Im a dedicated watcher of the show One Tree Hill but its getting super dramatic.

"I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Not stopping...

It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems
I'll be 26
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine..."Jimmy Eat World

Today was my last day at Circuit City and it felt great. Kind of had mixed feelings going on. Basically, i probably got as close as i could to feeling like it was that tI'me of the month. I don't have to hear anymore dumbass customers ask if we have any playstations or xboxs (except if i hear it from Poch and Erin. dammit). Some would say im on to greater things. I hope their right. Who would have thought the air would smell better and food would taste better. I'm excited that its all over.

p.s.- when you look at old baby books and photos of yourself be careful it can be very emotional. I also learned that when i do have kids to always write things down.

Working in a retail store sucks around Christmas. I work at Circuit City and it just blows this time of year. Let me tell you it sucks waking up at 4 in the morning so you can be at work by 530 the day after Thanksgiving. Its even worse when you have to be there until 10 at night. Then i was scheduled to work on sat from 12-1030. Basically, i was a fuckin zombie last night. If i have to hear one more fuckin customer ask me if we have any PlayStation's or XBOX's someone is going to die. I just wish i could come straight out and fuckin yell at these dumb people. "Well, if you didn't wait till last fuckin minute you couldve had one a fuckin month ago."

Yes its another thanksgiving and I'm not sure what to make of it. I've never been fond of this holiday. I always thought it was kind of pointless. Like most i never actually look forward to thanksgiving. I look forward to the Wednesday night before it. Thanksgiving to me is just a day to get over a horrible hangover.

The night before kicked ass. I lacked money so i boycotted the Chippewa scene. The way i see it tho you can make any bar fun the night before thanksgiving. O yea it also pays to know the bartenders at each bar you go to. Nothing like taking out a hundred bucks and realize you only spent thirty. That thirty dollars spent got a total of one round of drinks for six people, another three beers for myself, and a total of five shots. The best part was this was only the first bar and like i said i only dropped thirty bucks all night. GOOD TIMES!

I'm not one with words so i hope this comes out ok.

I've known Erin for about a year now. The first time that i met her tho was about a year and a half ago. I saw her for like a second and thought she was cute. If i looked at her longer than second i would have realized that cute isn't enough to describe her.

Nearly six months past and our paths crossed again. I met her through a friend and got to know her a little bit better. Ever since that night I've started to have these strong feelings for her. So i started hang in out with her and my friends Betsy and Tim. She worked with Betsy so that gave me a shitty excuse to go see her. This kind of went on for awhile.

To but it simple shes the type of girl that you think a lot about and can't get out of your head but in a good way. Great personality, beautiful looks, very smart, really funny (especially when a little tipsy), and speaks a foreign language (sexy). She has everything I've been looking for and more. I was going to go to Europe with her and some friends but that won't be happening now. It sucks cause i was hoping to get closer to her.

Here's to maybe one day having the best thing that's walked into my life and never letting it go.

(Erin this is basically what those song lyrics mean to me)