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my sister makes me LOL: me: its chat time beeeeeeeeeeyotch ok, and no more talk about thanksgiving i work annnnd aunt jean is going to be here sister: wo hoo me: ok no woohoo si0 . . .
i would like to thank e:jenks for reminding me that there often is a silver lining. it's funny the song silver lining by rilo kiley was playing when i was in the apple store... so here it0 . . .
this is what happens when you lose a macbook and all of the info on it. 1109/PhotoOn20091111At20271111.jpg0 . . .
I numbered it 1 because there is sure to be at least a 2 and 3. On top of the illness wait no screw the illness. I have a completely broken macbook everything erased forever. Goi0 . . .
thanks e:theecarey and e:libertad for the concern! im not feeling much better. i really have no clue what i have, if it's the stomach flu or food poisoning. my praying to the porcelain gods0 . . .
so there were a million things i am supposed to do today but instead i am lying here. my body is currently rejecting all food and water and i think i have food poisoning. no one is around and 0 . . .
that is the word to describe how i feel right now. my insides are at war. i have been in contact with way too many sick people in the past week, and i thought i was invincible but i think it has ca0 . . .
sometimes things work out way different than you planned. this time the moral of the story is, you do not leave someone when they are sick. even if they just need to sleep and you are bored. ju0 . . .
this man i work with has a mild case of tourette's syndrome. i really think i set it off in him somehow. he's actually a really handsome guy, and i used to have a slight crush on him, bu0 . . .
now you can see the whole costume... im sad now that halloween is over. i never liked halloween until this year. i realized it has potential for full on glitter and camp, which is basically what makes0 . . .
e:hodown, where my prize at???? there were no peacock feathrs but i made one amzing bird. everyone, including myself agreed i had the coolest costume. like tim gunn says, "make it work"0 . . .
i am obsessed with being an amazing diy peacock for halloween. its getting expensive and i don;t know if i can pull it off. ALL to prove a point my friends. i can do this...0 . . .
my sister life is not very glamourous and this upsets me. she carries her laundry down the street like a common hobo... to the laundromat and back. i'm hoping to change some of this for her, a0 . . .
My lappy is sick. I couldn't get an appointment at the genius bar until tomorrow night. Until then its just me. I am forced to use Julie's IBM to do my work tomorrow. The thought makes m0 . . .
i am going to pass from indulging too much. lately its sloth and gluttony. at least being lazy is a good way to save money. i miss aruba so much.... 1009/DSCN33351013.jpg i am offi0 . . .
this looks like those nasty fried baby mice you found in your oven.. you made me look at those pictures and talk about it for days, and then we cooked something in the oven...mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm 0 . . .
nothing went my way today. i spent $50 on product to make my hair shiny. it was dull as ever. i was swamped at work and didn't get half the things done i needed to. had a huge stomac0 . . .
I know my food, and I know what is good, great, and non-edible. This place has received a place in my top ten worst dining experiences thus far. Basically I would have been more content eating Taco Be0 . . .
"jerktude", it's a fabulous new word that e:hodown coined. she lives in the land of jerks, nyc, thus the reason for her inventing the word. and even if someone else has said it before, 0 . . .
i miss aruba so much. i suppose its not realistic to feel i belong there, but i guess being out of the u.s. makes me think i would be happier elsewhere. i am glad i came to phoenix and no doubt i w0 . . .
apparently i can finish the rest of my degree online, in the next year. this will be the record for world's longest bachelor's degree at about 7 years. i subtracted the two years of cosme0 . . .
she is getting so big and she can crawl. i want that baby, but she is so far. plz bring her to me, thx... 0909/DSCN36610914.jpg0 . . .
most amazing week of my life... and when i came back and told everyone they all though i had fallen in love with some man, but it was the island that got me. of course the hot men didn't hur0 . . .
finished watching into the wild this morning. wow, what a depressing way to start my day. i know the guy had a message about being free and whatnot but seriously? he went to alaska and basically co0 . . .
wow, it's so tiring going to work and then class. plus my boss is freaking out about everything, and as usual i end up picking up the pieces after others who don't do things right. my 0 . . .
i went to the mall yesterday, my kryptonite. i was only supposed to spend 100 or less and spent about 400. ok, everything i found was such a bargain, but now i have major guilt. on the upsid0 . . .
nobody ever believes me how hard this video is. when i first started doing it about a month ago, i could even make it through the first 25 minutes. now, i can do the whole ting straight through. my0 . . .
has a positive contribution to mankind. well, that's what my fortune said anyway. i picked up some delish chinese food, and not the gross take out kind, the quality kind that is not greasy a0 . . .
I am fine with being alone in the daytime. At night I am severly afraid of the dark. I never want to live alone. I want mamma ho to come home and then I will feel safe again. I swear there0 . . .
so, i remember the days of when 2 hours was the daily norm for my getting ready routine... and as the years have passed that has slimmed down to about 30 min from shower to out of the door. working0 . . .
having a fun night with my cuz.... we did a (pro) photo shoot, and i think you guys are gonna really like what you see... 0809/Photo1280817.jpg 0809/Photo1360817.jpg 0809/Photo1390817.j0 . . .
I was rushing out of the house this morning for work and I packed such a healthy lunch. When I got to work I realised that I forgot it at home! :o) Rip healthy lunch!0 . . .
so, i am finally going to post some vegas photos... i can't even put into words how much fun i had. i would put that weekend into my top ten most fun experiences thus far folder. it's ama0 . . .
that funky monkey chunky.... i just like that song. anyway, i need to get a proper post togetha but i have had no time. aruba is officially on in three weeks. get ready islanders, the ho is co0 . . .
Eventually. In the meantime I have accomplished a new personal record of most hours spent awake in 96 hour period. Less than 8 hours of sleep and back at work and I feel fine. I don't think I e0 . . .
I'm going to get the sparkle lollipop right now! Vegas baby!0 . . .
Throw them at people you don't like. At least I still have Aruba. I want a different job. 0 . . .
i was successful with the hike today, although i wish we had done the whole 4 miles, it was pretty humid. i think i am going to get an earlier start on saturday, so i can go all the way. after the0 . . .
just finished working on my fitness for the first time in a month. i guess my whole plan didn't work, but i am back on like pam and tommy lee; minus all the white trashiness of course. an0 . . .
i was convinced to apply for this job, and i really hope i am not being bs'd because i have put a lot of effort into this! to prove my asian cooking skills i made udon noodles from scratch, as0 . . .
i cannot tell you how much i love my little niece, she is a ball of smushy joy and love. my heart melts every time i see her precious face, and i get really sad just thinking about her because i mi0 . . .
i am trying to get this job, which would entail moving to nyc for 4 months... it would be an amazing opportunity, and could possibly lead to bigger things, or just be 1/3 year adventure. i am fine 0 . . .
so there is this candy company sugar factory, and they make the most amazing product... a lollipop with a reusable bedazzled handle and twist off candy tops! 0709/Couturepops0731.jpg i love loll0 . . .
i miss my blo peeps. it's hard to find friends that you have fun doing absolutely nothing with, but always seem to have fun. i love this photo of e:terry and i, we both look so cute!!!! 0700 . . .
every single night for the past few weeks, i have really crazy dreams. they are disturbing though because they always involve people in my life; friends and family, and something pretty bad usually ha0 . . .
i have been having the trippiest dreams lately... they involve people i know, but in the most insane oddest scenarios. for example: last night or this morning before i woke up, i dreamt that e0 . . .
i have morphed into a money loving, completely high maintenance version of my former self. i like girly things more, and boys less. i like money; where can i get some? i like hot men with mon0 . . .
it bothers me to look at my blogs and see so many spelling errors. they say spelling has nothing to do with intelligence, but typos make me cringe. my sister is moving into what she has dubbed, 0 . . .
yup, im in love. with the lazy river at the jw marriot desert ridge. holy begeezers!!!!!!! i think my new life goal is to find the world's best lazy rivers!!!!!! i had an absolutel0 . . .
started out at a resort in the last river. woke up at 130, on the couch and everyone else asleep. except my mom and her bf who went to go swimming. we played water volleyball, and ate more than 0 . . .
I am the most happy I have been in many years. It feels really good! I attribute a lot of it to the healthy eating and exercise I just feel energetic and good all the time! I have also learned to e0 . . .
i am dying to see this movie. i think i am going to laugh harder than i ever had before! i wish my fav boys were here so we could go together! 0609/Images0630.jpg ...Upon arriving he told fans0 . . .
i had a breakdown last night. i ate steak and butter, and bread and a volcano cake with ice cream. and i had some cheese, which is not so bad but a bad combo, because the meal was fat and carb fill0 . . .
micheal jackson is dead? this is upsetting, i thought he was gonna have some comeback, and it would be like old times. who will raise his kids???? so sad.0 . . .
i just bought this new video by jillian micheals, the crazy ripper trainer woman on that show the biggest loser. holy crap her workouts are hard. i find myself yelling at the tv even though no one 0 . . .
i was trying to find the lab this morning so i can finally spend three hours of fun here to get my tests done... im already in a bad mood because i haven't eaten in 14 hours, and then i can� . . .
if you google video chat... my photo is one of the first to show in the image section. 0609/Videochat083010623.png apparently e:paul and i are in a long distance relationship according to some w0 . . .
for about three months now everything, and every time i eat i get sick. i finally have insurance and went to the doctor and she put me on a high fiber diet. my diet was pretty much already high fi0 . . .
if the opportunity arose... i feel like men will say yes and women(most women) no. 0 . . .
real housewives of new jersey. money can buy you lots of things: too much eye liner, too much botox, too big fake breasts, too much tacky clothing, and bad hair. i love this show, these women 0 . . .
i would like a library because books are my favorite. i like the way they smell, and the way they look on shelves. how amazing would it be to have thousands of books in your home to choose from at 0 . . .
so, all i do is exercise and eat healthy now. this morning hiking, i saw two helicopters, they kept circling around and my cousin and i were trying to figure out what was going on. no other peop0 . . .
clouds be gone. this is too buffalo-esque. this whole not spending money thing sucks. aruba better be worth it.0 . . .
waking up at 530 to workout. i hate it. but i love the results im getting already and its only been a few weeks. it takes hard work and dedication, and a verrrrrry early bedtime. i ha0 . . .
its much easier to get what you want if you just make it known. and even if you don't get it, you will be happier knowing you spoke your mind. ps. exercise and eating right are addictive.0 . . .
i found out this morning before work that a young man i knew from ub was shot and killed a few weeks ago. i was completely shocked and upset. although i didn't know him too well, he seemed lik0 . . .
i had this dream last night that the world was basically/possibly ending. there was this giant flood everywhere and it destroyed most of the food. i was somehow in blo and when the flood hit i w0 . . .
the remaining cost of my plane tickey to blo, 80 cent. i was using up a voucher. it was actually too low a price and i had to call in to purchase it because the website kept getting all messed up. 0 . . .
women tell other women not to trust men. but really they are trying to divert your attention because it is other women you can't trust. most will knock you when you're down, and th0 . . .
i am going to aruba in sept with a friend for a wedding. plus e:deeglam is coming in july and we are going to resort it up here. so, i have a little mini-fun weekend plus a big vaca to save for!0 . . .
he is calling me and asking me to come out and play but i must work. i was supposed to get the entire weekend off, but the other sec. needed saturday off, so i was only off yesterday. now i must0 . . .
so apparently, it was one of the charge nurses who called my boos and told her i was texting. again, i didn't have my phone yesterday. i asked her about it, and she proceeded to tell me i 0 . . .
so apparently i get in trouble at work for things i don't even do. it's bad enough that my boos texs and calls me when i'm not at work. but today, i left my phone at home because 0 . . .
i attribute the title of my post to e:hodown who had something about the salute in a previous journal. so, i am saluting all of the jerks and liars out there and the world seems to be filled with t0 . . .
and i just can't hide it. you get the point! e:deeglam is coming to visit me in july!!! for 4th of july weekend, and that one of my fav holidays, because it involves sun and swimming and yummy0 . . .
so i have been feeling really weird about blogging lately. sometimes i feel like technology is ruining real human relationships. how often do we pick up the phone and call people nowadays? instead,0 . . .
so, my friend wants me to go out tonight to console this girl who is broken-hearted. you know me, i love any excuse to get dressed up and have fun. but, working every weekend takes its toll on me, 0 . . .
this makes me laugh every time i look at it. just think e:paul, if i hadn't moved away our weekends could be me in white curtains and you wearing a computer something! 0509/Babyandcrazy0502.0 . . .
the importance of true friends. not just the people who are there for the fun times, but the ones who will be by your side for the most difficult moments. i am really lucky to have friends lik0 . . .
I need to go to attitude rehab because I'm so negative and sarcastic and judgemental and I wish to be sweet and happy go lucky.0 . . .
i am never online these days. it appears i have obtained somewhat of a social life, and the internet gets on my nerves. i have realized i much prefer real life situations than spending hours sit0 . . .
e:hodown's flight gets in in an hour. i will be the dutiful one to pick her up, even though no one im my family(ahem) evers takes or picks me up from the airport. wait, i take that back. whene0 . . .
i have been offered a job in the pharmacy at the hospital i work at which would mean leaving my current position which i kinda convinced my boss to give me. it would really be screwing the nursing sta0 . . .
