It's the third times to get a cold for me in this winter. A day before leaving Korea, I was so sick. I don't want to get sick. I gotta take a medicine right now.

Well, I thought that my landload turned off one of my radiators, but it turned out she didn't. It had a little problem to heat up. So, she's fixed it. I'm so bad.

A lot of things are on my mind these days. Trying to figure things out. I think I should think everything positive. That's the most important attitude toward everything.

I'm going to New York this Friday night and coming back next Monday night. I talked to my friends in New York about the plans a couple minutes ago. Here the plans are.

Friday, we all hang out, go to bar.. just have a fun night.

Saturday, artistic day. go to galleries as many as we can in New York. Then eat Korean food. My friend, Nick said he will find out if there is any party going on Saturday night. So we can go.

Sunday. cleaning up day. my friend, Craig's house is so massy since he's moved in there. Never been cleaned up. He said he needs a woman to organize his stuff little bit. So I will help him for that on Sunday. Then Nick said, we can go to Karaoke at night.

Monday, my day. Nick and Craig need to work for Monday. So, I will go around New York by myself and have a lunch with Nick. Buy some books.. Then leave for Buffalo.

Well, it will be very fun. I'm so excited.

Wait, it's my youngest sister's birthday. I gotta email her right now otherwise she would kill me.

Oneday at my place in Buffalo, a Korean friend of mine told me that if you yearn for somebody or something, you get feeling lonely and depressed. I was little questionable of that at the time but I agree with that right now.

Now, I miss warm weather and am getting depressed. I get cold very easily. People in Buffalo are telling me because I'm a tiny girl. Actually, my body temperature is very low that is told by my doctor in Korea. When I was a little girl, I got ill very easily. Now, I'm very okay but I can't stand with cold temperature. Well, people can ask me why I came here then. Hum.. actully, I like wearing jackets a lot.. that's why.. doesn't make sense..?

My house is very cold. It is included heat apartment but we can't control house temperature becasue my landload control it.
I think she is very nice but she is such a stingy. She often turns off one of my radiators although I don't have any radiator in my room. So, I've decided to move out after finishing my contract. I like my house but I can't be patient of cold anymore.

I wanted to be clam and to take easy for this year but... cold house makes me feel so bad again. So sad.

I miss my mom's house in Korea and everybody in Korea and it makes me feel so lonely again. There are always enough food and warm-hearted mind. I miss there a lot. I just want to be there right now. So, I called my mom and told her my situation here. She said.
"Move out right away" Well, go back to Amherst again..? I don't think so.

I'm just grumpy right now.

Yeah, I'm here at Paul's birthday party and I'm using his computer to upload my journal. Actually it is the first party of this year for me. Since I got back to Buffalo, I've been chilling out for myself because I was too relexed in Korea and it cause me to be like that.

There are a lot of people here for Paul's birthday. He said, he's just turned 27.. Wow. I wish I was 27. Anyway, happy birthday to Paul. I never had a class with him but finally I'm having a class with for this semester. Last class, he presented picutres that he got inspired for his work.
It was very good. I'm happy to have a class with him.

Well, I think I should get back his party now.

Paul

Happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday to you.

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SJ

I've already been here in Korea about 10 days and it's christmas eve already here. I know christmas is the biggest holiday for western culture, but here in Korea it is like another valentine day. Well, some people buy gifts for their special friends, children or parents. Other than, it's really nothing special.

My plan for today is that I will go up to Seoul to see my friend to talk about website that I have to do. Then I will meet my best friends tonight for a drink. Well, my Mom said that she made a reservation restaurant for family dinner for Christmas. So, we are sort of celebrating Christmas. Hum.

I really didn't want to be in US for christmas because I feel so lonely although christmas is not my cultural holiday. Also every shops close for christmas as well. Here in Korea every shops open because it's the peak day to sell stuff for them.

Well, Merry Christmas all you guys.

Soyeon.