So I finally got the hang of the scanner today, so I'm going to bore you all with some pictures...



This is the infamous Quad. Left to right: Katy, Me, Rick, Aquila.



This is Mad Yellow Sun, the band that will probably give me an ulcer before I'm 25. Left to right: Dwayne, Gabe, Doug, Nick



Jaime, Molly, and me at Graduation a couple years ago.



Todd on a tuesday night.



Me, Kevin, and Dan at Kev's b-day.

Ok, that's enough for now. I'll probly put some of the ones from RHS in here later.

OH!
And I heard on the radio that 102.1 is broadcasting live from the Cure concert, so eve if I can't go, I can hear it!! YAY!!

Oh, the powers of wonder twins...I wrote this whole entry out on Word while mom was on the phone, and then right before I was going to post it i Katy's journal. and i gotta say, i got a little freaked out.
ok, im lying.
i read it, then i re-read mine, then i had a panic attack.
because sometimes the way we think alike is so scary.

so before i copy and paste this all in here, I just want to say this. I have those same nightmares, I have those same terrible memories, but I wouldnt change it either, because the past month has been different because of it, and in this case, different dosen't nessecerily mean bad.
so here is my entry.

it's been a month, now.
There's been a lot on my mind....medicaid, SSI, my mom, jaime, todd, kevin, duffy, the Quad, DQP, Colloquial my friends going back to school...lotsa stuff in general.
But tonight there's really only one thing on my mind, and that's how incredibly grateful i am to have seen this past month.
What if i hadn't? What if it had been different, and so much worse? It could have been so much worse.
But "what if's" get you nowhere fast, and thinking about it only depresses me more. So instead of analyzing and thinking and driving myself nuts, I'll just say what I haven't had the chance to.
now, you know I'm not typically a very religious person, but...
Thank you, God.

Thank you for my cousin, who never meant to put us in harms way, who never meant to hurt us ever. Thank you for giving him the good sense not to have blown off that stop sign or gone too fast in that rain. Thank you for making him brave enough so that even when he wanted to break down and cry i that emergency room, he still had the strength to hug me and tell me it would be ok. Thank you for making him into someone I consider a brother, because we are that in every sense...we bicker and fight like fools but I always love him at the end of it. Thank you, God, for Duffy.

Thank you for Katy, who has shown more strength in the face of adversity in the past month than anyone I have ever known. Thank you for keeping her as safe as you possibly could, thank you for not taking her from me, thank you for being there when I prayed for you to give me strength for her. Thank you for bringing us together in the first place, and for making her my little sister and best friend. She is the Diane to my Anne always, and if there's one thing I am most grateful for, it is her. There are very few (if any) in this world that I have loved more than her. Thank you, god, for Katy.

Thank you for Aquila, who always tries to keep a smile on her face, and who still managed to make me laugh at the hospital despite situation. There were very few people I could have tolerated that night, and I am so grateful that Aquila was there, even if it was just so that she could stand there next to me so I wasn't alone. I am SO amazingly, eternally thankful she was not in the car with us at the time, and I am so glad that we have become such good friends because I don't remember what it was like without her in my life. Thank you, God, for Aquila.

Thank you for Rick, who wanted to leave work and rush to the hospital despite Keela's reassurance that everything would be fine. THANK YOU for not letting him have been with us. Thank you for giving him the strength to put up with me calling him crying at 4am and also for putting up with the three of us being AMAZINGLY emo the next day. Thank you for making him into this person that is determined to make the whole world feel better, because at that time, I definitly needed that. Thank you for sending us someone who cares so much about others. Thank you, God, for Rick.

Thank you for my Dad, who calmed my mother down enough to get ut the door and drive to Children's hospital in the middle of the night, only to have to put up with Sue, Terry, and Aquila's mom. (We all know how dad is when confronted with either famil
y
or people he dosen't know.) Thank you for giving him the ability to make my mother relax despite the fact he had to call her three times because she wasn't getting enough information. Thank you for the fact that he knew EXACTLY waht to say to me to get me to leave the hospital that night. Thank you, God, for my Dad.

And thank you for what you gave me. Thank you for making me stay as calm as I could, though inside I was a mess. Thank you for keeping me quiet even tho I wasnted to scream. Thank you for helping me to handle everything despite the fact I could barely handle myself. Thank you for giving me such amazing friends and family. thank you for the Quad, whom I love with all my heart. Thank you for not letting it have been worse.
Because it could have been worse.

And that's all I have to say about that.

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ok, so my company is going to have a Monolouge/Poetry Reading sometime in the next month.
So here I am, whoring myself out, and wonderig if there's anyone out there who happens to read this who would be interested in either preforming or helping out?
If so, email DramaQueen Productions at dramaqueen_productions@yahoo.com

Oh how I have a headache...
I've been working non-stop for the past two days, and I forgot how exhausting the whole thign was. When I was doing Vivie's shows, there was never this much pressure...I guess it's true that you can be your own worst boss. But it's my company, and it brings out the perfectionist in me.
I got an email from Matt today, and that made me happy. He is somewhere on the West COast currently, and will be home next week and wants to do somehting. I feel terrible cuz I promised I would go dancing with him and it's on the same night as the closing of No Exit.
Bah.
But more happy things, hmm...
Meg is home from Washington DC and wants to get together for lunch.
Kevin called me, so I know he isn't dead cuz I was starting to wonder.
Katie C. from SHA imed me...haven't talked to her in forever.
And yesterday was the Quad's 1 month anniversary, and i went to coffee& with aquila, then went to see rick at his apartment, but there was no quality katy time. We were gonna have that big dinner at my house, but Kate had to work. Now I don't think we're doing anything...1. because she's busy all this week. 2. because im doing tech for NE all next week.
::pout::
then aquila leaves on the 14th...but I don't really want to think about that.

Colloquial Theater Presents

Cabaret
Directed by Benjamin Gaetanos

Featuring Bill Griffin, Victoria Tonge, Kristin Napoli, Matt Kubus, Steve Brachmann, Andrea Martorana, Kevin Zak, Anna Marszalkowski, Beth Curvin, Cristiana Curcio, Kelsey Wahl, and Mollie Riester

Ujima’s TheaterLoft
545 Elmwood Avenue
Buffalo, NY

Thursday, August 5 at 8:00 PM
Friday, August 6 at 8:00 PM
Saturday, August 7 at 2:00 PM and 8:00 PM

All Tickets: $10
Call 716-208-5001