I am hungover from 3 drinks. I feel old. Or maybe drinking is just not for me anymore. It makes me so sleepy and I have an awful headache. I.suppose its way healthier and I won't have to worry ab0 . . .
the more confusing men become and the less confusing math is. with math, once you get it you can check your answers, and it makes sense. 0 . . .
just because i think we love each other. or because i love her! 0309/DSC009860331.jpg0 . . .
i feel i have a knack for picking out any book thats ends up with a horrible ending or some sort of awful part in between. i choose this current book based on the fact that is was supposed to be: 0 . . .
i was so eager to come home, and now i really miss not so much the blo, but the peeps. e:pmt of course! and the baby so much!!! i don't even really like baby babies, the kind that only sleep a0 . . .
ever since i came cam from the blo i have been having the worst allergies. it has come to a peak today when i woke up having trouble breathing this morning, so i took some claritin. sometimes i 0 . . .
i can't believe how much i already miss sweet little baby zooey(zoey). i need my baby love. :( 0309/DSC010300324.jpg0 . . .
e:hodown has arrived safely! the real cractivation begins nows. i always like to ask her about the new trend in NYC and she told me the hipsters there are lovin the "slanties". pict0 . . .
blingee has changed my life. 0309/Blingeebabynme0319.gif0 . . .
buffalo is fun. i only have two things to say: balance ball workout "bring it" .0 . . .
i really don't want to come to buffalo. this feeling has been building for a while, and now it's to the point where i just don't feel like going at all. i feel selfish because i shou0 . . .
every semester i get stuck in a lame group project and to my non-surprise every semester i get stuck in a group that ends up consisting of me... well me doing all of the work because i don't want0 . . .
so part of my whole point of coming to blo is to be able to go to the st patty's day parade... will i'm an idiot and totally though it would be the weekend after, not before st patty's 0 . . .
i think i will just let it happen.... i mean let my blog fall to a lower spot. if e:hodown really wants a top spot, then why not? i can no longer post the sensational blogs of my youth.... no vario0 . . .
have you ever had that one friend who is a bully but never beats you up? they are just extremely in control or love being in control and controlling... sometimes very fun, other times scary and 0 . . .
If you enjoy fast food, particularly the delicious meat, you may not want to read this journal. I just finished watching Fast Food Nation. Do not watch this movie meat lovers! You will be disgusted0 . . .
they found 500 lbs of weed on fabolous's tour bus!!!!!!! 500!!??!! i was just at his party last weekend, and i noticed a bunch of green lying around, but i didn't think it was part of col0 . . .
seriously give me english lit, art history, fine art, or theory any day and i can make myself look somewhat intelligent. the combination of math and science puts me in a sub-standard level of int0 . . .
im beginning to think no one will hire me as a teacher because i am present on the web. lucky for me all of my shining moments have been captured by my tech friendly friends and i fear when prospectiv0 . . .
yesterday i was on the freeway and here was a bee on my car. i've never been stung and i feel like maybe i might be allergic, and i nearly killed myself and other people. it was basically one of0 . . .
e:hodown bought me this a long time ago.... i don't know what i did with it, and i want another one. sooooooooo cute! and the slippers you use to clean your phone! plznthxbai. 0200 . . .
my mother just spray tanned me in her shower. i was basically nude. then i ran around to try an dry it faster; i am insane. but at least i will have a hot spray(non-cancer) tan for my hot outfit sa0 . . .
my math tutor just cancelled on me because her fiance and son are sick... or did she party too hard??? i am currently in a state of panic because i will fail this exam tomorrow without some serious0 . . .
the kind of begging i speak of is the more grown up positive kind. i think i convinced my boss to give me a f/t job. also, she doesn't have an issue with me taking a week off in march, so blo 0 . . .
i am really to put on happy face, but it's hard, because this week has thus far been just full of bad news. so, i am going to make a list of the good and the bad to put things into perspective0 . . .
lately i get set off about most everything. every small detail must go my way, or else that is it. i think i do quite a good job at hiding my rage... since i tend to just avid all people when 0 . . .
i feel that my blog has been lacking lately. yesterday in class, i was inspired to create a new category of journals, "public offenders". this category is dedicated to the topic of people wh0 . . .
last week it was near 80 every day... this week it's in the 60's. something is very wrong here. i'm cold. i suppose anything is better than the frozen tundra ya'll li0 . . .
last week the stars were not pointing in my direction. this week however, i feel, will shape up to be a good week. really a great week. and i have a good feeling about the next few weeks as well0 . . .
ever since paul posted a screen shot of me from a video chat we had, my sn is the top image result on google. in the screenshot, my sn is present. every time i sign on ichat, i get all sorts of0 . . .
i had class friday night and then all day yesterday, and a couple of people were sick, and i think it became like being on an airplane, sitting in that same room with sick people and all of that recyc0 . . .
so, for xmas e:hodown wanted some phyto product, and they were having a sale. i am basically a sucker for any type of beauty product, lately products especially that promises great results. in addi0 . . .
i just finished reading, The Devil in The White City by Erik Larson. So, I think it is maybe one of the most well written books I have ever read. I think it sat on my bookshelf for almost two years; m0 . . .
i just went to see slumdog millionaire. really good movie. also so disturbing. i am also currently reading "the devil in the white city". great book. also extremely disturbing. and i 0 . . .
so, for a while i was having photo uploading issues. and it seems to have worked this time! below are mostly pics of family stuff, including the incredible trifle(made by moi!), pics of my fab cougar 0 . . .
so this job i have been wanting turns out to seem not so great, and i kinda missed out on some fun in blo because of it. anyway, i still have the interview on friday, but i feel like it will be just t0 . . .
my infamous white coat, for those of you who know me and have seen it, has not unzippered at the bottom for two years. well, now tonight, i came home, well home to the e:pmt, AND i went to unzip it0 . . .
no one should only get three hours of sleep and then have to wake up at 230. seriously,i am soooooo tired!!!!!! i am also scared of the cold, because as e:hodown says, i think my memories of the0 . . .
moving out here was so scary at first. it was the first time i truly stepped outside my comfort zone. and after a year and a half, i can honestly say it is the best decision i could've made, t0 . . .
please be at new years party. ok thx bai! if you don't know who you are, you are the larson twins. e:joshua and e:jason. your presence is requested, be there looking spiffy. puffer vest0 . . .
transiberian. watched it tonight. was supposed to be movie night. half of it i didn't watch because it was so disturbing. seriously. if you want to see crazy russian pretend police lookin0 . . .
happy birthday to the loveliest sister ever! can't wait to see you!!!! 1208/DSCN26271219.jpg0 . . .
had been stolen by both works and school. more by school. just three math exams to take and then finished. its my fault for waiting to take all three at the end of the semester, but i should have0 . . .
i'm at school, in a lounge area, and there's a tv. i had to turn it off because jerry springer was on and the title of the show was, "a godfather, a tranny, and a midget." on0 . . .
i kinda lost my job yesterday. due to the recession. a week after i spent a fortune on gifts. luckily, i can just be frugal and i'll be alright. my heart goes out those who lost their job0 . . .
i did not want to get up for work this morning. i did. and i go, and i wasn't even supposed to be there. i need to start writing stuff down. anyway, the other secretary is such a frumpy old la0 . . .
is go xmas shopping. but everything else is getting in the way!!! i have a slight shopping addiction, and this is a great way to feed the need, because it is buying for others. and maybe some for m0 . . .
i thought be december the school could have this all worked out. seriously????? i have not gotten any of the money i am owed. i have paid for my tuition with my own money. i have freakin bills0 . . .
so e:hodown and i were ichatting today. and she brings up the view counter thing and how i am #2. this scares me for so many reasons. the number reason being the lack of discretion i have displa0 . . .
i tried to take my cousin to a nice dinner for her 18th bday last night. what a fucking bust. the restaurant was supposed to middle eastern. it was such crap. we got there and the place was kinda s0 . . .
i might hit up the blo for new years.... but only if i get my own bottle of champagne. there is a ball drop at the e:pmt. and i get to make out with a super hottie boom-a-lottie @ mid0 . . .
my mom is joining facebook this very moment. she doesn't even know what it is. a coworker invited her. can't they start a mombook or something???? now she can friend, e:hodown0 . . .
its so funny to see the little girl i work with get into rifts with her brother. they are 3 years apart and my brother and i are 1 1/2. josh and i used to be the same, and sometimes still are. i ca0 . . .
so i feel like i have really set into a man eating pattern. i do get the short end of the stick as well of course, but i just really go through them like water. i never hang with more than one guy 0 . . .
in a perpetual state of blah. things seem to excite me for a very short while, and then i come back to this place. i don't think it's depression, just a sense of blahness. and also the fe0 . . .
whiskey and beer... a blend for true americans. not so tasty, but it's doing the trick! yesamesh!!! i need a break from birthdays and babies...0 . . .
i am so excited!!!!!! obama!!!!! but my mama is not. she says i am to blame for the reason there will be no money to leave me in her will. she brought the lolz, as perez would say. but i0 . . .
i voted! yay! how exciting, i can't wait to hear the results, even though the popular vote doesn't really count... but it's exciting to see so many people out there at the polls exec0 . . .
what a special halloween. turns out its mrsa. i had it lanced. it hurt like a mother but its better now. now a second course of anitbiotics. my stomach is not happy about this. the doctor0 . . .
i had what looked like two bug bites. turned into giant infection thing. must wear giant bandaid. can't sit on bum. ouch.0 . . .
i really like her. i like the fact that she is so voluptuous and beautiful and not the hollywood standard. and i loved her in dreamgirls.... she stole the show! that voice, that rack!!! yowza! 0 . . .
the stress is never on any specific person, and it is supposed to be a group effort. well, eff that. next time i am going to protest to work alone. because at this point, everyone else gets to0 . . .
this is the ecard, e:hodown sent me. i have decided to no longer date younger guys, because they are idiots and have no clue what they want, or how to deal with me. anyway, i am now an older woman, an0 . . .
all work and no blog makes jackie a dull girl. my life is officially mostly boring and i never blog. what happened????? i need a new blog focus. and i spend way too much time wondering i0 . . .
i am now being judged as a "scottsdale" type. oh no! i look like one of those pathetic girls, who have daddy buy shit for them and shop and do nothing but sit around and read magazines?0 . . .
when all the germs come out and start festering. im pretty sure i have a sinus infection, but i refuse to take antibiotics. i took some about two months ago, and they did not agree with my stomach 0 . . .
i kissed this boy. and now im sick. therefore i now hate him. i'm so sick of the stupid dr at work who keeps asking me out. i went from being all for it, to flattered, to just annoyed. he anno0 . . .
according to a new dress policy at work, i must wear scrubs, or a lab coat... i ordered a super cute baby phat lab coat, last monday, and it's not here yet. so, my friend gave me some scrubs t0 . . .
i should have posted these pics a month ago, but here they are... 0908/DSCN24170928.jpg 0908/DSCN24000928.jpg 0908/DSCN24060928.jpg 0908/DSCN24270928.jpg 0908/DSCN24530928.jpg 0908/DSC0 . . .
but don't really. i am way too popular on the internet. if you google my name you will find all sorts of silly photos of me, and then some not very appropriate ones. they can't confirm it� . . .
sometimes it seems like this world is so messed up, it's gonna just blow up or be blown up real soon. either that or the second great depression, or some sort of monster plague is headed our0 . . .
last night i was at my aunt's for a barbeque. i made the mistake of bringing up politics. boy did i get an ass whooping. i said i thought sarah palin's family seemed trashy. at a table of0 . . .
happy birthday granny. i miss you so much!! 0908/DSC001420920.jpg 0908/DSCN18380920.jpg 0908/DSCN18370920.jpg 0908/DSCN17060920.jpg0 . . .
i'm taking a children's literature class, and while the professor is really annoying and one of those too happy people, i enjoy the reading assignments. i just finished, "the daydrea0 . . .
ok. so when e:hodown was here, she's on hey lappy, which is the same as mine. i prefer a streamlined look when there are other laptop users around. the momforce is stuck in laptop land circa 8 ye0 . . .
working at a hospital is many things, and even on the borings days, really weird crap happens. only in az would you find a baby lizzo running down the hall. i caught it in a cup and set it free. ev0 . . .
is up for sale. i read it on perez yesterday. apparently it was part of the evidence from that big molestation trial. and they are in the original evidence bag and everything. and they are unwashed0 . . .
ever since e:hodown left, i've been hit by this awful wave of depression. i get down sometimes, but this is really rare. all i want to do is sleep. or go to target. as i just told e:hodown. 0 . . .
that i could be so stressed that i am making myself sick???? seriously, i have no clue what i could be allergic to. for the past day two days. my body is attacking me. not just hives but a 0 . . .
right before my grandma died, i had an awful case of hives. i took everything from steroids to benadryl, and even soaked in oatmeal baths. now they are back an even worse than the last time. i am c0 . . .
to start i really like, target, pronounced as if it were a french store. i think if i had to choose only one place to shop- i could really get by there. plus it is one of the only places to shop in fo0 . . .
