i couldn't avoid it any longer. i was too curious. i just had to see what my students had written in the course evals from the fall and spring.

so i read them. soyeon and emily (pauls pal from boston) and paul got to experience them with me. so were actually good, many complained about the equipment, and a handful really hated the course and/or me. ME!

it's all stuff i can't stop thinking about. the personal comments stink and the course comments are making me want to stay up and redesign the entire thing RIGHT NOW.

the worst thing is that i can't really remember what the good stuff said. all those nice comments about enjoying class, saying i was a good instructor, etc.... they're all just kind of blah nice. but the hateful ones, the ones written in caps and scratched in hard, those are visual images i can't get out of my brain.

ARRRRRGGGGG! i hate the human condition sometimes.

i know i'm crazy
but i just can't stop

at four a.m. i should be sleeping
not thinking, not weeping, not pining

i know this is crazy
so i won't give it words
i won't give you words

i'll give you this
what you've always got
a hint, a smile, a nevermind

tonight is for crazies
let out in the wild
with a poor chance of survival
in the morning light

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aren't ducks (and other animals) smarter than that?

at the museum
the mess was there on the wall
black yellow white red blue
layers warring
my attention divided

great time at the pink, as always. met some new characters -- chief, his silent bob, and a guy who works at brentwood manor. plus, the always enjoyable conversation of fellow strippers.

matthew, whenever you want to go to the botanical gardens, i'm in.

also, i'm with jessbob and maidencateyes about having more recent posts show than just the last ten. i've faced the same stress of choosing whether or not to spend time catching up on everyone by clicking more, or just seeing the most recent stuff. if there were more immediately available, i'd be more likely to read all of them. and that's what i want to do.