I am the ultimate procrastinator. My only actual homeowkr that has to be handed in each week is my lab and I have all week and I always put it off until wednesday night and then I wait and do anything possible (like read years worth of random estrip journals) and then cleaning the shelf and organizing my backpack adn what not in order to not do my lab. And then I just am forced to do it at like midnight and do it and think next week I will just do it early and not worry and be able to go out on wednesday but i never do. And so here I am again, and gossip girl starts in an hour and I refuse to miss it!

We went to see Feast Of Love last night. Like I just have not loved the movies I went to recently and it is sad. I thought it was kinda like a quirky sorta romanitc comedy from the previews but no IT IS a sad, drama filled porno. It was really crazy how much nudity and sex was in it. Like really unnecesary, noone ever had a bra or udnerwear on and even if they had a shirt on , the nipples were clearly shown half the time. Like I didn't hate the movie, it just wasn't what I was expecting. You know what I mean. Very strange. Morgan Freeman and Greg Kinnear were in it. I don't know it had good parts but overall just I don't know.

By the by I am kinda proud of myself when we all went out the other night I carried a tray of seven cosmos and wlaked them outside to the table without spilling any , and that included a step and a door! And i had already had a cosmo or two before this feat de excellence!

I love casinos as some of you know. Not in a bad way, like i don't lose a lot of money but I don't win a lot either. Like today I went and won 15 dollars on my first like penny spin and was winnign up a storm and got up to like 22 dollars (from an origianl 5 dollar bet) but of course I played it down to only coming home 3 dollars ahead. So like I still "won" but I oculd have went home with way more. I just can never walk away. And since I only really play penny machines I will never get higher than like 20 or 30 dollar win and so if i always plya it down I will never win> i don't know. I still look at it as what other activity could I do for a while and walk away with mor emoney than I walked in with. NONE!

P.S. Ollie's the new Big Lots like store near the Galleria is stupid. It is dirty and has crap> I love crap! And i was excited about it but relaly it was a let down. Big Lots is way better!!!The stuff was not even that cheap and it was all like dented and crap, I did not buy one tihng whe nI never walk out of Big Lots wihtout like two huge bags of stuff. I say maybe it has a chance in the future but righ tnwo it is el horible!

I can't handle it. I am not like a huge Bills fan or anything and i started watching this game and I get pulled in (if i start watching a game I will always get pulled in). And seriuosly the game was amazing and super exciting and then.....we lose at the very end. Like i am totally dejected and sad now for something I don't really in reality care about but it just i get so into it when i do wathc it. I can't handle the post-loss depression, I can't imagine what it would be like if i really really got into it everyweek. I tihnk I would be really depressed a lot!

Seriously these young newbie kids out there on the bills team totally desrved this game so bad! 5 freaking interceptions, a run back touchdown, LIKE WHO THE HECK GETS AN ONSIDE KICK!!!?! ugh

This dinner and e:strip discussion is cutting into my favorite television night of the week. I will be missing both Gossip Girl AND Dirty, Sexy Money my only 2 must see shows of the week. We don't have a VCR that tapes thing I am not watching and do not have TIVO. What is a poor tv addicted boy to do?

Had a great weekend with e:southernyankee and e:lilho in town and e:beast's going away party on saturday. Too much fun for one little boy. I actually have some pics from saturday at least because I rmeembered I have a camera for the first time. Since I just got it I always forget to bring it. Lots of good times and incriminating photo'/vidoes esepcially from Thrusday which luckily will not make it on e:strip , for the most part at least....

Two random crazy things though...
...driving home thrusday night/friday morning, at the corner of Elmwood and Hertel I am stopped at a red light and there is a car next to me adn the driver gets out of his car AND STARTS PEEING IN THE MIDDLE OF ELMWOOD. and then proceeds to get back in his car and drive through the red light and the next one...i'm sure the rest of that ride ended up in a lamp post.... it was seriuolsy crazy

then friday night I am leaving the e:pmt house when I open the door (it is like 4am ish, there is this man just standing there at the bottom of the stairs looksing at the door. I freak out run inside and e:libertad locks the door. I call everyone to the door and noone knows him. SUPER SCARY/FREAKY but then he eventually walks away and gets in his car and takes a good 20 minutes to pull out of a sapce even though he had no one behind him. I think he was relaly just a drunk man who maybe thought it was his house he was at and was confused why people were coming out of it?

Interesting weekend altogether and I am missing chammy cakes and sarbear already> Maybe I will have to write a song about it....and sing in in my underwear while playing the organ.....OH WAIT, i've already done that!

one of my bestest friends since sixth grade , e:beast is moving to scottland to be with her b/f (well they are gettin gmarried but only for the visa, not "for real" as she says) ! This means she will be there a minimum of two years. I don't know what I am going to do! I am a wreck! A full fledged crying mass of a wreck right now! I really thought I would be fine, she travels a lot and isn't in b-lo at months at a time but the tihng was she always was coming home! I had a date I knoew she would be back for a while! This time it could be forever, this could be the end! I am not handling it well at all! I have been crying since last night when I dropped her off after her goodbye dinner, we are going to lunch now. I hope to compose myself. I seriosly I had no idea I would be so distraught, I thought I would be fine but thinking about it is really making me carzy. I AM GONNA MISS HER LIKE WHOAA! I just can't imagine her not being here, and at the same time her starting tihs whole new life really, with new firends, a new husband and new everything adn I won't be a part of it! I hate the tought! We've done eveyrthing together since like 6th grade! I don't like tihs, I don't like it one bit.