0808/DSCN05790828.jpg i love you! and wish i could be there to get cracktivated with you! you are such an important part of my life and an amazing friend!0 . . .
i have now added a new category to my blogs. deafness. sometimes i forget about it, because i deal with it everyday. but i came home from school today just wanting to cry. when you can� . . .
so, when i was in blo, i went to america's best contacts and eyeglasses to replace my ghetto glasses with some nice new non-scratched ones. i was really happy with the prices and selection. i 0 . . .
my friend thinks the guy im seeing is a jerk, and she told me yesterday i shouldnt see him anymore. it was kinda like she was saying, if you see him, i dont really wanna be your friend. she said a 0 . . .
the basketball player invited me to his celeb pool party. my friend and i were super pumped. it was supposed to be last night but they changed it to during the day and my boss let me leave work early 0 . . .
so e:mike brought over this giant bag of candy to e:pauls on thursday night. what a glorious thing!!! i don't have any friends here, or anywhere else for that matter that are amazing enough to ju0 . . .
i think i said i was gonna hang out with so many people while i was here in blo, but come to find out, i dont really feel like seeing much of anyone. i am gonna miss tina so much, maybe thats why. 0 . . .
i woke up thinking, dang its hot and humid up in this !@#$%! our ac is broken for the second time this summer. im pretty sure it cost upwards of 2500 to have it fixed just two weeks ago, not even0 . . .
i decided to come home from an 11 hr workday and highlight my hair. i ended up looking like vitamin c, but not in a cute way like e:hodown . more like i tried to highlight my hair at home with drug0 . . .
i am so tired! ive been working since 830 this morning. i worked at the hospital and then left to come here and work at my other job. i am not sure sure what time the parents will be home, but hope0 . . .
i will be in tha dyrty buff.... aug 8th-15th. that's less than two weeks from now.... :O)0 . . .
one giant leap for me being on time... i bought alarm clock today... i am officially becoming a responsible adult. really. i get up for work everyday at 630. i floss- even though i hate it.0 . . .
so i had this awful tonsilitis. and i had it while i was still w/o ac/ kinda homeless and had to work 12 hrs everyday. well, the meds i took gave my major stomach issues. i was reduced to eating...0 . . .
so, still no ac. day 19. i want to sleep in my bed. 19 days of not sleeping in my bed has resulted in several strained back muscles. for real my back is messed up. i also got tonsilitis over the we0 . . .
of no ac at home. 10 more days to go. poor mom, its either 4000 to fix it now or 1500 to wait for a part to come in. i miss you comfy pillow top mattress!!!! at least my auntie lives so clos0 . . .
1 week of no ac at home. i am an official refugee from the heat. fu-gee la la la. the guest bedroom at my aunt's is still hot. and the bedd feel like there is a slab of rock in them. they a0 . . .
umm our air conditioner is broken. luckily i was out and didnt sleep at home last night, but now i am here, and it's hot as hell in this biznatch. someone needs to come fix this now!!!!!!!!!!!0 . . .
not shopping for love. i love fergie, and the song she did for the SATC movie. <object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.yo0 . . .
so i went to see death cab last night...amazing. they are a great live show, the songs sounds better than on the cd. so, security was crazy and everyone got the pat down. girls were patted down by 0 . . .
im going to a concert tonight!!!! i think the last real concert i went to was lil bow wow, when he was still little, back in the day in blo. don't ask. e:hodown had the concert hookup, sorta0 . . .
my ipod decided to break. it was a sad ipod. 0608/Sadipod0617.png i made an appointment at the genius bar, and away we went in hopes of fixing my poor little sad ipod. so cute, even when sad. 0 . . .
e:hodown says not to go, e:paul says it's ok. i want to go, but i don't think it is right. here's the story: there's this travel nurse who was working under contact with t0 . . .
this lady my friend works with hired this hitman to kill her boyfriend, but the hitman ended up being an undercover cop. so, she was arrested for attempted murder. i guess she was very normal se0 . . .
ok, so i have really been thinking about a lot of things lately. i don't know if this is good or bad. it's just that i feel like i am at this strange point, where i can just totally move 0 . . .
i was reading the news at work yesterday. our census is so low at the hospital, and so things have been really slow, leaving me hours of sitting idly. anyway, the price of gas in france is 11 or 120 . . .
or so says e:hdown. she says i've become a nice young woman, or something like that. and that our grandma would be proud. all i have to say is wow. this is coming from the person who does not 0 . . .
e:tina was in a bad car accident with her boyfriend. she is ok, but he is in rough shape. so, just say a little prayer, whoever it is you pray to, and even if you don't pray, just send positive0 . . .
aka, me. but i'm not really a pimp so. ok, when i finally have the time to blog, i get lazy. i have decided to post my ten wishes for this summer, ya'll feel free to post yours as wel0 . . .
um, i worked thirteen hours today. and then i ran some errands, and then i ended up here, in my room. my suitcase is always overweight. i hate going places and not having access to my complete ward0 . . .
last night i went on a date. he was like 45 minutes. but he called to tell me, so i wouldn't leave yet and sit there and wait. i think he is somewhat racist, but denied it when i called him0 . . .
i really can't even describe how hot i think she is. her clothes, her makeup, her hair, the hot bod. i am in awe. 0508/Rihanna08Big0502.jpg0 . . .
i am scarred for life. and scared for life as well. i found a scorp in my bathtub this morning. at quarter to 6. not really awake, but that did the trick. i was peeing and there it was. than0 . . .
sometimes we get lame projects in class. so, i made this video, and i had to remake it. i think it turned out pretty nice. it made my mom cry. she's sappy. but it makes me cry too. i lo0 . . .
it looks like my wish may be granted. i am really hoping that the job with the hospital comes through. it would mean full-time with benefits, if i want, or i can stay on as pool and keep the higher pa0 . . .
i really feel passionate about helping people; special needs children in particular. but honestly, it has gotten to the point where i can't really do my job. i am trying to help this little gi0 . . .
people are being shady this week. i'm always shady, but when it comes to setting a time and date, i commit. 1.) i had a date, but he didn't pick up when i called him after work. i gave hi0 . . .
i drank last night. but only two shots and a beer. omg a beer!!! i think it's ok though, i hiked 4 miles, four time this week. that's 16 miles. i didn't hike this morning. i went 0 . . .
i am going to nc for my cousin's wedding mid may. i haven't been there since i was 16. i haven't swam in the ocean since then. i also have an excuse to buy a perty new dress!0 . . .
so i am now fitness obsessed. i am wondering, what is my calorie intake supposed to be. i read that you shouldn't go under 1200 a day. that's about where i am at, with like 3.6 miles hike0 . . .
i was just looking back at e:paul's old journals. it makes me miss the old days. and also not miss the old days, due to the shitty condition of my life. the only part of my life that could 0 . . .
im really sick of this whole wildflower, prettiness bloom that has hit the phoenix area. while the hills are alive with the sound of pollen, my head is alive with the sound of misery. im pretty sur0 . . .
so, i haven't blogged in a while. im preoccupied with life or something i guess. i ditched the mormon, the way he spoke to me was not ok. plus, im prtty sure that he thinks women are here to s0 . . .
i took this last year. i think it's a great shot, enjoy the festivities ya'll! 0308/DSCN08990316.jpg0 . . .
where everybody knows your name. and they're always glad you came. you wanna be where you can see, your troubles are all the same. this pretty much sums up how i feel right now. what i would g0 . . .
and i get into the hospital today, and my manager and the CEO pull me in to their office to have a talk. i'm thinking, "why are you bothering to ask me about my grandma, when you are about t0 . . .
nothing beats a sunny 85 degree day before march has even begun... i think the sun is getting to me. maybe not though because i actually spend very little time in it, but a good amount outside,0 . . .
I keep wanting to post, and then sometimes do, but always end up deleting it. My trip to buffalo was very short, but very sweet. Almost regretted coming for such a short time, but I had a ton of fu0 . . .
seriously. why can't there be better technology, so cars are wya fast, and people can just go wherever in their cars. oh wait, you can just go wherever, if you are super rich and have a jet. c0 . . .
i don't want to view life as a series of disappointments, but sometimes it just seems that way. funny how some things fall at exactly the right moment. i know this trip to buffalo will be insa0 . . .
i currently like delicious looking men who wear nice clothes and shoes, and take me to swanky wine bars and talk about education. i also like new dresses and shoes. i love my car. i a0 . . .
will ferrell is the answer. he really is. why can't he be my friend in real life? it could be worse. at least im making like 20 bucks an hour to sit here and do nothing. it could be w0 . . .
omg! ok. i am working at the hospital today, and my manger just told me that my crush is working today in the ICU. i have no reason to go to the ICU, but to admire his fine man self. i am lo0 . . .
i feel like i never post anymore. not that i don't post, just not as much. anyway, i'm so busy, by the time i get home, it's all i can do to wash my face and brush my teeth. since i 0 . . .
but seriously, is there anyone out there that thinks the superbowl is a waste of time? i do. and people think im crazy. i dont get it, maybe its just another guy thing. so glad im not0 . . .
that one day everyone will love things like, "my so-called life", and the fact that it is broadcast on abc.com, as much as they love the lame-ass superbowl. really people, get over it0 . . .
i have decided i cannot come back to blo until global warming really settles in. its about 45 here now and blustery, and i am dying. i'm dying. i cannot take the cold. brrrrrrr. it's a0 . . .
of some sort of neurological disorder has settled into my brain. seriously. i am incapable of going even one day without losing something important. a bank card, an address, my phone, some cute a0 . . .
or anyone who knows really. is it true you aren't supposed to drink alcohol while taking antibiotics? i went to the doc the other day, and it turns out i have a nasty sinus infection. i am tak0 . . .
this seems to be the current theme for my life. school is going really well this semester, minus the fact that i didn't make it today. i have succumbed to my mystery illness and made an appoin0 . . .
they drilled the fuck out of my mouth today, and im so numb i cant move the right side of my face. i also cant eat. my dinner was a jamba juice. not my ideal. i dont like skipping meals. i a0 . . .
so, at my one job, the hospital we are still running on windows '00. does this seem off to anyone else? until recently, my technology was behind. but this is just so fucking bad. the comput0 . . .
and git er done! ima be in the blo, jan 31st! partay! i need to hike my ass off the next two weeks, and spend like no money, except paying off my damn car.... cuz, we gonna p0 . . .
i bought a shirt/dress for 1.50 today. dress or shirt depending how slutty you are feeling. i also bought shoes, but they were like $17, so not as cheap. but a good brand and very chic. 0 . . .
i only wanted to name this journal that, because i have that song by keane in my head. i forgot about them, but i really like that band. i am always looking for good hiking music. i am currently much 0 . . .
i feel like the world's biggest loser right now. right now, i am reminded of the death cab song, which goes, "so this is the new year and i don't feel any different..." exc0 . . .
this is jessica. sarah is playing drunk haircut with me. im kinda scared. 0 . . .
so, i have been posting much less lately, as things here have been somewhat out of control... unfortunately, this is not due to my drunken exploits or slutty encounters. oh no, i just have the l0 . . .
umm, i get to see my sister in like 9 hours, and i am so excited! i haven't seen her since august which is way too long. pretty much, if my life were myspacey, she wouldn't be top 8 alway0 . . .
britney's little sister is preg. just when you think that family couldn't get any trashier, they take it to the next level. she is 16, and the star on a nickelodeon show. seriously. she w0 . . .
so, i have successfully completed another semester of school! hooray. my stick-with-it-ness seems to be improving. the whole special ed thing really excites me, since i practically already am a spe0 . . .
some call you e:hodown, others call you a variety of other names: jhova jho ho jess jessica jhizzo grand puba jessy jessy messy boobers i call you sister! and, i love you, i love you, i0 . . .
xmas tree(cactus), is my dear dear little old granny. she is really really sick. she cant come home from hospice. she hasnt been doing so well. i am not ready to say goodbye. i love her so much,0 . . .
i sent my sister my nano today, she is without ipod, which in nyc is a sad sad state of affairs. i cant imagine the hours of train and travel with no soundtrack for your day. i finally have a decent c0 . . .
web design confuses me, and therefore makes me angry. in my life, will i try every possible thing and hate it? really, i don't think the whole web design thing is for me. another career0 . . .
what should i name my website?????? sarahannho.com? i wanted shusho. com but its taken. fuckers. what do you all think???? lilho.com is taken too. ugh. i want it to be cute and 0 . . .
i need a new car. not as in, i want one, or im thinking my car sucks. i need a new one. one that doesnt break down everyday. one that doesnt leave me stranded in random places in this sprawl0 . . .
so, i had this date the other night, with possibly the cheapest guy ever. he is kinda cute, but really annoying, and selfish seeming. however, hes giving me all these programs i need, that are real0 . . .
my mind is flooded with so many things, that i feel like i need a newer/bigger hard drive, and more RAM. i officially hate my job at the hospital, and quitting it would mean more time for other ven0 . . .
somebody called me today from a restrcited number and left a voicemail of a woman having an orgasm. i get restricted calls a lot, and random text messages. who ever is doing this is gross. it lo0 . . .
last night i baked an apple pie. i made the crust from scratch, because us hos dont like to do things half assed. actually i do like doing things half assed, but not when it comes to cooking. here 0 . . .
make a lemondrop! or a screwdriver. im le tired. my car broke down a bunch of times this week, luckily, i was able to restart it each time. except for tonight after work. i then sat in 0 . . .
and feed it to the cats. i hate cats, and i want them all dead. like e:paul, i am allergic to everything and everyone. what am i allergic to the most? CATS. i hate them. i am having asthma0 . . .
e:paul,42128 and i had a lovely video chat this evening. we got to talk about...sex. and how many partners we have each had... without further ado, the list: didnt start until college: P R0 . . .
instead of complaining about random crap, lets emphasize the good. so not me, but im trying. i would like to declare today, official hugs and drugs day! so, get your drugs, and get your hugs, and s0 . . .
