i may just be ready to scream,cry,yell or something.
my father is so back water country thinking sometimes.
i am explaining to him why I am moving to dc today.
he doesn't understand the strongest desire I may
have right now - ADVANCEMENT OPPORTUNITIES!!!!
he thinks i should stay. job security he says. I say: Hey I have
been laid off here more times than GW Bush blinked his eyes
during the debates!!!
sometimes I have to remind myself that I am a spawn of this person.
then it makes me think, what traits of his do I possess? are there any
good ones? are they all bad? I look just like him that goes without saying if you
ever saw him.
Why did I sit there and try to convince him this is a good thing? wasted daytime minutes! I know why, I want him to give me $$$ Moolah! Oh the things we do for money...it often seems like a self sacrificial ceremony each time we talk - He is right - I am not...I must see it his way. Afterall, he is older & the parent & must be wiser...I felt wiser @ age 11! He has done the same thing pretty much his entire life. I need diversity. I could not imagine doing what I currently do in the IRS till the day I retire. I would be in a home for the federal suckers gone insane (F.S.G.I.)
(interesting song playing on my itunes playlist:Starsailor - Alcoholic - even though my father wasnt an alcoholic,its still somewhat relevant perhaps)
is it wrong to want to disown people in your family? does that make you appear as if you think you are better than? i am pretty close to my family whether I agree with the things they do or not. Afterall, I still speak to my father after abusing my beautiful mother, the divorce, never being there for me or my siblings(yet he feels that we should love his mother & call her/the woman who didn't want to be called grandmother while we were growing up because it would make her feel old((she remarried a younger man))-woman you are old/you are a grandmother!!! she also made notso nice remarks about me like you are too uppity for me and high on a horse. whose grandmother calls them names and still desires to be loved?)ETC.
i digress, it could go on and on and on.
i shall not.
just thinking. must go pack now. i will do it on my own, with or without my fathers support.
(This post used the now famous
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recognize!