I am a young woman in a situation that isn't the best she has had...

a women who is in love with animals, especially my 3 babies...

a girl who loves pink and hello kitty

but is not a bimbo by any means (which some may believe me to be on first impression....which of course I despise)

I have a heart of gold....sometimes that isn't a great quality though, because you get set up to be let down at times....

my family is most important to me.

i don't get my eyebrows waxed as often as I should.

sometimes i say things that I shouldn't say about other people. but what most people don't know is that most of the time i regret it.

i love cleaning bathrooms.

my gucci bag is clearly fake. i mean, whoever spends $3000 on a bag is dumb.

2 of my closest friends are men. I think I just get along with dudes better....

I am a democrat. although I hate to say a party affiation, but I guess i am more liberal than anything....

I am tough. and I promise you, if you piss me off enough, i will punch you in the face....

I love to laugh. sometimes uncontrollably. In fact, this is quite embarrasing, but once in 4th grade, I was laughing so hard that I peed on e:lilho. yes. that is right folks. I peed on her in a cardboard box in my basement.

i have an ever changing hairstyle, although recently it has stayed constant. I am contemplating changing it.

i want to have a great job. but i also want to go back to school for like, everything....including physics. I don't understand it all....then again, who does, but I want to go to school for it.

and i hate school at the same time.

i am a little heavier than i would like to be. but i can manage.

i hate people who talk too much....like, the type who turn a 2 minute story into 70 minutes. i don't give a shit about your life. please give me the condensed version.

I LOVE MAKEUP. it's horrible. don't ever tell me I have too much lipgloss. you never can. and for the record, i wear minimal makeup despite my huge collection. i do not look like a streetwalker. thank you.

i have a dry sense of humor.

i am sometimes sensitive.

i am not too much of a movie person.

music is my life.

i am allergic to everything. the sun. the grass. even tattoo ink. bad news man....

i read books about diseases and economics for fun. i am a total nerd. but so clueless at the same time....

i usually have bad skin, but recently, it has been great due to my new skin care system from the derm.

i like to eat bad food. taht's right. i will be the first in line at taco bell and arby's.

i love television. really bad television for that matter. for instance, i love that show on E!: girls next door. I mean, who watches that shit?

i haven't worked out in 2 weeks.


if you dont' like any of these qualities in a person, then don't talk to me. in fact. dont' look at me. don't read this. i don't want you in my life anyway.

well. it's been a bumpy one. i love having my family here. i just wish it were under different circumstances. apparently my step dad has gone to our house (in buffalo) and taken all the furniture. wtf? he is such a dick. so now my mom has to go home to a half furnished house. i mean, that isn't just my moms house...its his kids house too.

i don't think he has his sons in mind. clearly. i just feel so bad for my mom. she is so heartbroken. i wish i could take her hurt and pain away.

so, to try to do this temporarily, I am taking her to see the blue man group tonight. I think she will love it. I certainly did. it's good plain fun....

i am exhausted. literally. and sunburn. we went swimming today, and i somehow got burnt despite the layers of 45 sunscreen....and i was only outside for like a half hour. but that pool was awfully refreshing. it is so brutally hot here. i hate it.

i will be home soon enough though. I am thinking by the beginning of october in case I forgot to mention that previously. its a wonderful thing. I am ready to start my new life back where I want to be. I am sorta kinda nervous about it though.

I am so out of touch with buffalo. I don't have friends there anymore. I don't know where to go there. I won't have a job initially. but it will all work out....I am certainly looking forward to it!

so....i got word today that my step dad up and left the family last night. and the worst part: he packed his truck and left right in front of my little brothers (9 and 11) and didn't even say goodbye to them. THAT my friends = scum.

and the worst part, this is the second time he has done this in 8 years.

when you have a family, and things get tough, you don't just up and leave them and give up. You work it out and do what you can. he did not. he didnt take my mom up on her offer to get help. he accused and wouldn't work through the problems.

but, my mom and little brothers are on their way here right as I type. The trip had been planned for months and my mom thought that they should still come because she wanted to prove that life isn't going to stop because he left again.

My heart is so broken. My poor little brothers do not need this shit. They are innocent children that are caught up in this stupid web of shit that they just don't need to experience again and again.

I hope my mom is done with this for good. she deserves better anyway.

And, this just solidifies why I need to go home as soon as possible. My family needs me now more than ever....and home is where I need to be.

fuck.

If there is a promise I can make out of all this, when I get married and have chldren, I am goign to put everything into it so that way my children will never have to go through what I or anyother child abandoned by their father did.

I know my mom can and will stay strong, but my step dad has no idea how incredibly stupid his actions are. They will forever have a lasting impression on the lives of my little men.

the last few days have been wonderful. I have had a low key schedule and have had a chance to rest up. what a wonderful thing sleep is.

my case with the car accident is finally over....today was my last day of treatment....so now my lawyer takes over and hopefully gets me money.

i am obsessed with my steve madden sannibel sandals in white, so I bought another pair....but they were sold out all over las vegas, so I ordered them on ebay. they came in today.

we took the dogs to the dog park this evening. it is always adorable to see my happy little puppies run around and just be babies!

i saw transformers on saturday. it was def enjoyable. surprisingly funny.

i want to say so much more but i can't. my life is boring right now. i guess that is a wonderful thing. no drama!

Last night a man opened fire in New York New York casino and shot 5 people. It's a bit ironic to me for various reasons:

-it just confirms that people in this city are loonie

-why did he choose NYNY? out of all of this shit ass casinos in this city, he had to choose one that ironically embodies where I want to be. Well, anywhere in NY state would be great....(by the way, NY NY is totally NOT cool....go to the real NY if you really want to experience it, duh!)

-where else in the world can you leave NY, after shooting 5 people, and cross the street and be in the lion's cove (the man was on his way to the MGM)? Only las vegas....