This is not an attack on anyone. It's just my acknowledgement, that times, they are a-changing. It's not a bad thing I guess, its just growing up. We used to wonder what happened? Where did everyone go? Our once close knit group had dissolved. Noone wanted to go out anymore and they padded themselves with as many perifery people as possible if they did. We used to wonder what could be wrong with us? How could people choose just about anything over being with us? Are we really that boring/ that unfun/that unfriendly? They needed to leave every chance they got to see their new love, their new friends. Didn't they ever just want to hang out with us, the old gang? But now you've joined them. So that makes me wonder, what's wrong with me?

People used to say, I don't want to hang out with just you guys. You're too close, too much together, too much inside jokes, too much the same. I couldn't understand it, if you were our friends why couldn't we all hang out? I thought it was just the lack of others going out that caused them to feel that way, and if they went out more it would change, maybe it is a what came first, chicken or egg, type issue. I don't know. Did they hang out less cuz of that, or did them hanging out less cause that. So maybe now I am backing away, I don't want to be the thrid wheel. Although I said you've joined them, maybe in other ways I've joined them too.

Who knows, maybe I"m just in a crazy, I'm sick of working and am listening to Third Eye Blind which can in some ways be terribly depressing mood. But Friday is my party and it will be fun fun fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It all started because I found out a girl I work with went to her senior with Matt, and so I asked him to see some pictures. Then he whips out these amazing scrap books from his highschool years. If you love other people's memories and memoribilia as much as I do, you have to ask Matt to see his. The second one is so proffesional looking. I love reading letters and notes people wrote that I don't know. I don't know why, it is just the idea of like someone writing it at sometime, id on't know but I like it. This is probably why I also have numerous pictures of teres's family that I wouldn't let her throw out. One day I will have a mansion and one room can be devoted to each of my friend's stuff. Thanks for your memories Matt.

Yesterday was soo the day I really needed of just relaxing and everything. I woke up at like 11 after a good amount of sleep, sat around watched tv and read the paper. Followed by tanning out on the porch and falling asleep on the chair and then getting myuself to get up and go into my room where I fell asleep again. Then watched some of the Soprano's DVD. My night was capped off with chinese food and a thermal spa visit at Maureens which was muy relaxing. Such a relaxing day...except the pain of all the cuts and marks I have all over my upper body right now.

According to some kids away message that I went to college with he has the word CHILLAXIN and he says copyrighted by some of his friends in 2004. Well I don't know about the rest of you but I know that Paul and Jessica (hodown) used that term way back in the day, possibly mid-90's and I have heard it many times since. I'm not even sure Paul and Jessica coined it but for sure they had it before these people. And if Paull and Jessica did coin it, wow congratulations, it has reached Connecticut.

So where is the new thursday hangout? The Pink is definetely done I think but where to meet and drink and mingle? SOrry Teres I would not choose Merlins but we all know that I give in pretty easy so if that is where it was at I would end up there but it definetely is not my first choice. Merlins is definetly always feels like a place you end up and not a place you choose to go if that makes sense.