PB loco that is. i was stuck all day with the mom. it was taxing. you know how babies like shiny things? yea, shes kinda like that. so imagine going to multiple furniture stores, and then 0 . . .
i just went to see Dan In Real Life, with Steve Carrell. I have never in my life laughed so hard. I actually thought my cousin and I were going to have to leave because our laughter was disruptive. 0 . . .
and, to clear it up, when i said i didn't know about marriage; i wan not including the big party and diamonds part! because, i am all about: huge parties. diamonds. fancy dr0 . . .
so, i love my one job, i really do. i love kids. they a;ways have such a interesting take on everything, and its so great to see them do so many things for the first time and watch their minds grow. p0 . . .
oh boy. where to start! so, i somehow signed myself up for about 70 hrs of work this week, plus school. i think i have work issues. anyway, the car will be completely fixed soon. and then i co0 . . .
so, even though my birthday was three weeks ago, i went out on saturday, with my momma, her bf, my aunt and uncle. since, all hopes of my social life out here have abandoned for practical and 0 . . .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ETfNxDVlpQ i tried to just post the video, but that option has been disabled...anyway e:mikey , i miss you so! and since we both love mary j, and i never e0 . . .
This phase of my life, i'd like to call, "get the hell out". so, i am going to apply for my passport friday. 97 freaking dollars! ok, but it will be so worth it! and, in the 0 . . .
who has it, should i get it? is it worth it? tell me people, tell me! 1007/Macosleopard1030.jpg0 . . .
to say. havent blogged in a while, but it could be cause my life is so damn boring these days. work. school. sleep. i feel like there will be something good soon. or i0 . . .
we should get married, indeed. we just need to check the prenuptials, then we are all set. i dont consider myself the tragic hero, more likely a picky, independent, being-passionate-about-his-music sp0 . . .
i know, i know, im like three years behind the loop. but, if you are too, and you havent read this, you need too! now! it blows my mind. and, i of course give credit to e:hodown, who suggested i us0 . . .
10/24/07 18:44@72.208.66.117 Guest wrote: Have anybody lately told you that you are disrespectful, inconsiderate, immature, fat selfish whore? wow. no, actually, nobody has told me that late0 . . .
i dont know what is wrong with me. cant focus. cant sit still. cant stay awake. cant sleep. sleep too much. definitely eat way too much. stop eating everything. and STOP eating 70%0 . . .
apparently its still bday celebration time! and i am ok with that. friends bought me this sweet new vodka. vodka plus caffeine and shit makes for a crazy hyped up e:lilho that cant sleep. the insan0 . . .
so, all of you more experienced e:strippers, give me some help here! here is my situation: i have the opportunity to move out. to a nice apartment in a nice area, with two people i know i will g0 . . .
check it out. e:southernyankee, e:paul, e:terry, and i! woot! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ekTTJPaNJxE0 . . .
why are there balloons still on this thing? ok, my post trip depression needs to go away. i am displaying some not so good signs: 1. need for sleep all the time. i shouldn't be so tired.0 . . .
i think i have had a huge issue with this for a long time. i think since i was able to understand what saying goodbye means. being back in blo made me realize what amazing people i left behind, and0 . . .
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what happens when your emergency brake is not fully engaged? you go to check your mail, and you car rolls backwards down the hills into another car. like screaming out, "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!&q0 . . .
so, im talking to my friend in blo. hes saying, "life's crazy right now, blah, blah, blah." i thinking, alright the usual. then... he says, "im gonna be a daddy." W0 . . .
i was supposed to stay home and sleep. didnt happen. i am tired. people get all sorts of crazy when drunk, and start fights. best time to start a fight. when your brain is mush, and you are being0 . . .
so, i went out tonight. that's all i really have to say about that. these stays, staying in is so much more appealing, and so wrong for me! what is a ho, without the madness? i think i 0 . . .
ok, i did my attempt at a wordy post. but it just wasn't me, ya know? i am done with boys who think they can just get it whenever. ok? sorry, but if you want to hang out with me, give me so0 . . .
need a day off. please god, just one? i am tired, but its not like i could ever sleep in anyways. the sun is so bright and intense, by 830 i have to get outa bed. i start to feel like a warming0 . . .
i only have 3/4 of my life left to do something with "it". i've not done anything yet. i HAVE to do something. i feel like i haven't done anything. wait, i take that back.0 . . .
i want to create a slideshow of images, for a speech i am presenting. which program should i use???? it wont include any words, just images........ but not photos i have taken, art slides..... wh0 . . .
i have a dress obsession, and its becoming really no good, but sooo sossoo, good. ok, i just got there two alice temperley for target dresses, on my trip to target that was really only to stock up on 0 . . .
so, i had to work my other job this morning, the nonhospital job, and then i stopped in the hospital because this woman said she had a dress fro me. and you know me, when i hear the word "dress&q0 . . .
big girl, you are beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mdbBSnRxOmE0 . . .
im too tired and i probably wont care tommorow. anyway...one of the e:pmt can you call me soon????? you are impossible to get ahold of, and i fear you have replaced me. anyway, i need to solidif0 . . .
i have that "sick" feeling. where everything just hurts, and all i want to do is sleep. i thought that i was just feeling down lately, but it turns out, all this excessive sleeping must mean0 . . .
my car broke down. last wed. i got it fixed. it broke down again. today. wtf? ummm, car, i treated you well. i got you towed and fixed and all clean and pretty. i got an itrip, and i gave yo0 . . .
why, you ask??? well, this weekend has just been great. alot of family time- some charades, my all time fav game. and time spent with cute little cousins, spoiling them and whatnot. for the ti0 . . .
e:brit there are photos of you looking lovely on your grad day in here, ill email them as well. awww, makes me so excited to see all you peaches soon! these were photos from my last blo adventures!!!!0 . . .
lisa, not sure which lisa wrote to me.... e:lisa ? anyway, im in arizona. woot. 0 . . .
no really. i think i might fail this class. intro to oracle sql+. seriously. and what makes it that much worse is that there is no other section of the course that i can switch to- thus i am stuck her0 . . .
since im too lazy to actually go through and comment on each photo, this would be a short summary of my life february though present. i had some other photos that were amusing as well, but maybe a wee0 . . .
i cant to wait to come to blo. so paul and i can talk computer. and to party of course. but i feel that paul can be my computer mentor and really show me lots of cool stuff! im getting a littl0 . . .
thats right peaches! why??? ive lost at least 15 lbs and counting... ive partied my ass of lat night, and wont get into the details, but it was crazy mofo of a night, and ive paid today 0 . . .
i know e:southernyankee posted a similar thing the other day, but this is funny too. and i digress easily..... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=areyUfCNFxY0 . . .
i know e:southernyankee posted a similar thing the other day, but this is funny too. and i digress easily..... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=areyUfCNFxY0 . . .
so, i must be a really huge asshole. i wasnt even supposed to work sunday, but now i have to work both jobs, and then hopefully go to a party. however, i am supposed to do a shitload of schoolwork,0 . . .
im thinking this weekend is gonna rock... hopefully starting with tonight. minus the fact that i pulled the shit out of meck somehow last night while sleeping. woke up at 430 wincing in p0 . . .
e:paul and i had a video chat this evening, soooooooo much freaking fun. i am in love.... not with a stripper, but this macbook. so intensely in love!!!!!! oh, and i met a cute new boy. and hes0 . . .
cant i get my new lappy connected to the intynet at home? after a million hours on the phone no one can help. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!0 . . .
i miss you alot, but im really really busy, so i dont have time to cry about it. but if i had time, i think i definitely would. what can i say about you? you have been such a great friend to me, 0 . . .
i ordered my new laptop today. i also ordered a new ipod. and what happens??? anfter the order supposedly went through??? i get an email saying it didnt go through. however, apple has charge0 . . .
and my sis is here. yay! and i can finally buy a bootyful new laptop! and i have a car that works, and two jobs. and some money to spare. i have a date next week. i think. with a hot man. 0 . . .
sometimes your heart just breaks for other people. and you just wish that it was you going through it instead of them- because you worry that they wont be strong enough. a hug would be great right 0 . . .
not even neccessarily when i get my monthly dues, but i always have a few days out of the month, where i feel like a psycho overemotional person. dont think ive cried since ive been here, so maybe tha0 . . .
im going out tonight with this girl i met the other day. shes kinda crazy, but seems really fun. we are going to this punk rock bar, in tempe. what to wear???? must look hot... not sure if i wan0 . . .
or i just went water skiing/tubing. fucked up arm. all black and blue. bump on my leg. the rest of my body is mush and it take much effort to stand let alone walk. i am proud of myself thou0 . . .
im still getting paid by my job in blo????? they just deposited 250 into my accoint friday. anyway, in not going to question how this happened, but it means that i can do a couple things.... pay 0 . . .
i've been working so much, i dont really have anything interesting to post. working at a hospital in real life is nothing like general hospital. no hot doctors. some scandal, but really not ve0 . . .
weird things happening today: *people are acting in my favor *tried to go to work, but the only way to get there is blocked off. not sure i'll be going anywhere today *apparently i h0 . . .
whenever i go to read someone's journal, especially new people, i like to take a look at their profile, but so many people haventfilled out their profiles. why????? dont you people understand 0 . . .
There is going to be additions to R. Kelly's Trapped In The Closet, released August 21st!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 0707/Trappeddvd0726.jpg Ya'll be ready for some more of that sweet sweet goodn0 . . .
so, do we always go with out gut feeling here, or give people the benefit of the doubt??? i've been used to the former of the two, but recently, i've been feeling very impatient. ok, enou0 . . .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LAphcvZaS8I cartoons just plain suck nowadays. now, david the knome, that was show with some reall substance. and really cute little knome people!!!!! 0 . . .
people??? hello??? i know you are all reading this. well, i have to stop putting so much personal info here. im starting to get kinda paranoid that everywhere in the wolrd reads this thin0 . . .
do NOT sunbath nude!!!!!!!!!!!!! i did, and thought, oh this is a great idea, i will get rid of my tan lines. WRONG!!!! so fucking wrong. you know why???? my ass is now the color of a tomat0 . . .
anyway, i never know what i can and cant say on this damn thing. because everybody knows about it, and then everybody asks about the bumper sticker on my car. i have a stalker. trying to grt ri0 . . .
i seem to forget evey month why i become a complete bitch and pyscho, and eventually i realize that its time for the monthly dues. sorry boys, but its an issue that must be discussed. i start ravis0 . . .
this is the first time since i've been here, that i feel like i might cry. no specific reason, just a lot of things. and for the record, men=douche bags. its always the one you want to call0 . . .
basically, i miss those nights of crazy drunkeness. i want to get super wasted this weekend, and dance, and wear a pretty dress. things are all go for work, and it looks like i will be getting a se0 . . .
how could i be "racist" against white men???? i've dated mostly white men. ok, i made the mistake of calling wihte men "whiteys", it was supposed to be funny. the post was 0 . . .
so, my mom has some real issues with me dating a black guy. i dont really know what its all about, but it really upsets me. especially since this guy i like is black, and she is being all weird about 0 . . .
http://youtube.com/watch?v=tEZEosWNWso0 . . .
basically craigslist is a hot spot for losers and, well, im not interested in anybody there. but boy, there sure do like me. anyways, i think there is this guy who wants to take me out. someone i met 0 . . .
now, im not gonna name names, there would be too many. but, why dont ya'll call me back bitches? you are all worthless assholes. thanx. do we really live in that kind of world now, whe0 . . .
started my job. seems pretty sweet. um, can't drive stick. might very likely kill someone. radio shack tried to charge me $20 for a f'in usb cord for my camera. im buying that shit 0 . . .
so, i have decided that since i have zero friends here, and it ain't gonna happen in a day, i will hike at least three times a week. sunday hike: bad news!!! hiking in the sun in 110 degree we0 . . .
things here are really good so far! i already have a few job interviews lined up, and it seems there are just a million people hiring everywhere. the mom hasn't driven me crazy yet. luckily we0 . . .
cannot wait until, well, i cannot wait until i get to finally sleep! i am still trying to shove random items into my suitcases, and i am beyond exhaustion. i don't even think i have energy to 0 . . .
what to do with all this crap???? well, im throwing 3/4 of my life's possessions away. i can't deal with having this much stuff. clutter. crap. i have that constant sick stomach fe0 . . .
i really want to just leave now, without saying goodbye. this is all getting too hard for me i went for so long with so little drama, and now certain people come back into my life and start 0 . . .
that phrase just doesn't describe me.... BUT IT DOES!!!!!! that's right peaches, i got all a's this semester. i worked my little tuchy off for it too! all those hours spen0 . . .
