Peanuts by Charles Bukowski:


answers that never arrive by Bukowski

answers that never arrive
I sit by the window and listen to the rain
come down
and I think about why we
do these things

we sit with our elbows on these
brick walls,
talking
bickering
lamenting the passing of our youth,
and what it means to be
young.

we write letters to Santa Claus
tell him about how
we've been good
we should get presents
waiting for answers that never arrive.

we spend our days and nights
drinking
screwing
screaming our heads off
and all it ever really does
is make my stomach
hurt

Do you guys know of any books or websites that might show me how to install a new cd/dvd drive for my computer (an HP laptop.)? The cd drive on my laptop has been broken quite awhile and I'm thinking of buying one to replace it (at newegg.com or something like that). The problem at hand is that I tend to be a computer moron.

Thank you guys for the good advice regarding the computer situation! I'm still mulling my options, but I really appreciated your insight on it.

I was trying to think of a way to make it up to Buffalo for weds because the India Gate outing seems like fun. I wish I could- but I definitely hope that you'll have a terrific time.

I'm doing good, I guess. I'm moving to Albany in two weeks. The next day, I have my orientation for being a TA and stuff like that. A couple days after that, I start my jobs and classes. Right now, I'm mostly just working on packing, cleaning, errands, etc. I have to read a 700 page book on the history of historiography for the first day of class. Yeah. My neighbor sold me a great mountain bike that's almost brand-new for twenty bucks. I'm really excited to have a bike again.

For fun, I've been reading "Zen and the Beat Way"- a series of transcribed radio lectures that Alan Watts did. Watts was kind of a peripheral figure within the beat movement who spent time with Snyder, Kerouac, Ginsberg, etc. I think he was a minor character in one of my favorite Kerouac books, "The Dharma Bums". As a book, it doesn't seem to be very much about the essence of Zen Buddhism. It is more about how eastern culture and philosophy impacted the countercultural scene in the 50's.

I had never seen a fish that looked like this before:

Aaron came up to Jimmytown for the day on Weds. I had a really wonderful time with him. We went to see Stardustwhich I loved. Although the movie changed the ending of the book significantly, it was mostly true to the Gaiman novel. I really liked the performances in it- especially Michelle Pfeiffer's and Robert DeNiro's. Then, we went out for dinner at Ruby Tuesday's and stopped for awhile at the little lakewood beach to watch the sunset.

My friend Roberta got me hooked on the television show Lost and we had our own mini-marathon of the 2nd season this week. Everybody was always talking about it, but I never had the time to watch it. I'm still a little confused about certain aspects of the Plot, but I think the writing is really interesting. I like how they use flashback and memory to further thematic elements of the characters experience on the island.

I just finished reading a book that I couldn't put down: "What is the What" by Dave Eggers. It's a fictionalized account of the real-life story of a Sudanese refugee in the U.S. named Valentino Achak Deng. He spent much of his childhood walking across Sudan to different refugee camps in Eastern Africa. The proceeds of the book go to the aid of the Sudanese.

Here is Valentino's website:

I made it to Albany tonight. I like my new place so far. It's a small studio apartment, but it feels comfortable. It was already furnished, so I didn't have to bring much up other than my clothes and books. I have internet and cable included with my utilities. It's also right next to Dunkin Donuts, which could be a good or bad thing depending on how you look at it...

We stopped at this great diner for dinner on western avenue(?). It was decorated in an awesome retro 60's style. It had your regular diner foods, but it also had a bar with all kinds of mixed drinks. I had a terrific corned beef on rye sandwich.

Good night, epeeps.

From my last post:
e:james- I don't think I'm by Lark Str. But I will definitely have to check out the burritos and the pizza!
e:lizabeth- It was metro 20. Thanks very much:).
e:libertad- thanks you so much!

I've been using archive.org a lot to find music and documents.
I found a bunch of tori amos Mp3's:



I'm doing well. I went to orientation yesterday. It was a long day, but I enjoyed it. The most helpful part was the morning sessions. They had a bunch of teaching workshops; showing you different techniques you could utilize. The second part of the day was mostly about being a grad student and the various things that you should do to get ready for classes.

They also had a panel discussion of grad students. One of the students spoke about his experiences being both deaf and legally blind. He's getting his PhD in chemistry. Sign language is so awesome. It's amazing to me how people can move their hands so fast. I would love to learn how to sign sometime.

Today, I had a lot of errands around campus to run and my arthritis has been kicking up lately, so I borrowed a scooter for the day from disability services. Some people have stared at me and it makes me feel kind of awkward. Like I'm supposed to not stare back at the people who are staring at me. Most people are cool, though.
Take care and have a great weekend, e:peeps!

I'm going to see Elvis Costello and Bob Dylan play together on October 9th!! Aaron's taking some time off work for the weekend and is coming up here to go with me. He actually bought the tickets as an early Hannukah/Christmas present for me. I'm so excited- they are both two of my favorite artists. I haven't been to a concert (other than a couple local bands) for years.

I hope you guys will have fun today... it seems like there's a lot of cool stuff going on in Buffalo.

http://community.livejournal.com/buffalo_dorks/2040658.html?nc=17&style=mine

It is wierd to think of both New World Records and Home of the Hits moved off Elmwood now. They both seemed like an important part of the neighborhood. I used to walk all the time to New World just to browse around, and then I would stop into Spot for coffee. Maybe the change will end up working out well, though. Spot can expand its business.

I really miss Spot. I haven't found any coffee places like that here, yet.