san diego was amazing. but taht is not what i need to discuss....

I took my bros to the pool today. other than being burnt to crisp, i experienced an interesting pimp- ho fight. for real. ok. so I was chillin in the pool on my pink noodle (hahahahaha), and in walks this dude with a 40 in a brown bag. he was gross. and he sat on this chair and just watched us swim. i was really freaked out, but whatever....so we were all in the pool have a good time, then all of a sudden, this crazy asian bitch who look like an anorexic whore (a real las vegas whore) comes in the pool area slamming the pool gate wide open...

she starts screaming "you fucking asshole dick!" at the top of her lungs in her almost incoherant babble....and she is whalling her arms all over the place. I was like, holy shit! this is great!, but then realized my lttle brothers were witnessing this....so, I was like, okay, maybe they will go away.

she walked over to the gross dude and is like, punching and kicking him! she is screaming, "give me the keys, you fucking dick!" and he replied with "bitch, you are a ho. and anyway, you are drunk. where the fuck are you going to go? another john's house? you can't go anywhere." They were screaming this. yea. insane.

so, after my fix of entertainment for the day, i went into the office....and as I was walking, the dude was like, look btich, see that girl across the way, she is going to tell on you, get your shit together.

oddly enough, the manager at the office knew who i was talking about before he even went out to kick them out. apparently they are here quite often. he said he might have to evict the dude. he has no idea who the woman is, but she is always fucked up.

yea. so they left screaming and eachother....and it was insane.

it was better than watching cops or cheaters. for sure.

we leave for san diego tomorrow. i am taking my brothers to the zoo. I can't wait....we are staying for the weekend so we can also go to the beach!

I can't wait to sit on the beach and hear the sounds of the ocean. san diego is wonderful!

Only a few more days till I am home for a breif visit. I can't wait to be in buffalo....it's only for 4 days, but I will take it!

I am a young woman in a situation that isn't the best she has had...

a women who is in love with animals, especially my 3 babies...

a girl who loves pink and hello kitty

but is not a bimbo by any means (which some may believe me to be on first impression....which of course I despise)

I have a heart of gold....sometimes that isn't a great quality though, because you get set up to be let down at times....

my family is most important to me.

i don't get my eyebrows waxed as often as I should.

sometimes i say things that I shouldn't say about other people. but what most people don't know is that most of the time i regret it.

i love cleaning bathrooms.

my gucci bag is clearly fake. i mean, whoever spends $3000 on a bag is dumb.

2 of my closest friends are men. I think I just get along with dudes better....

I am a democrat. although I hate to say a party affiation, but I guess i am more liberal than anything....

I am tough. and I promise you, if you piss me off enough, i will punch you in the face....

I love to laugh. sometimes uncontrollably. In fact, this is quite embarrasing, but once in 4th grade, I was laughing so hard that I peed on e:lilho. yes. that is right folks. I peed on her in a cardboard box in my basement.

i have an ever changing hairstyle, although recently it has stayed constant. I am contemplating changing it.

i want to have a great job. but i also want to go back to school for like, everything....including physics. I don't understand it all....then again, who does, but I want to go to school for it.

and i hate school at the same time.

i am a little heavier than i would like to be. but i can manage.

i hate people who talk too much....like, the type who turn a 2 minute story into 70 minutes. i don't give a shit about your life. please give me the condensed version.

I LOVE MAKEUP. it's horrible. don't ever tell me I have too much lipgloss. you never can. and for the record, i wear minimal makeup despite my huge collection. i do not look like a streetwalker. thank you.

i have a dry sense of humor.

i am sometimes sensitive.

i am not too much of a movie person.

music is my life.

i am allergic to everything. the sun. the grass. even tattoo ink. bad news man....

i read books about diseases and economics for fun. i am a total nerd. but so clueless at the same time....

i usually have bad skin, but recently, it has been great due to my new skin care system from the derm.

i like to eat bad food. taht's right. i will be the first in line at taco bell and arby's.

i love television. really bad television for that matter. for instance, i love that show on E!: girls next door. I mean, who watches that shit?

i haven't worked out in 2 weeks.


if you dont' like any of these qualities in a person, then don't talk to me. in fact. dont' look at me. don't read this. i don't want you in my life anyway.

well. it's been a bumpy one. i love having my family here. i just wish it were under different circumstances. apparently my step dad has gone to our house (in buffalo) and taken all the furniture. wtf? he is such a dick. so now my mom has to go home to a half furnished house. i mean, that isn't just my moms house...its his kids house too.

i don't think he has his sons in mind. clearly. i just feel so bad for my mom. she is so heartbroken. i wish i could take her hurt and pain away.

so, to try to do this temporarily, I am taking her to see the blue man group tonight. I think she will love it. I certainly did. it's good plain fun....

i am exhausted. literally. and sunburn. we went swimming today, and i somehow got burnt despite the layers of 45 sunscreen....and i was only outside for like a half hour. but that pool was awfully refreshing. it is so brutally hot here. i hate it.

i will be home soon enough though. I am thinking by the beginning of october in case I forgot to mention that previously. its a wonderful thing. I am ready to start my new life back where I want to be. I am sorta kinda nervous about it though.

I am so out of touch with buffalo. I don't have friends there anymore. I don't know where to go there. I won't have a job initially. but it will all work out....I am certainly looking forward to it!

so....i got word today that my step dad up and left the family last night. and the worst part: he packed his truck and left right in front of my little brothers (9 and 11) and didn't even say goodbye to them. THAT my friends = scum.

and the worst part, this is the second time he has done this in 8 years.

when you have a family, and things get tough, you don't just up and leave them and give up. You work it out and do what you can. he did not. he didnt take my mom up on her offer to get help. he accused and wouldn't work through the problems.

but, my mom and little brothers are on their way here right as I type. The trip had been planned for months and my mom thought that they should still come because she wanted to prove that life isn't going to stop because he left again.

My heart is so broken. My poor little brothers do not need this shit. They are innocent children that are caught up in this stupid web of shit that they just don't need to experience again and again.

I hope my mom is done with this for good. she deserves better anyway.

And, this just solidifies why I need to go home as soon as possible. My family needs me now more than ever....and home is where I need to be.

fuck.

If there is a promise I can make out of all this, when I get married and have chldren, I am goign to put everything into it so that way my children will never have to go through what I or anyother child abandoned by their father did.

I know my mom can and will stay strong, but my step dad has no idea how incredibly stupid his actions are. They will forever have a lasting impression on the lives of my little men.