LOL! e:mrmike i have not laughed that long in forever, thanx! i was at work and bored, so i sent some post-its. i didn't realize i wasn't signed in! i kinda forgot that i sent those0 . . .
the 11 year old boy shot and killed the 9'4" pig somewhere in alabama, or someplace like that. im scared. what a nasty ugly SOB! 0507/Pig0529.jpg0 . . .
rosie and elizabitch go at it again. i kinda wanna scratch that stupid little blonde bitch. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uE_l8QYAWZM0 . . .
it's on friday anD saturdAY!!!!!!!!!!!! 0507/Garage20516.jpg0 . . .
ok, people, you better come!!!! it ain't free, but it's cheap! it;s gonna go down on saturday as well, same times, maybe longer, and earlier as well... THANX TO E:TINA FOR MAKING ME THIS 0 . . .
to all those who care and don't care... I AM LEAVING BY JUNE 20th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! peace out peaches!0 . . .
im so void of any sort of romantic prospects that ive developed a crush that i have never/will never talk to. like the crush i had on my 30 yr old hottie neighbor from age 18-20. in other ne0 . . .
not really sure when it is, but happy brithday e:jenks ! i think it is sooon and/or today???? and paris hilton is going to jail for 45 days. so crazy, never thought i would see the day. she is so0 . . .
i hate complaining on such a nice sunny day. well, actually i don't you see, i have this big issue with my life right now. I HAVE VERY FEW FEMALE FRIENDS!!!! this poses a huge issue for me0 . . .
two months baby!!!! im so excited to move! not that i dont love the blo. ive been thinking about how i really want to see the world, at least before global warming kills us all. i cant wait to liv0 . . .
why did i agree to come and do meds today and tomorrow???? what is wrong with me??? now, i have ruined the weekend. ruined it! i was up at 7 today, and will be up at 630 tomorrow, for goddamn fucking 0 . . .
so, i think i may be obsessed with facebook. oh, the voyeuristic ways of my life. anyway. i get a new message from some random person every couple days. the last guy to message me turns out to be s0 . . .
this is e:tina 's thang, so come to support her! last mintue notice! 0407/Srthesis2007poster0415.jpg0 . . .
ummm, i am donating lots of clothes... but i may try and sell some as well. the move is going tocost me and i have to, ahem, buy a new car. im not leaving until july. i want to be in az for july 4t0 . . .
so, i finally came out of my coma-like state and decided to start packing instead of just staring at the wall... i dont have as much stuff as i thought, but i have way more clothes than i thoug0 . . .
i hope you enjoy this as much as i did W91sqAs-_-g0 . . .
i just ordered new sneakers online last night. im concerned this may be the beginning of something very bad, yet very good.... i think i want at least one more pair, but a diffrent kind of course0 . . .
what's new? i keep running into people i dont want to see. i try to avoid them and then they talk to me. better yet, when i am wasted. whatever. seriously, i hate when art professors try to0 . . .
i fell last night and twisted my left ankle. was she drunk you ask? was she stoned? nope, just a huge dumbass. i fell to my knees and rolled over. i lied there for a few minutes. did anyone he0 . . .
when did the world become filled with assholes? probably a long long time ago. and im probabyl one of them. but, when an old old man falls on the trasin tracks dowtown in the pouring rain and at0 . . .
thats a really great song by "bishop allen". check em out ya'll thats some good shit for the ipod. if you missed out, on the parade with me. well, you missed out. i hugged every old 0 . . .
0307/I00010317.jpg Hey e:peeps , let's continue the celebration, and all meet up at e:strip headquarters on Sunday before the parade! To give us time to get downtown and pregame, let's 0 . . .
umm, ill be there. reason enough! but really, i rarely get the chance to socialize anymore, and it would be great to see you all! hope to see you! ps. spring is so close, i can smell it! and w0 . . .
whatever dumbass tells you that art classes are an easy "A" is wrong. i now have to re-do a million projects for tomorrow, because my professor apparently grades my pieces way tougher, s0 . . .
i feel totally fine being alone. i dont feel like i need anything or anyone. ok, maybe i totally need my ipod! and lipgloss of course. i'm actually so ok, that i've pretty much lost 0 . . .
ok, its almost os ridiculous, so i may just laugh. or sit and paint and listen to emo music... the 15 hour shift begins... and only a few arent going to know what i am talking about. so ju8st in0 . . .
so, living by yourself is a bitch. its expensive, nobody has dinner for you when you get home, and its expensive. i have decided to cut back in anticipation of said move, and the fact that i NEED0 . . .
yesterday. worked my ass off in class. fabric printing is a bitch, and the work load never seems to end. then, i ran some errands, went home, ate dinner, and then went to the gym. after the gym i d0 . . .
he makes me lol everday day! 0207/Toothyjake50228.jpg0 . . .
i have an online crush. i know, i know. but it's fun, and who knows... let me have my fun, i haven't had ANY in a long long time. goodnight!0 . . .
i have gotten like zero sleep in about four days. three overnight in a row and two doubles. i feel exhausted and wound up at the same time. a few questions: 1. how do we all feel about internet 0 . . .
i have decided that im going to move to Arizona. ive really made up my mind this time, and its not changing. it will be the end of an era, and im really excited to start a whole new life out there. 0 . . .
ummm, remember when he was on "my so-called life" and every teenage girl was in love with him? what happened? 0207/022307Jaredundies0223.jpg 0 . . .
thats right, something to feel good about. im getting a "lifesaver award" from work for saving a client's life using the heimlich. isnt that swell! now, if i could only stop cough0 . . .
this is my theme song for the rest of the year. thanks e:hodown.0 . . .
i got home very late last night. it seems nobody ever wants to drive me to/pick me up from the airport. i do it all the time, but alas, i feel that i always put in way more than i get, from anything o0 . . .
what? i am actually sad. and skocked, and i just dont know what to think. its marilyn monroe #2, with way toom any twists and turns. RIP ANNA. 0207/ANNA0208.jpg0 . . .
i dont feel like going. at all. i have homework to do. two fucking projects due tomorrow. its cold outside, and taking the subway is fun but lots of coldness. my feet were soaked by the time i got 0 . . .
69 confession questions 1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be? somebody i love, or somebody fun. 2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart? always 3. In a social0 . . .
i now have to literally force myself out of the house. for one of four things: school work food entertainment *i wish the coldness to end. wish it was more like this... 020 . . .
i locked my keys in my car. this is the third time and less than three months. i have lost way too many brain cells, or just wasnt born w/common sense. either way: *not only were the keys in 0 . . .
on facebook, i attract a new black man everyday. nothing wrong with that. i like the dark chocolate. im pretty much open to any race. however, is it because i appear to be hispanico? do i have 0 . . .
i thought class was gonna rock today. turns out, there is some issue with the ta not getting paid, so our dyes were not set up, and we could not do much of anything in fabric printing. blah. i keep0 . . .
i could handle the coughing, the sore throat and tiredness. i cant handle the earache i woke up with this morning. the pain is unbearable, and now i won't be able to go to class, which i can0 . . .
i think this qoute that one of my professor's gave me, is quite true: "You are completely responsible for the choices you make. If you make bad chioices, bad things will happen, sooner or0 . . .
im not a hater, just opinionated and somewhat bitchy. if you have an issue, take it up with the universe. sorry im not spriritual enough... one love, sarah 0 . . .
ive been feeling really down lately. lack of sun, lack of exercise. too much partying, and drinking. anyway, i have firmly made the decision to join the gym tomorrow nght. e:enknot will be going to0 . . .
i am going to do it, but i want you all to know. im not fucking happy. to make me wear some slutty ass pajamas, when i have like $1000 worth of lovely new clothing waiting im my closet. instead i w0 . . .
i got home from az today. not exactly @ home... reason being; no heat, no phone, broken pc/ what is there to do? freeze and die. heat and phone taken care of tomorrow. hopefully pc. fri. im 0 . . .
happy to report that i am having a freaking amazing time here in Arizona. its cool because things are so good here, and are going to be even better when i get home, minus the fact that my car is havin0 . . .
i have arrived. im safely at home with my favorite momma ho, and only momma ho. she bought flowers for my room. too cute. basically this vaca is gonna rock, and i will posting pics... i do mis0 . . .
i just may take the e:brit's adivce and go into hiding for a while. im tired, of everything. vacation should be a good time! and im really thinking i just cant take life anymore w/o the sun...0 . . .
so sick of working right now. 60+ hours is too many for me. i get suckered into this shit, thinking it an ok idea, and then by the end of the week, i want to die. i miss my friends, and that thing cal0 . . .
i need to take my car in to get an estimate, anyone know a place that will do that job and not rip me off? in better news... im pretty sure i see the sun! and 8 days til my vaca, sweet!0 . . .
censorship. how annoying. what comes around goes around. good luck. 0 . . .
so, i kid you not whyen i say. i got into a car accident yesterday. i was merging onto the 33- off of humboldt, the place where basically everyone gets into an accident, and the person in front of 0 . . .
im having some people over tonight. not big and awesome like the mansion. call me if you want to stop by... i do have abosolut apeach...mmmmmmm.0 . . .
my computer hates me, and keeps shutting down. cant wait to get paid or just charge a new hard drive to a card. then i can be technologically sound, and post all of these lovely fun pictures. what 0 . . .
jbl sypro speakers... 1206/JBLSPYROBCH1222.jpg ps, best sis ever, why do i ever bother w/men?0 . . .
where did you go last night, we loooked for you forever, but then we just left because we couldn't find you. sorry. did you stumble run home? you are not supposed to do that yuong man!0 . . .
i get to see my sis in a dew days, she is getting me a facial, she is getting me an ipod sound dock w/speakers that look like flowers, my friend nicole is in town, im back in the game, 0 . . .
overtime is just not worth it sometimes, especially after being yelled at for 2 hours, and then returning to work the godamn overnight. seriously. im working 65 hours or something like it this week0 . . .
cant get the song out of my head, or stop singing it in my head/out loud... make it stop.0 . . .
apparently, everybody i work with gets to have some time off. well, not me. im looking at minimum 65 hour work weeks up until the new year. the upside: lots of overtime and holiday pay. the down0 . . .
my sister just called her ex, joshua, "jerkshua". she is so damn funny.0 . . .
keep your friends close and your enemies closer! ill be watching you... you were my first and last true nemisis e:enknot !0 . . .
have you ever recieved a phone call from someone, and they leave a voicemail saying, "hey, it's me." well, this accpetable from a special few: family close friends significant other 0 . . .
its the grossest bar in buffalo, but somehow the most fun as well. how do you explain that? i dont even think ive been in bars in ny that gross. p.s. i got terry home safe. pizza slice and all. 0 . . .
apparently lisa marie presley holds her daughter's hair back for makeout sessions? 1206/thanksmom2407.jpg 0 . . .
let me just say, i had the most most pleasant lovely little thanksgiving of my life. i could have been a). the absence of my psycho family b). overconsumption of wine and delicious food c). l0 . . .
last night @ work, a consumer(those for whom i work with), not a coworker, starting choking on his dinner. the other staff froze, and his face went from red to bright red, to purple. in the haze o0 . . .
i went out last night, which was good for the soul, and has some bonding time with an old friend. its wierd because we dont hang out that much, but, he is a really great person to be around when im go0 . . .
i have to make a decision in the next hour of whether or not to resign statistics. the good news is that it will not take me down to p/t status, and my financial aid will not be affected. i will0 . . .
i have no time for fun, or sleep. i have 60 hr work weeks coming up, in addition to so much school work, and everything else. i kinda feel like im gonna collapse. but at least i get to see my sis s0 . . .
one of the least favoriie days of my life. i have million things to bring home. including this wooden art easel, and a tray of muffins. (dont ask.) i have done no school work, because i can only0 . . .
i havent had much contact with th outside world, and have been drunk for basically five days consecutively, and i feel like im gonna be a huge bitch when i get back to b-lo. but, i have gifts for my h0 . . .
in vegas, we stayed at the newest, most luxurious hotel ever. probably will be the nicest hotel of my life. flat screen tvs, one in the bathroom, curtains that open with the touch of a button. a windo0 . . .
but i feel really guilty about leaving school and work behind. right now, im doing really well, and im hoping this week doesnt fuck it all up. but, how do you write papers and the like, when you ar0 . . .
there was some sort of party happening at my old house, 27 mang, and there were many e:peeps in tow. here's the ones i remember: e:me , e:hodown , e:paul , e:matthew , e:terry , e:mike , e:jason , e:0 . . .
think i have signed up for way too much, and im looking for a break. las vegas anyone?0 . . .
