The one thing that I know I have in common with everyone on earth is that I don't know where we came from, how we got here, or where we are going. Sure, science has tried for a long time to describe it for us, with some degree of success. Then again, science has historically done a particularly shitty job describing things - ourselves, the world around us, etc. The pattern is to continuously fuck up until we stumble on an answer. We routinely mess up things which are a whole hell of a lot less complicated than the mysteries of life and ourselves.

Lets say for the sake of argument, I believe that we somehow developed from chimps into intelligent civilizations, masters of math, art and architecture, in a relatively short period of time. Presumably I would think that we are not yet at the end of our evolution. When does the evolution stop? Who is to say that we won't develop some kind of telekinetic powers? How will we further develop? Will it take 100,000 years? Or is there something we can do to help ourselves? These are questions nobody, scientific or religious, can answer for us and yet we continue to fake and front like we know everything.

Perhaps next we will become much more evolved spiritually - developing a heightened sense of unconditional love and a very strong sense of unity and oneness with each other. I think this is the kind of thing that needs to happen if we are ever going to end war, disease and poverty - not to mention travel among the stars. Today, realistically, we are incapable of all those things. Our focus is undeniably on the self. Something needs to happen, and does it really matter if it is an act of God or the product of our own evolution, as long as it happens?

Jason

I saw (e:DocC) and (e:Rachel) just a few minutes ago. I shouted "Hey Rachel" to try to get their attention but no luck. This marks two unsuccessful attempts at (e:peep) conversation in a week! Dang people, how scary can a skinny white boy be? lol

I have this horrible feeling today. (e:Joshua) is gone now, off to the DR and I am left on my own for two weeks. Frankly I don't know what my problem is. I don't know if I'm just stressed from work or if it is because it's so unnatural for me to not have my brother around. Sinking feeling go away!!!!

Jason

We likes to party!

I cleaned my living room today and on the back of a piece of sheet music I found the sonnet I wrote for an ex girlfriend! She didn't appreciate it much, which was really humiliating because I had never opened up to someone in that way before. "Last time I write a poem!" I said. I still like it though I never was the best student in english class (zzzz). I didn't find out until AFTER that experience that women don't like poems. Wha? Gramma LIED. Anyway I'll share it with you all because I think if you have something important to tell someone special, you really should do it. Here it goes:


I wandered out into the lonely night
To seek that which I'd never known before
When out of darkness came a blinding light
Which pierced the sky; It I could not ignore

An image shone from where the light had come
Descending from the sky for me to see
An angel I had found; afraid and numb
I asked her why she came that night to me

She smiled gently, touched my face; I wept
Because I found that night what I had sought
A love that knows no limits and is kept
Deep in the soul, the kind that's rarely caught.

You are my angel, love, and you must know
My heart is yours to keep. I love you so.


Obviously I was head over heels for this girl. I'll never write another sonnet again but I felt like I absolutely HAD TO SAY SOMETHING to let her know what was going on in my head. If you have something important to say to someone, do it now because you never know if you will get the opportunity (and I know some of you guys know what I'm talking about).

Jason