there goes my drinking buddy, and I'll admit, that makes me sad. But there's a new Lehnen on the way! And I cannot to wait to meet little LingLing! I hope she doesn't get pissed for me actually posting the news, but it's been killing me not to tell! I'm so damned excited!