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when is your bday? please everyone leave a comment! im trying to find out the % of people who have the same bday.0 . . .
"In 2000 Donald Rumsfeld allowed the sale of a Nuclear Reactor to North Korea. North Korea's arsenol has multiplied 400 times since the sale. Thanks so much Rummy!"-usweekly.com "0 . . .
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here in buffalo. and its kinda bringing me down. i think i shall see e:tina today, as she always brightens my day. i still need to git her bday gift, and im scared to get anything, because she has 0 . . .
this woman in the finals of project runway said, "i want women to realize fashion will make you life better." or some shit like that. ok. i love fashion, but this bitch is delusional. sti0 . . .
ok, so, anyway. is the world ending or what? it seems like the fucking god damn storm has just turned into this wet dreary awfulness. FALL, WHERE ARE YOU???? i would like to express my anger at0 . . .
it ended up being very a very quiet but pleasant day. e:thesimeon and i went out for b-fast and then to spot to study. after figuring we would have no school, we headed to the oh-so crowded smelleria 0 . . .
will combine for a most unfavorite day of mine. i just spent two hours being thuroughtly confused by three different tutors in the math lab. arent these people supposed to know this stuff. so, an o0 . . .
waking up to rain, and having unpleasant dreams is not the best. im missing my mom alot. and i need a huggle. thats a huddle of hugs. so much work to do...0 . . .
anyway. my car is depressed and refuses to pass inspetion. what shall i do. speak softly to it, and hope that it feels better soon. i ordered netflix and will be receiving my first order on monday.0 . . .
is everyone having PMS, or a case of PMT? LOL. drama. hey, lets all just drink and be merry. besides, if there is no party. terry cant be my lion, as i am his tamer. people, come on.0 . . .
apparently i didnt get any of my voicemail this week. i suddenly had 15 new messages today. aobut half were from my mother. i miss her. the more the holidays near, the more i hope i dont spend them0 . . .
until i bask in the artificial gloriousness that is las vegas.0 . . .
i have decided on bowling a voelker's, or however the hell you spell it. Sat the 14th, 930 pm. be there, come one come all. pizza, beer, bowling, spankings. ur gonna love it. pauls gonna help me ma0 . . .
it's so confusing, figuring out what to make of this life. do we do what we want, or what we think is right? are we actually able to find what we really want? is it what we want, or what we t0 . . .
a puppy. im so allergic. does anyone know of a kind that is hypallergenic, and little , and cute? ive been thinking about it for a long time, and i think its still a dream, but damnit, i want one. 0 . . .
woohoo. i will actually enjoy three whole days of fun. i worked 10am-11pm yesterday. my weekend sucked. the elmwood village: anyone in buffalo who thinks they have the right to be pretenti0 . . .
i love, my mommy, my sister(if i dont say mom first, i may be struck down by a force of nature, or mother herself, my borther(when he is sane, which is basically never), my silly little boyfriend0 . . .
im so excited! i haven't seen her since easter, i think? anyway, it's the longest we have gone without seeing eachother, kinda sad. my new life consists of only work, school, sleeping and eating. i0 . . .
e:libertad mentioned be braindead. i feel the same. i lready has so much busy work to do, from ecc nontheless. why do they give so much fucking homework? i have to work 40 hrs, commute to work/sch0 . . .
good friends with paris hilton. we parited it up at my ub north penthouse, and went out and got wasted. i then decided to get a tattoo just above my left wrist on the underside of my arm thats says &q0 . . .
wah. everyone seems like they are having a ton of fun. and im missing it all. oh well. i have started my new position and will be starting school as well this week. how fun. i opened a bank a0 . . .
0906/monkey4912.jpg i love you birthday monkey mikey!!!!!!!!!! LOve sarbear0 . . .
e:thesimeon started school this week. i start neek week, as well as my new full benefits full-time job. am i a real adult or what? anyway, on his break from class today, he(nick), suggested we go s0 . . .
haven't been here in a while. feeling somewhat disconnected. i havent seen my sis in a record amount of time and its getting me down big time. i just need a big dose of e:hodown. im sick of working so0 . . .
im so sick of work everyday. its either standing on my feet and cutting nasty people's hair, or sitting through lectures for 7 hrs. 7 days a week. cant wait for july to just be over. and the best0 . . .
my phone finally took its last shit, and on a day when i get about ten calls nonetheless. fuck that. that bitch has to get sent back to az and replaced, since im on my mothers plan and she has to be p0 . . .
that's right. i have food poisoning for the third time this year. is that a record? this shouldnt happen, i dont live in a third world county. anyway, i will spending some quality time with au toil0 . . .
e:thesimeon has moved into the ho brothel for the summer. i must say, im kinda disagreeable to live with. i leave my clothes everywhere, the floor, the bed, the bathroom floor, the chairs, the table. 0 . . .
People: 1. How did you find out about/why did you become of estrip? ***e:paul is a longtime friend, did I have a choice? 2. How "out" are you about having a publicly accessible online0 . . .
my momma and sista totally came through for me. i asked for my moms help. i didnt ask e:hodown, but shes gonna send me a care package. so not neccessary. but totally appreciated. the elder 0 . . .
its true. i actually made more as a nanny. now im cutting hair, making shit, and spending 30 a week on gas. before, i walked to work. i need to buy: shears, and trimmers, which cost about $300 t0 . . .
like anyone cares, but... i hate waiting to eat when im this fucking hungry. p.s. i had no power this morning and some bitch at work made me cry. i got no lunch and no chance to sit down. an0 . . .
bobby bobby, when will you learn. oh well, i still love you. i wonder if whitney put these in a photo album... 0606/bbrownmug15403.jpg 0 . . .
i won't charge much, and i promise to do a geat job! any takers? i could really use the extra cash, really. :O)0 . . .
me and e:thesimeon are back from az. what a lovely vaca, aside from the fact that my youngest uncle nearly died from an acute MI last sunday. it changes your perspective on life. we could do w/o that 0 . . .
where are you in my life? non-existent. lol. anyway. jason knows my neighbor, weird. my neighbor, mike kept saying some guy named "dan" had stopped by and he knows me. it turned out 0 . . .
im a genius. i just figured out, myspace is for losers. t-1 day to vaca. how sweet is that. 0506/az5512.jpg keep it real kids. when i get back i'll be a big time pimp ass hearing mofo.... 0 . . .
my momma is getting me some hearing aids. ill be able to really hear for the first time ever! CRAZY.0 . . .
i would really like to just find a fucking job that works out. all other aspects of my life seem to be in the right place. but the job thing just isn't working out. fuck. at least i c0 . . .
so, i was flingin the dogs, with my coworker mike, and tellin him all bout my blues, and he told me his. hes fun to work with, and easy to talk to, and probably one of the few really awesome straight 0 . . .
to mrdt and all those who think i've been sending out the bad jive... i've had and lost three jobs in three weeks, i have more too worry about than someone i don't agree with on e:strip. i don't0 . . .
today, i got a a new job...again. lol. i know. this is totally redic. but, i shall be an assistant at Kallista for Hair, on elmwood, near breckinridge. i can finally put my license to use. now 0 . . .
the new job, not the hotdog stand. the personal aide position doesn't seem to be the job i was offered. i worked sat and sun, woke at 6 both days, and worked my ass off, for the most damanding, unhapp0 . . .
and that's just how it is. one door closes and a better one opens. looks like i've landed a better job. a much better job, making somwhere between 10 and 13 an hour. and i get benefits and such. aw0 . . .
so, i got fired from the nanny job. only because the people were too fucking chep to pay me 8 bucks an hour. now, i get paid more to run a hotdog cart downdown. thats right. im the newest hotdog sl0 . . .
ill def give you a cut. call me 208 6906!0 . . .
i seem to never have anything of interest to say here anymore. maybe its because im rarely ever around a computer. i really hate my job and my life right now. only because it seems like i am was0 . . .
i didnt post those journals. i never post anything anymore. not that anything i ever posted was so great. .... back to the point. someone told hold of my account and posted that slander fi0 . . .
This is my boyfriend - he is in a band but his music is really cool. If people heard his bands music, he would totally be famous. He is great because he puts up with my stink. 0306/mingerwee0 . . .
Even if i delete that last entry later, it is completely true, no matter what i may say in future entries0 . . .
Today i discovered that i smell really bad. What am I going to do? I am so depressed about this. :( 0 . . .
my boyfriend and i would like to go to pheonix for memorial day weekend, maybe a bit longer, and the fares are redic! does anyone know of a good way/website to find cheap airfare?0 . . .
what if we were all wearing froggie suits? i am actually missing my mom for the first time in a long time. check out her pic in e:pauls journal. hehe. ps. suck it.0 . . .
does anyone here have a truck or suv? i am desperate need, as i dont know of anyone. i need to move a chair, and the tercel just aint gonna cut it. i could make it worth your while. a free hairc0 . . .
so, i decided to stay at my current job. the only reason being, they offered me more money. i don't want to stay,but the money thing ways in way more than anything else, so that's that. i did put 0 . . .
so anyway. i tried to quite my job, but its just not gonna be that easy. argh. the people i currently work for, but am supposed to leave in a week and a half, have now offered me more money to stay0 . . .
its all about taking control. i found a better offer. the next few weeks are going to be so awkward.0 . . .
i am currently a full time nanny. i get paid a mere 6.50/hr and am wondering after a year if i should get a raise, or i should have just started out making more. anyway, whatever the answer is, im 0 . . .
The Tale of the Shme and The Shmu (The Tale, of which this is part two) There once was a shme and a shmu, (The latter is me, the former is you) Always each other's proverbial walking stick, On 0 . . .
Tis the story of two, A shme and a shmu, A shme of who made men swoon, A shmu who was a buffoon, The shme got all the gets, The shmu lost all bets, The shme, trendy-dressed, The shmu was just0 . . .
in thee months. im wondering, is it possible? i dont really want to lose a ton of weight. maybe 5-10 pounds. i just want a nice ass, a flat stomach, and some tone in my arms. my legs are pretty ok, th0 . . .
why did i bother to come here? i have a hearing and yet ive been waiting an hour. boo. waste of my day.0 . . .
while in ny for thanksgiving, i was on the search for the perfect, stylish and warm winter coat. i found it. you can see it in my user pic. my sis had this long black bubble coat that had a broken 0 . . .
who needs a haircut? esp the dudes. anyone? i can do it. ill even come to you. and itll be cheap too. jason, josh, i know you guys are always looking for a good cut. need another job. need two mor0 . . .
i was semi-surprised last night with a trip to HSBC to see Cirque de Soleil! I dont understand how those people do what they do, its insane, and extremly entertaining. after the show i felt so overst0 . . .
can i start drinking now?0 . . .
my honey got me a membership to the bac. in three months i hope to be looking and feeling good. like a hot bitch. i eat, sleep, and drink too much. its time to get my ass up and get motivated. nick ma0 . . .
how unimaginative. when you love someone, you show it everyday. i would be insulted if vday was my most romantic day of the year. so, it doesnt matter if im with someone or not. i believe my man feels0 . . .
havent been here in so long. went to see sis mcsis in ny last weekend. lots of work. lots of drinks, and a little maria. it makes for a great time. and who can reisit h&m? not me. i love my0 . . .
i likey the new strokes cd. can you spread food poisoning? ok, i know you cant, but, there is a sick child at my house and im going to go out and celebrate paul's bday. i feel guilty either way. 0 . . .
maybe the karma police are punishing me, i have food poisining/who knows what the hell it is. again. there were lots of great posts yesterday, who doesnt like a little juice? if were offended, i pay n0 . . .
i dont want to talk about feelings here. the whining is getting pathetic, save it for myspace. i like the fiesty political debates, funny stories, and e:pauls million and one pics a day. oh, and i mad0 . . .
remember when you told me the foam in the ocean is fish pee, and i didnt swim for 5 days? mom was so pissed. anyway, im thinking of making this blog into a homage to you. ur funny and lovely, and who 0 . . .
i was complaining on the way to dinner this evening with e:paul and e:terry. well, its cold, and with forced air, it just makes my hands and skin in gerneal so dry. not like the nice moistness of summ0 . . .
jess left early this morning. back to the city. wah. her last words to me were, "there's coconut encrusted shrimp in the freezer, and mango sauce too!". yum. maybe ill check that out today. 0 . . .
i guess my stomach needed one day of rest, and then back to its old ways. what is wrong with me? plus, another holdiay family crisis... as bobby b would say, "hell to tha hohoho!"0 . . .
i collapsed and my whole body went numb. my family got me in the car and we headed for the hospital, but i started to feel my hands and feet again, so we headed back home. i guess i feel ok now. th0 . . .
just tried to post and i closed the page. fuck. in az for the holidays. ive waited many months for this, and now i have not only a sinus infected, but the flu as well. spent all night with toilet l0 . . .
i had my car washed and cleaned out today. its a beautiful thing. i am sick and tired, and i have too many parties to go to. im not dressed for a party. i dont care. im sick. cant wait to sleep.0 . . .
git ur ass to tha partay! celebrate e:hodowns bday. hostyle.0 . . .
if i get puked on one more time this week, im going to be sick. i wont get into the watery, green nasty ass diapers, or the lingering smell of vomit. oh god.0 . . .
argh. i dont agree w/ a lot that is said here, however, i dont think we should shut people out because of certain conflicting views. let's just chalk it down to a difference of opinion and call it0 . . .
yes, in the fine words of carol king. i feel like ive lost so many friends in the last year. people that i became incredibly close to, who just arent really a part of my life anymore. that sucks0 . . .
we all need hot chocolate, a good book, and someone to snuggle with! mmm...blankies0 . . .
it must not be driven in fear that it might blow up. here we go again. i hope i dont get scorched on the way to the shop!0 . . .
im still at e:pmt's and my damn laundry till isnt dry. 1205/boob1811.jpg this picture was supposed to be with all the others i posted the other day. it might cause some controversy, and a sco0 . . .
started my laundry way too late work early think i need to eat less/no dairy. p.s. i want the world to know how much i hate laundry!0 . . .
