"why o why can't I"

It's been a hoot, so much so I'm calling in sick. I suppose only four day after a vaca, but I have an excuse. I'm starting a part time thing with the Bills on Game Days. Gonna usher (No security, no sir) to make some extra scratch and meet some folks. Might actually be fun.

Actually started getting into my new position in earnest this week. It felt good to actually contribute a little. I feel like I;ve been in a bit of professional limbo as toward the end of July my marketing projects wound down. I've been slowly adding things back to my new repetoire but it's a little weird to be intellectually the new kid. The folks showing me stuff sometimes get a little daunted. I try to tell them not to worry, I'm about the learning. It's a lot to digest, but I could be writing the Time Warner Intranet page one moment, taking your bill the next, a veritable jerk of all trades

(e:joshua)'s most recent post got me thinking about the state of the electorate. Things are so polarized that a moderate has no place to look. Joe Lieberman is a decent guy who sticks to his principals so that makes him unworthy in the eyes of his own party. The party has no chance making a dent against Republicans for either congress or the white house when it's busy eating itself. Just once I'd like a candidate to tell me what he's going to do, why he or she should be elected, not party affiliation or why the other guy is bad. Straight party votes of all kinds have lead to this kind of campaigning and as a result few voters think for themselves. Blind faith in anything will kill you and it drives me nuts (as a long term, leftist, democrat and a long time human) that people don't realize that there are smart republicans and dumb democrats. Despite this, I do however remain convinced that Rumsfield and Cheney eats puppies for lunch and drink the life out of children who aren't of their faith.

My new work hours blow - sucked my Thursday at the Square energy right out of me.

Met a nice woman about my age tuesday and we talked about life the universe and everything over a drink outside the suburban Le Metro. We're both busy with work and kids and whatnot, but she wants to be seen again. Score one for this old fart.

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My ex has fleas. That shouldn't be funny, but it is. She dogsat the past two nights and the living room got swept up in them. My daughter told me tonight that I should see Mom scratch her ear with her foot. She's twelve and pretty clever, but now we are both in trouble.

Got the sprint version of the razor phone off ebay the other night so I should join the mobile estrippers as soon as I get it charged up and the code number registered with the sprint poobahs.

Thinkin of making the jaunt to the Transit drive in this weekend.

How was your week??

I need to brush up on my photoshop skills to keep up with this guy. This looks even more impressive on the digital press I had access to on Friday for awhile. Dopey, but good for a giggle.

I received this in an email this morning after exchanging emails with somebody from yahoo personals 3 days ago.

I'VE MET A MAN WHO IS PERFECT FOR ME RIGHT NOW........HE LIVES A FEW MILES AWAY..........AND IS VERY INTERESTED IN AN EXCLUSIVE RELATIONSHIP

Who the hell knows this in that time span? The one thing I can take from that is the sender is not somebody I need to be mixed up with. Not so much about Mr. Right, just Mr. Right-now. If you've been through the "fun" of divorce or epic break-ups, you get cautious, it's natural. Who make dinner plans one moment then plunges into something else entirely 36 hours later. That's crazy. That note (and I didn't edit anything out) is very telling. Guess some hearts move faster than mine. I do not believe or understand the world in which I live.

Guess I'm going stag for awhile longer.

In other news, Sprint is making me nuts. One of the new corporate perks is some hefty discounts with other conglomerates. Since Sprint is my mobile phone home, I was glad to see them on the list since it means $10 comes off my monthly bill and Sprint, being Sprint, fucked up the request. Two phone calls, 2 hours of my precious minutes and one "give me your supervisor!" moment, we be done.

Stuff you got to do to get an even break.

Just finished 54 holes of mini golf with number one son. I think we need to repair to the hotel pool once more.

Vaca winds down....sigh

Mister Trouble come walkin' this way
Year gone by feels like one long day
But I'm alive and I'm feelin' all right
Well I run that hard road outta heartbreak city
Built a roadside carnival out of hurt and self-pity
It was all wrong well now I'm moving on

Ain't no church bells ringing
Ain't no flags unfurled
It's just me and you and the love we're bringing
Into the real world
Into the real world

I built a shrine in my heart it wasn't pretty to see
Made out of fool's gold memory and tears cried
Now I'm headin' over the rise
I'm searchin' for one clear moment of love and truth
I still got a little faith
But what I need is some proof tonight
I'm lookin' for it in your eyes

Ain't no church bells ringing
Ain't no flags unfurled
Just me and you and the faith we're bringing
Into the real world
Into the real world

Well tonight I just wanna shout
I feel my soul waist deep and sinkin'
Into this black river of doubt
I just wanna rise and walk along the riverside
And when the morning comes baby I don't wanna hide
I'll stand right at your side with my arms open wide

Well tonight I just wanna shout
I feel my soul waist deep and sinkin'
Into this black river of doubt
I just wanna rise and walk along the riverside
'Til the morning comes
I'll stand right by your side

I wanna find some answers I wanna ask for some help
I'm tired of running scared
Baby let's get our bags packed
We'll take it here to hell and heaven and back
And if love is hopeless hopeless at best
Come on put on your party dress it's ours tonight
And we're goin' with the tumblin' dice

Ain't no church bells ringing
Ain't no flags unfurled
It's just me and you and the hope we're bringing
Into the real world
Well into the real world
Oh into the real world