Yesterday, we, Tony(video professor), Robin, Julie, Liz, Seonhyung, went to Toronto to check some galleries there. We got lots of funny things because of Tony Conrad. It was really a long day. I slept 11 hours today. This one is created by Seonhyung. She is a new graduate student. Yes, She is a Korean too. ;)
Robin, Thanks again for driving us.. This is better picture than those crazy pictures. [inlink]u=soyeon&id=90[/inlink] [inlink]u=soyeon&id=89[/inlink] Don't you think so..?

do you think it's possible..? I don't know.. wow.. it looks crazy.

tatoo..? I'm not against with getting tatoo, but I think it's too much. what do you think..? --- sorry, I'm very distracted from reading Deleuze, too complicated, so I had to take some break, but this tatoo is too much for my little break

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I got almost heartattact from my presentation in [inlink]u=soyeon&id=82[/inlink]the photo graduate seminar today. Yes, it was a very intensive critique course. As my acceptance was previsional, I got so nervous and scared while the class was going on. Also, I'm not familier with the photo faculity, they are not Media Study faculty whom I always talk, so it was more than twice scary situation. Well, I remembered that a photo MFA student told me last time.. "hey, Soyeon, don't tell me that I warned you" and finally I realized why he told me like that. Oh well.

Okay, after I got his email back, I was so scared so I had to talk to someone I know in the art department about the course everything.. She said.. don't worry and brought me to his office. So, I had a chance to talk to the professor. At the time he was very nice to me and everything what he said was totally make sense. Well, he saw some media students work, but it wasn't enough for graduate level and photo MFA students are very selective, they did all portfolio review but mine is not.. and he added "we won't kill you"

It was challenging to me.. should I back off..? I was thinking of that.. nope.. I can't. It's already started.. So.. I had to look at all my work for two days.. but.. I thought everything what I did wasn't good.. getting scared.. I selected some work I have made and put them together on a DV tape and I wrote about my concept and description everything because I knew I wouldn't talk very well in the class whatever.

I went to the class.. I felt that I'm totally an alien there. My audition started it..
After watching some my video and installation, performance.. they started asking me a lot of questions and they pointed out every single problems.. Wow. Even someone said one video I made 2 years ago was immature. I thought so too at the time, but I didn't realize it yesterday.. why.. why..

After all, the professor said, "you can stay in the class" I passed my audition.
Even though what he said was so blunt.. but.. he didn't kick me out of the class. God.. I got almost heartattact.. It was so intensive.. I thought I could be kicked out of the class from what they were talking about my work. I don't know I feel really weird about it.

I ran into the professor after the class outside of CFA.. and he came up to me..
"We didn't kill you.. it was just tough" Yeah, I can handle it.. it's good for me..
I can handle their critique.. I'm old enough.... everything is good for my work everything.. it's good.. I need it.. I need it. They gave me the direction what I have to do.. it is good..

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