I live for today! in the words of reverend run, "do your best and forget the rest. "0 . . .
bathroom wall at welcome to the johnsons. a new york fav. $2 cans of prb. nice. 1205/bar0237.jpg 1205/bright_eyes0237.jpg crappy viewof the stage at the bright eyes show in jersey city. 1205/h0 . . .
im in cell phone hell. p.s. ill explain about this and the pics e:hodown posted later. and that random man is not my boyfriend. lol.0 . . .
harry connick jr is on today. he's sexy and funny. and he has a great voice. go figure. where can i find me a charming man like that?0 . . .
i have to upload some pics, but im too lazy right now. also to lazy to clean my place. waking up for work at 6 doesnt help either. i hope this weekend kicks ass, i miss my friends. but, we'll have 0 . . .
at least i will be the most stylish e:peep when i do return, if they let me on the plane. i guess my story is that i was pickpoccketed, and had some money and my id taken. i cant decide if ny is wh0 . . .
so, i made it to NY, minus the id, without any offers for a ride to the airport, and on little sleep. to all you, and you know who you are, who could've given me a ride, %&*@ you, i'll remember th0 . . .
i need a ride to the airport at 430am. please. anybody. otherwise, its everywoman for herself and i take a cab. call me if you can-20869060 . . .
anyone not going out wed night/not going to be wasted? i need a ride to the airport at 4am. i will love you forever!0 . . .
what a weekend. i was just woken up to the sound of my phone which currently has the most annoying ringtone. argh. i need to just put it back on vibrate. went out last night and did zero drinking. 0 . . .
i lost my keys too. my house keys.0 . . .
the funniest thing i've ever done. ok. so im just gonna give it to you raw, here we go... 1. i lost my license, just a few days before my planned trip to ny for thanksgiving. now, im not going. (wh0 . . .
where are you dude?0 . . .
lets all meet out! im gon post around 5 and let ya'll know when and where.0 . . .
i see e:hodown and my favorite city in just over a week. who needs turkey when you can party like a rock star!0 . . .
5 people e:paul? try 18. i know its karma for missing the last one.0 . . .
party! woo! my house, tonight, 1000 hours. be there. if you arent there, you suck 2527 delaware ave.booyokasha.0 . . .
usually, i end up writing a couple sentences here, due to my lack of time, and or technology. posting from a cell phone can be a bitch. do you ever feel like so much has happened, but really nothin0 . . .
done with school. it feels weird and i wish i had my family here right now. i miss them so much. being lonely sucks. and so does having a broken car... come to the party on sat... more later!0 . . .
just got in my car to meet a friend. turned it on. its shaking. there is something very wrong with it. i have two days of school left, and my car is sick. wahhh, ive been working so hard. who wants0 . . .
my house next saturday. hopefully all those who showed up will bring themselves back and then some... we gotta top it off this time. next week, marks the end of beauty school for me, and the beginning0 . . .
it is ann. and sorry but i wont be at the party, im in toronto, being a good friend. i will be there in spirit. p.s. im having a party soon though, hopefully you will still want to be my fri0 . . .
does anyone else find it really fun to look up people on myspace and laugh? wait, or is this really similar?0 . . .
so, i really dont like cold weather at all. at all. or snow. or rain. what i do like about these winter months is that its just so romantic. everyones looking for someone to cuddle with, and thats 0 . . .
im headed to the akag tonight, afterwards, who knows. i just recieved more bday gifts, so im sill in celebration mode. bring it on boys. http://www.thewallexhibition.org/index.html check it out 0 . . .
lets see here... 1. last night was crazy and fun. as wednesday nights can be when wednesday becomes friday. i had off of school today and work today and tomorrow. how lovely. so, after a night of s0 . . .
so, it is proven. there is life after the party. and what a party it was. my little apartment filled with many drunken high young people, some older, but not any wiser. at least not last night. we 0 . . .
hmmmmmm, just call me if you dont know where i live..... 208-6906. i should not have done that. please, no scary people. ok, im off to do a million and one things!0 . . .
theres this new girl at school, micole, and combo of crazy ghetto humor and loud piercing voice have made me a huge fan. yesterday, she gave me a nickname. spicy lil mcnugget, or lil nugget, or just n0 . . .
you are one years old today! aint you the cutest little nannu there ever was! happy birthday nannu. love, the nanny0 . . .
e:tina n e:southernyankee! we gon party like its yo birthday! ya'll need to shake yo thang and put the e:strip in celebrate!! love you-muah.0 . . .
today i have absolutely nothing to do. i mean, that is, nothing i have to do. what will i do? i can hang out with the dudes. and go see my friend jess and her cute little dog. get the apartment loo0 . . .
PARTY! WHY? e:tina's 21st and my 22nd bday! woooo. WHEN? next fri, the 14th WHERE? so im scared to just put my address down, but email me through the site and i will send you directions... 0 . . .
well, now im really almost done with school and there will be a window of time in hich i have many options. option #1: stay here and work and go back to school. option #2: move to ny and persu0 . . .
theres a new toaster that can poach an egg too! and all in just four minutes. thats great!0 . . .
fri was fun. sat even better. night of dance with peter hook spinning at soundlab. afterwords, a round at the pink and runins with many friends, old and new. today, my throat hurts more than ever, and0 . . .
pics from t-town! getting my friend nicole beaitious! 0905/halfdone1800.jpg and the party is starting, the dance party that is. 0905/dancingbegins1800.jpg 0905/sarahissexy1800.jpg y0 . . .
that scotch SUCKS! and, there IS sex in the champagne room. champagne is amazing:O)0 . . .
waiting for the excitement to start. i feel like i'm on the brink of something great, or at the least, something to make my life a little more, exciting, scandalous... something. perhaps the best 0 . . .
so, i ran away to toronto for the weekend! it was probably one of the best times i have had in a long time. that city is crazy fun and filled with great people. i stayed with my good friend nicole 0 . . .
by the time you read this, i'll be gone. i have run away for the weekend, perhaps, never to return. if i do, i promise to clean my home and do my laundry and go grocery shopping. love, sarah0 . . .
the full moon is tonight? anyway. i cleaned my apartment today, it sparkles with the memory of my love. 0 . . .
there seems to be so many sad things happening in the world right now. and old high school friend's father past away, somewhat suddenly. he's a genuinely good person, and i remember really liking h0 . . .
almost done w/school, sort of. i have hours to make up. going to finish by xmas, go on vaca and come home and go back to school. i shall be in school forever. my life is just not complete w/o a degree0 . . .
my last post made no sense. no more posting from phone!0 . . .
ive been coughing for a week now and from the sore throat i feel alright. i must stay strong. by the way, i wasnt drinking at the party, although i seem to look crazy in every pic, i was sober sister.0 . . .
apparently julie's mom twirls batons, or did. i am speaking of my good friend julie. they couldn't afford the dance classes. screw dance, twirling things is way cooler. went to the art fest today, 0 . . .
happy birthday terry! today must devoted to your total complete happiness. what did you wish for?0 . . .
woke up this morning feeling not sogreat. dont really remember a whole lot from last night. didnt remember the drama with the key situation. sorry e:paul! i was being a crazy lady. too much red wine, 0 . . .
i think my choice of career(for now) is going to give me carpel tunnel. my body is feeeling more and more beat up with each passing day. maybe i just slept wrong, but my shoulders are killing me and u0 . . .
i really dont like it. one bit. i feel so discluded. so dead, when i am there. my mind is not being fed. the chemical are turning my brain into mush. i really need to decide what kind of school 0 . . .
on my way home, my car hydroplaned, and i was about a second away from death. now, i face death again at e:drchlorine's as the mang(his cat) will not stop hissing and following me around. i am hunched0 . . .
i shall post more pics, and it seems to be the new fun thing to do. so nice to look back and say, "hey, i was there, life is fun." so, the first four are off my firend nicoles and i at papa 0 . . .
my friend nicole finally got home from swissyland, and we have done some much needed hanging out. she always has a great outlook on things, and just makes me feel good. the mang is a little less cr0 . . .
i just did pukey. why do i have the most unagreeable stomach? can i just stop with food and eat a little pill supplement each day instead? p.p.s. the mang is being a little clingy.0 . . .
so, here i am at e:drchlorine's, taking care of the man. he seems to be somewhat distraught over the absence of his owner. i would be sad too. david is the best. he set up an account for me on his 0 . . .
these are kids that i watch in crystal beach, ca. they are pretty damn cute, and pretty damn mischievious. im always having to run around after them picking things up and taking dangerous things away 0 . . .
we were both pleased with the outcome. this is e:ladycroft's new do! 0805/timika25019.jpg 0805/timikahair5019.jpg 0 . . .
#1. i got fired from jasmine thai. they were mad that my availability is not what they want it to be. im sorry i have to go to school and work others jobs. why did they hire me? then they made me leav0 . . .
i am becoming part robot. the new schedule is gonna be pretty insane. mon: work9-12 school4-10 tues wed thurs: work10-3 school4-10 fri:work, who knows how long sat0 . . .
just took probably the best walk of my life ever. i like the weather as of late. not too warm, not too cold. school is torture, it may sound ridiculous, but that just what it is. so many rules, sti0 . . .
e:hodown, you know i love them. can you get me a tickey? i would find a wAY THERE! i think the housewarming party is going to be scheduled for september 10th. cant make it to crazy, me nieghbors are k0 . . .
those werent me in the pics i posted last journal. they were a friend from school. my weeks are getting incresingly more boring as there is no one around. e:tina's arrival is much anticipated. my f0 . . .
with e:leetee about the heat. its too damn hot ladies and dolls. it might be better if my place didnt feel like a million degrees all the time, and forget about cooking- forget it. on a better note0 . . .
i need drinks now. feed them to me in a straw. this week is getting to me. thank god today is the last day of it. if you got held at gunpoint and they stole 60 bucks from you and your shoes, w0 . . .
coudlnt light the stove this morn. thought maybe my utilities were never switched over. they were. whats wrong with the stove? must call landlord.... cant we all just get along?0 . . .
