After I had a change of heart, I chatted with an unnamed e-stripper about plans to spread love around the neighborhood, or at least a radius of 100 feet or so around the apartment. I said I wanted to go to Kuni's and give a rose to each of the waitresses. I thought it would be a good thing to do. And, hey, who knows, maybe one of them doesn't have a boyfriend! Then I thought perhaps it wouldn't work out, because what if they all have Valentines? Kuni wouldn't make the girls miss out on V-Day, would he? Maybe the restaurant would be closed. The unnamed e-stripper laughed.

Of course, the restaurant was closed. At least I have some flowers!

Jason

Maybe V-Day ain't so bad. Maybe it just reminds me of all the painful times I've gone through in the relationships that haven't worked. Maybe it reminds me of my own insecurity and self-doubt. Maybe it makes me think more acutely about the things I believe aren't good about me that need to be changed if I'm going to love again someday. If I'm with someone they understand I love them and appreciate them all the time, not just one day of the year. I would rather focus on the positives and be happy, then focus on the bad and be miserable. I'm having second thoughts about V-Day. Someone is going to know at least one guy in the universe hopes they have a happy V-Day.

Jason

I doubt you read my journal or care to respond to me - but I have to ask. How do you know this stuff about multiple dimensions? What is your profession? What makes you think of these things? I think what you're writing is fascinating, whether fact or fiction. What are you reading when it comes to these things? I'm a very curious person.

Jason

Time for another Rush Limbaugh scandal!

Most of you guys are the artsy/academia type, so I don't know if you care about golf at all...or any other kind of sporting event for that matter....but this week Rush is playing at the Pebble Beach Pro-Am. Apparently he says he is a 16 handicap (the "average" golfer is a 24) but my brother just wrote to me saying Rush's swing was HIGHLY unathletic. He borrowed from Full Metal Jacket and said "Rush plays golf like old people fuck." People he has been known to play with say, no way is this guy a 16. Knowing this, how can he honestly say he is a 16? I'm picturing this poor bastard getting eaten and spit out by Pebble Beach. The day he is a 16 is the day you guys see me on the Pro Tour.

Jason

Just another lame holiday where men are shamed by the ugly corporate world into emptying their bank accounts on jewelry and other crap. Since I technically have never been spoiled on a V-Day like I have spoiled my girlfriends, I'm going to spoil myself big time this year. I deserve it. I haven't decided exactly what I'm going to do, though.

Here's yet another question from Jason which probably won't get a serious response: Anybody ever gone on a first date on Valentine's Day?

Jason