Thats all I keep thinking when Im walking outside in the freezing cold. Arizona here I come! I'm not packed at all, I have a million errands to run and I have to move right when I get back. I can't wait till March. I figure by then my life will have calmed down and I'll be settled in my cute studio apartment. The first thing I'm going to do is have a dinner party, I love those. I'm going to break out the good dishes for the first time in years! Living alone is so nice. Well I wont be alone really, I'll have my ipod and ibook to keep me company and maybe once in a blue moon Thomas too. Yea!

I'm going to miss New York for those two weeks. I frequently find myself cursing and loving this city all at the same time. Its a strange place to live but I don't regret moving here at all. Soneone once told me that New York is the center of the universe and I was like whatever dude. I see now what he meant. ONce you live here it really does seem that way.

ok so I ripped that off from the beasties (its one of my favorite lines- except they use ooo ooo as their disco call which is way cooler). So my b day has come and gone with out a phone call from my best friend Paul. Thanks. Thats ok I suppose because I have a new best friend- its called my ipod. We love each other and he keeps me company for hours at a time. I plan on spending a lot of one on one time with him during my 7 hours worth of layovers on my way to Arizona.

Speaking of warm weather- I can't wait to go to AZ. I don't care who is there or how crazy they act. I need some warmness. Seeing as how Im not getting it from any man the sun will do. This is going to be the first december since I was little that I wont be in Buffalo for Christmas- there is a part of me thats sad about it. Then there is this other part thats happy because I will have to see no one and do nothing but what I want to do and we all know I am all about moi.

Back to the bday- I have this friend Lori (also know as jew-c not to be confused with juicy) who copied me a million cd's for my bday. How did she know my new boyfriend ipod would LOVE that! She also got me a rad red rock/ business purse (it can go either way) and a comforter which I love too. Then work ono Friday threw me a suprise party complete with wine and a HUGE cake. This new job is stressful but the benefits rock! ok back to the job...

So I go down to get lunch this afternoon and I hear this harp and flute music playing Christmas songs. I turn around and there are two live people playing a harp and a flute roped off in this little area. Its like a live concert non stop till Christmas now. I can not believe that. I guess working in the most expensive rental property has its benefits.

So i saw the best apartment on Saturday. The catch they wanted someone to move in right away. Something I can't afford to do. I can't pay rent on two places at once. I am so super bummed. Tom told me he'd help me out so I called the person renting the place and it was gone (i knew it would be). Sigh- it was so cute. I guess it wasnt meant to be. I hate apartment hunting. I really super duper wanted that place too. Its going to take time to get over this. You know a piece of fine jewelry from Tiffanys would heal this heartache...

Until my birthday! Yea! I'm still holding out hope that the birthday fairy will know my deepest desire and show up with an ipod.