Her mom always refereed to me as teres's wifey. She said I would call all the time and be naggy and what not and we would get in arguments like we were married ( i was clearly the wife though haha) Maybe it is that thought of losing my "spouse" to someone else. Whose wifey will I be? I need my e:beast! I don't want her to go! It is completly selfish and jealous but I really just don't want her to go! She cna't ! Maybe I shall sabotage her plane!

Ok i'm just kidding about that, I don't want to be arrested as a terrorist or something. I wouldn't really sabotage her plane! e:beast I am gonna moiss YOU!

Ugh, tomorrow morning I take my PCATs which are like the pharmacy school SAT type things. OMG I AM GONNA DO SO BAD! I have done some practice ones and get like oh 50% or less on the bio and chemistyr sections. Luckily on like the math and verbal and reading I do pretty good though the verbal is very touchy. Some practice i did really good some really bad. Math and reading I am shooting for like perfect or very close to perfect to hopefully cancel out the badness of the other sections. It seriusly could go etiher way, they could ask stuff I know, or stuff I don't (which is a far larger % of stuff). We'll see. I hate standardized tests. I am a pretty good test taker in general so I have that going for me but I seroiously know very little bio or chem considering I took the classes the stuff is based on appproximately 7 years ago with the exception of one semester of organic chem i am taking now. Like some of the stuff is from later organic chem which we haven't even done yet! Ugyh! I guess I oculd always just hope to win big at the casino if tihs whole pharmacy school thing doesn't play out!

I was thinking, hwo do these people from other countries pass the verbal part in any sort. Like i seriusly have a pretty good vocabulary and there are so many where I don't know what any of the choices mean. These people who english is not their first language, I can't imagine they can really do any of ti!?! it must be so difficutl! I guess no more difficult than chemistry is for me! Haha. !

Ok off to sleep early to get ready !

So I took my PCAT's and I think I royally screwed up the Math and Chemistry sections. Chemistry has always been my lowest strength but math is usually my best, like I almost got perfect like on all the practice tests and on the SAT's I did really good on math. But I got stuck on some stupid calculus problems at the beginning of the test and all of a sudden they were like " 5 minutes left" and I still had like 15 questions to go. They were all questions I could have answered if i had the time and, i just kinda had to guess on them, but hopeefully i got most of them right! It takes 6 weeks to find out your score. Considering it is mostly scantron with two two page essays that seems ridiculously long! I just want to know so I can know if I have to take them in january. I don't think I can sit through them again! It was 5 hours of pure long and uncomfortable torutre. LIke even the seats were super uncomfortable and in those 5 hours we only got 1 ten minute break! ugh!


Maybe it is time to think of a backup career. Like professional slot machine player?

And now on to Holly Hunter. Someone just posted on my youtube video about how stupid my video is and that Holly will never see it and they can't believe they bothered turning their head to watch it? Um who is the dumb one in this situation? What kind of greatness was he expecting from a sideways turned close up of my face called I love Holly Hunter .I love that people get so angry about things like that! Hilar!

So seriously me and e:jill have no idea what to be for halloween this year. We don't always go as things together like one year it was Captain Planet and the girl from the Royal Tennenbaums but we def plan it and find the stuff we need together. Sometimes we do coordinated like last years Starlight Express. But seriuosly we have been talking about it and thinking aobu tit nonstop and have come up with nothing! e:mk occassionally gets involved in the action too. We only have a few requirements, mainly that is glittery and if possible involves short shorts or underwear, is that too much to ask? Todya is our last chnace to day to find something though really we always come up with it wihthin like 3 hours of the first haloween party and it is usually pretty fab. Lets take a look back at the last few years for inspiration:



sexy starlight express with cigarette haha 2006


the starlight express chain is about to take off 2006


captain planet- sure he saves the planet but who doesn't love a fur coat with your super hero outfit? 2004


Looks like someone is about to take crime and pollution down to 0. 2004


I couldn't find a better picture of my fraggle costume. I know somehwere there is a picture of me as a fraggle hunched over the toilet from way too much drinking but I can't find it... 2005




wind up doll and cymbal playing monkey. That was very last minute. I actually worked til like 8 pm that night and had to put most of it together right before the party. I had to buy a huge stuffed monkey we had at work and cut off its head for a mask. It was very sad and traumatizing. My mom restuffed and sewed it though and I gave it to charity but ti was so sad to see it sitting there dead. 2003


You know what they say. Nothing is classier than a drunken monkey. 2003


Thank you to many different people whose journals I took these pictures from...now off to Amvets