Life and all it's mystery,
unfold before my eyes.
All the twists and turns,
are really no surprise.
The sun will rise and rise again,
the moon will wax and wane.
And I'll have smiles and laughter,
to help me through my pain.
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12/28/2004 15:02 #26934
Balance12/28/2004 14:43 #26933
Rear-view mirror So what, I hear voices, I'm sure we all do. I bet doctors ( or whoever) would say it's just our brains winding down for a good nights sleep. I hear little two word, partial sentences, different recognisable voices, but I can never put my finger on them. It's I'm in a trance, not asleep and not awake. The voices are like little audio memories of something I can't remember. Like being outside someones door, something catches my ear and creates an indescribable picture in my brain, then gone.
I've always had them, there's even a voice that scares me a little. I figure It's from my childhood, because it's been bothering me for the last ten years. And not just while sleeping, there's a trigger in my brain, whenever there's a loud bang, or any loud random noise I hear it, like an echo. I know I hear it but the words never form, and the voice is one note short for me to " name that tune". It chills me, changes my breathing, my little demon. Reducing me to a scared child.
I wonder if our past is really behind us, because sometimes it stares us right in the face, like a rear-view mirror.
I've always had them, there's even a voice that scares me a little. I figure It's from my childhood, because it's been bothering me for the last ten years. And not just while sleeping, there's a trigger in my brain, whenever there's a loud bang, or any loud random noise I hear it, like an echo. I know I hear it but the words never form, and the voice is one note short for me to " name that tune". It chills me, changes my breathing, my little demon. Reducing me to a scared child.
I wonder if our past is really behind us, because sometimes it stares us right in the face, like a rear-view mirror.
12/28/2004 11:52 #26932
MY BOYS
12/27/2004 23:44 #26931
My friends at Forest Lawn
12/27/2004 22:39 #26930
The Simpson Generation Well since 1989, I have been a fan of the Simpson's. I don't even want to think about how much of my life was spent watching this show. But for myself (and I'm sure many others) they're like another family. But my problem is everything reminds me of the Simpson's. I hear the word steak, I think " homer what do you want for diner,'Steak', but money's to tight for steak,'steak'." or I hear $20, and I think " Twenty dollars, I wanted a peanut!" When I should be quoting Blake and Poe, I'm quoting Ralphie and Milhouse (oh and the Simpson's did Poe's Raven for an episode).
I'm going to try to subdue my inner D'oh, and keep those thoughts to myself. People think you're a moron when you quote TV. I can quote Poe, Frost, Bobby Burns. But when is "wee sleekit cowrin timrous beastie" going to come up in conversation. So I say,"mmm forbidden doughnut." So Simpsons no more !!! I must take the road less traveled by, I hope it will make a difference.
I'm going to try to subdue my inner D'oh, and keep those thoughts to myself. People think you're a moron when you quote TV. I can quote Poe, Frost, Bobby Burns. But when is "wee sleekit cowrin timrous beastie" going to come up in conversation. So I say,"mmm forbidden doughnut." So Simpsons no more !!! I must take the road less traveled by, I hope it will make a difference.