I feel better now. Looking forward to normalcy. Maybe it was all the cleaning I did (not my own) that cleared my mind.

The rain is nice right now, very calming.

Snow soon. I wish I had X country skis to get around in. Maybe some snow shoes too. Winter is not my thing, but I guess I have no choice.

Having off for Columbus Day was nice, but why the hell is this a holiday?

Now I have to get to the impossible task of understanding La Araucana.

I'm starting house cleaning again today after putting it on hold to finish painting the railing. One nightmare is behind me so I'm excited to make money again. Here is a recap. The original paint that I put on wrinkled up. Me not wanting to do a shitty job decided to remove it all and repaint. I told the woman that I didn't want to be paid for removing the paint. She has said that she paid me $230 over a length of time for my work. This $230 was mostly paid for the work I did in preparation before I painted the first time. The railing was a rusty mess! Most of the time that I was working I didn't take any money from her. If I did it would be $20 every once in a while to get me by. The entire time I paid for everything I needed to get the job done, running up my credit card. I told her at the end to pay me what she thinks is fair. Today i get a check for $40. I brought her over cake for her birthday as well as bought her dog treats and what happens to be the dogs favorite toy. It turns out that the paint was most likely lousy paint rather than anything I did wrong. I was proud of myself for not doing a shitty job, but $40 seemed like a slap in the face. This was after her daughter in law offered to get me out of it and her son told her I should be getting paid the whole time. I held my ground and said no, that it wasn't fair. $40 thanks. It would have been cheaper for me if I just paid her off and told her to get someone else to fix it. I don't know maybe it was fair my $40, but it sure doesn't feel like it. It also was stressful to her, neither of us expected this to be a several month process. Ok I'm done, its over!

Being fair is not so easy.

I just read this article on yahoo about how the Army is lowering their standards in order to meet recruitment goals. It struck me as funny. They are letting people in with lower test scores and certain people with criminal records. Still, fags with mouths can stay home. Its good to know they haven't lowered their standards too much.

It is sad and frightening that yet another nation has attained nuclear weapons. I have studied a bit about the US and their race to create the first nuclear arsenal. It makes me wonder if the workers that are developing North Korea's arsenal are also being subjected to harmful radiation. What about the innocent people who live near these plants and dump sites? North Korea believes they need these weapons for their own survival. I would assume like in our own race against time to build the atom bomb, that North Korea is no different. They will also have to deal with the nasty waste that plagues our own area for centuries into the future. When time is an issue as it was in our own quest for the bomb, little is given to proper handling and containment of waste.

Has anyone seen the first report regarding the successful test from the N. Korean News Agency? The woman who is delivering the news to the people looks like she is having an orgasm. It is sort of creepy. The North Korean army also freaks me out. Their marching is so scary.

I'm not too sure that the Bush administration refusing to dialogue with them was the best thing to do. What is so wrong with at least having talks with them. I'm not saying for sure, but maybe this could have been avoided. A deal of some sort could have been made in exchange for access by weapons inspectors into the country to provide assurance that they weren't developing nuclear arms. Now it is too late, but I still think it is time to start the dialogue. Further sanctions, maybe, but talk first. Who knows what they could do now if they are pushed further into a corner.

I just got internet back. Went with Verizon DSL sloow speed. Verizon sucks, but for my situation I had to go with them. Don't want to get into details as to why they were best for me. You know what sucks about Verizon? is that when you call to order the service you get a competent speaker of English who knows what they are doing. When you call for customer support you get someone in India that doesn't know shit and/or can understand what your problem is. This isn't an attack on India but an attack on rotten service from nasty companies. Screw you Verizon.

I thought today about not posting here anymore. Changed my mind. I hope that whoever is bothering (e:jenks) just stops it. Enough! Not that this person reads what I have to say, but just in case they did, I hope they listen. It seems like nastiness has gotten to new levels since I have been posting. That makes me very uneasy.

I'm done with the railing.