I lovey this website! if only i had a pc to keep in touch more often... hey e:paul, there should be a donation section. i will donate free haircuts! p.s. what we all do w/o an e:hodown0 . . .
after four hours in the car, im ready for a partay, like its AMERICA 2005. all you need is some cash, a hot chick and an suv. and if you dont have that. just bring your own beer ok? (in my case,0 . . .
e:hodown had arrived, and she makes everything just a little more fun and crazy. e:paul gets so excited in her presence. last night he was compelled to take my dummy head and make it talk, sending e:h0 . . .
yes. its finally here. a home of my own. mine, mine, mine , mine, mine, mine. i'm not sharing. it's really cute. i'll get pics up when it's up to par. now i just need lots of money for furnitu0 . . .
e:springfaerie, yes, im a little kooky from all of the heat and humidity. its sticky and hot and just uncomfortable. i think at least today it wont be as hot. the mom leaves this afternoon to go0 . . .
my new place smells like cat pee. i hate cats. the next cat i see is going to be shot with a beebee gun. in the head. 0 . . .
that journal entry made me so sad. mostly because i think about moving a lot, and what it would be like. leaving others cities, doesnt seem like it would be the same. buffalo had a way of pulling you 0 . . .
now everybody; mainly my brother, mother and her friend, are concerned that my new place is not ina safe neighborhood. the place is right on delaware right across the street from kelly's corner. i 0 . . .
i have my very own cute little place. now all i need is a job until sep. ahhh. i have talked with, gone to so many salons, and no one wants me yet. i have to make them want me. seriously. im good. 0 . . .
and i dont feel the same.-keen kinda how i feel. im just a little nervous. found a new place. have to get a new job. working in a salon. im nervous. i guess i just hate the idea of rejection, even 0 . . .
something that makes her unable to sit still for more than two minutes. this woman is nutso. i am stuck where she is staying, while she is here, for the day, because i had to take my car in and she go0 . . .
but don't we all? started out with bacon and egg and one e:thesimeon. then ooff to the boys for some cemetary walks and giggles with e:terry. e:matthew was off taking pictures of pretty lady statu0 . . .
just spent the last two nights at crystal beach. i come back thirsty, with headache and strange mystery gash between my eyebrows. it seems to be getting bigger. hmmm. anyway, we jumped off the old 0 . . .
i called the director of my program to see about getting a job and she wont help me. ok. well, she wont even consider helping me, she says, because of my attendance. the whole attendance policy is 0 . . .
its funny how my mother insists i get up early and get some exercise, and then im up before her. i don like sleeping in other people's houses/beds, its just no fun. the beds here are all hard and stuf0 . . .
bills to pay. dues to pay. missing everyone. feeling kinda lonely. i wish i had a friend here. i had a dream about my old house last night, about my old life. I am sick of taking cold showers.0 . . .
sometimes my sisters life seems a bit more fab than mine. ps. nice userpic hodown0 . . .
is taking over my life.0 . . .
since everything I've eaten in the last day just doesn't agree with me. :O( I'm not sure if it is a bug or a food allergy, but i just don't want to throw up again. unpleasantness. no sleepies. 0 . . .
this site is many things, but it is not a soft core porn site. we do not tell steamy stories involving descriptions of the way our nether regions are feeling. lets keep it pg-13 kids.0 . . .
the new colors. lots of drama this week, but as mary j blige says, "no more drama, no more tears".haha. yays for weekends. i need to find a job for summer, hmmmm. mcdonalds or bk? i wou0 . . .
getting flak @ school is not fun. oh well too long to get into. posting from phone! im hot n sneezy, thats hot. need sleep. good day!0 . . .
now i am back in the real world, i.e., buffalo. strict schedule, not much fun, and missing my bestest sister. awww. i wish i had a laptop, then i could at least have some pc happiness. ah well, why is0 . . .
e:tina, e:southernyankee, e:hodown, e:thesimeon and myself were all in new york this weekend and got togetha for a litle bar-b-q celebration. mmm. we had sangria and veggies and steaks and chickens. w0 . . .
when do pmt get back from vaca? never? i missy them. stickboy is back! welcome. my sister was offered a marriage, so wierd. at least she would get as many falafel sammies and pistachio treats as0 . . .
why don't i ever get to stay in the mansion when you are gone? mike, you have it made. i guess you are brothers, so you get frist dibs. anyway, who is going to trust a ho?0 . . .
i hate LOUD music. i hate hearing it everyday. i hate subwoofers, and most of all, i hate two of my roommates. maybe strongly dislike is a better word. its ok, a good dinner, a yarn lama, and a0 . . .
so, what is going on with all of you estrippers? you're being a bunch of whiners. "shmeh", says i. shmeh is a word to describe all things whiny, clingy, blah, and awful. the word of the w0 . . .
a memeber of the site is preggy, not me of course. yay! e:mike, you are so funny. thinking you are getting pulled over, but you are really blocking a funeral procession. im laughing as i type. 0 . . .
i spent the better part of the morning and afternoon puking my brains out. tina as well, and i daresay, she was worse than me. we shared a few intimate hours in and out of the bathroom, making sure th0 . . .
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i lived a whole week without any elcetricity. my roommates are invalids and pyschos, minus flacidness. i ordered my glasses over two weeks ago and they still aren't coming? argh. im going0 . . .
i just got to her room, and shes not here. hmmm. hey keys are here. her ub card is here. her phone is here. i am here. where's tina? p.s. maybe they are as dumb as i think they are. otherwise 0 . . .
and im really feeling hate for my roommates. how could they let the bill go unpaid for so long. they each owe about $150, which i know none of them have. hmmmmm. how irresponsible. i know i let things0 . . .
for real. after a week of 40hrs with baby, no gas or electric yesterday, annoying roommates, and annyoing family, here i am at friday. i love it! p.s. if you are just going to open up the goddamn d0 . . .
is what i will be doing tonight. my flight leaves az at 11 and i get into blo at 8, just in time to go to work! woohoo. that is seriously the worst. waaaaaaaa. oh well. i have a date after work! 0 . . .
and its the scariest sound i am yet to hear. being here is pretty much like being a child again. i have been told that i need to eat cereal for breakfast today(the organic yummy cereal i made her buy 0 . . .
0405/innoutburge3619.jpg it's like the best thing ever. they make the burgers fresh and they taste so good. the fries are yummy and fresh too. i want to eat it everyday, ok, maybe not everyday. i0 . . .
everyone hates me becuase im on vacation. well that just isnt fair. the rest of the time, im in school while you are all out having fun. i never get to go out, i never have the money. im always workin0 . . .
i mean my little character is anyway. awww, thanx paul! that thing is the sheezy for reezy. now it is time for vaca cont'd. i am alone here with nothing really to do but sit in the sun and collect0 . . .
i thought it would be awful, but it turned out quite nice. it involved lots of food(substandard, but fine) and sun and swimming. yay for swimming and hot tub! its like we(e:hodown and myself) are so s0 . . .
im not going to show the pic, you can google it. a finger, or part of a finger was found in a customer's bowl of chili at a wendi's in ca. needless to say, i vow to never, ever, ever even think of eat0 . . .
i know its impossible for everything to be perfect or even someplace close to it, but sometimes things just dont even work out anywhere near as pleasant as you would like them to be. im feeling rea0 . . .
everytime i write a damn entry, i loose it. i seem to be most careless butterfingered person around. i just cant keep track of things. frappacino...mmmmmmmmmmmm. yea, yea. starbucks is baaaaad. but0 . . .
so, im here in the AZ. its great. sun, warmth, wireless internet. what more could a girl want? well i would like some baja fresh, and i deserve it after being lodged between a screaming child and t0 . . .
ifind that now i have a decent living place, and the super cutest room ever; i never want to leave the house. that means no partying, no boozing(minus the occasional bottle of wine enjoying inside my 0 . . .
ahhhhhhhhhhh. two trips. one to see momma in az. one to see sister in apple town(new york). e:thesimeon will be traveling with me to ny. how lovely. p.s. i love these pretty pink flowers. i w0 . . .
live your life; accept it. don't let anger comsume you. understand we are all different and respect the choices of others, to a reasonable degree. do not become angered by what you do not like(to a re0 . . .
that is what i want to say to some people sometimes. mainly people at school... anyway. if you need advice on how to be trashy, i have it. if you need a haircut, let me do it. im good, and ill0 . . .
we all have to deal with it. sometimes, things just don't go the way you want them too. p.s. why does it never stop snowing? p.p.s. why do i have to drive home from school at 10pm? it0 . . .
i moved into the new place. really, i did. i made the simeon more sick- he was the man. he wears a gold star now, and a sash. for being the expert mover. i better watch. i been wanred that i will0 . . .
or i boycott this whole thing. who makes a message system and then nobody sends me any. this is all wrong. anyway. weekend. yay. moving? i sure hope so. my operations are alway so hal0 . . .
one phrase says it all 0205/79-ShakeItAndBreakItScan43000452.jpg 0 . . .
same entrry, different entry written over thrice, work and school again tomorrow. nicole bringeth home the wild one in me... go home biatch. i got work to do!!!!!!! (YOU TOO!)0 . . .
think the new message system is fantastico. in fact, i will send one(maybe two) now!0 . . .
i just fell out of the chair. that hurt. sister( e:hodown ) comes next friday. oh boy. left bank. car wash. the possibilities are endless... here comes the SUN no; wait, that's snow:O(0 . . .
that chili was diggity damn good. mmmmmmmmmmmm. it just needed mucho hot sauce and chili powder and cheese and chips on top. nothing like being a total fatass. right. so anyway. i am le tired.0 . . .
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why did it go by so fast? :O( a few more hours left to enjoy. ...had the most most delicious mussels scampi sat night.............mmm. thank you(you). had tummy ache last night, maybe because th0 . . .
well, if you wanna make it fancy, baguette is your best bet. make sure it is "sameday" fresh, otherwise it gets to crusty. another suggestion? plain old white bread, but toasted, the bread, 0 . . .
and i just erased my entire entry. yes, we have all done it once, and im sure you understand the pain and anger im going through right now. all of those beautiful words gone forever. once again, i0 . . .
off for a fun night out with the teenster.... aint she great? good weekend, minus the whole trying to move thing. that just didn't work. oh well, ghetto apartment until, well until then..... 0 . . .
tomorrow and sunday are the days. wooohooo. school is crazy. two kids kicked out, one arrested. one beat up and sent away in an ambulance. who knew cosmetology school is so ghetto? and why does 0 . . .
fun party. yea. fun party. some crazy people. everyone is just ambiguous. no party is ever complete without min blt's, right paul? good thing i know how to cook up a mean slab of bacon. mmmmmm0 . . .
who wants a godamn cat? its about time i get kid of that thing. its making me sick. anyway, you want it, you got it. maybe i will post a pic tommorow. its really cute, but i don't apprecaite its cons0 . . .
to be greatful? i personally get a little ill from all of the complaining. ok. i complain a lot . but sometimes people just don't realize how easy they have it. i remember a time when paul and ter0 . . .
:(. my cell phone has been canceled. it will be replaced by new phone and plan in a week or so i think. i might drop off the face of the earth for a week or so... possibility that i might becom0 . . .
so ronery. i have no one i can rerate to. im so ronery so sad and arone. not really. not lonely at all. just reaching the ridiculous stages of being broke and without job. at least im in schooly.0 . . .
you can kiss my ass. three interviews. three strikes. what is it with those people? i refuse to ever apply at your store again. maybe. theres one right by my school. maybe they're worth a try. but 0 . . .
waiting. to hear from those wegmans people. give me a job for tina to come home for school to be over for summer to come? paul, i shall consider the whole feather headress thing0 . . .
those stories are very touching. :) we are very very lucky people. 0 . . .
just blame it on someone else. someone that you dont like. ofr example, i just had heartburn, and i blamed it on one such individual, it worked gloriously. i am heatburn free and on my way to a glorio0 . . .
spent many many days with her momma, and on the last day, she started to realize how much she would miss her. but, she is beggining to be a big piggy and she must go hom to the snowy cold. however, in0 . . .
if i didnt have to pay my rent NOW, i would donate money to the relief fund, one of then. but not the red cross. those pricks arent giving our donated blood away, they sell it. never again. just anoth0 . . .
for new years... i can: watch the chip dip into the salsa(no joke, they dont have a ball here) watch the ball drop in ny at nine and then go to bed be sober because i cant drink around cer0 . . .
i just get it out of my head. other than donating money, which i have none of. what else could i do to help? i have time. maybe the red cross? i wish the us government didnt suck so much, the un has a0 . . .
A GLORIOUS NEW PENIS HAS ARRIVED ON MY BODY, TODAY. I'M JUST GLAD TO BE ABLE TO SAY THAT I CAN REALLY EXPRESS MYSELF FOR WHO I AM ON HERE AND NOT WORRY ABOUT WHAT YOU MIGHT BE THINKING, BECAUSE I KN0 . . .
http://www.cnn.com/2004/WORLD/asiapcf/12/27/asia.quake/index.html0 . . .
well, im here in sunny arizona, in fountain hills, home of the world's tallest fountain, while all you losers are freezing your assesof in dreary blo; but i find myself wondering... am i missing somet0 . . .
so this is xmas, without snow? am i missing out? probably not. mommys new house is amazing. so nice. the luxury. i will take picutes and post them some time soon. my family is nuts. one aunt kic0 . . .
ok, i admit, that kitty is cute. ok? we may be able to be friends now. as long as the allergies stay away. random work today. must pay off ticket. must keep license. yay. i love school. even if 0 . . .
that can speed up time and slow it down when you need it to. maybe just skip some time all together, thats my xmas wish. santa, can you hear me? i wish that damn cat would stop trying to get into0 . . .
one of my favorite songs by lisa loeb. shes so frakin cute, and i love her music. what a strange day. went to e:tina's to do some laundry, and hang out, watch movies, eat, and such. went out las0 . . .
i lost the entry i just wrote. i am le stupid. cliff's notes version: art gallery fun, tree not as cool as i thought it would be terry fed me yummy food. eggs, gumbo, bean stuff. tina may or 0 . . .
to laugh at somebody's dissability. it's also hurtful. it seems that i tell people over and over that i have a hearing loss, and they think i can just turn up the volume on my speakers, no, becuase th0 . . .
1204/dbrainbow3842.jpg i saw this huge double rainbow as i was getting to school yesterday afternoon. possibly one of the most beautiful sites/moments i have seen/had. what is it about a rainbow th0 . . .
1. don't ever ever grocery shop or cook, only eat when you absolutely have to. go to friends houses and raid their fridge. 2. live with five other people in a rooming house, in the ghetto. 3. 0 . . .
it seems that many of us are waiting for phone calls today. paul and terry and matt waiting to hear about their new apartment, me about a job. i need to start working full time. i want to just work an0 . . .
did i ever mention how much i love this website? if not, i love it. i love you for creating it e:paul ! many things to say. 1. countdown to sunny vaca, 18 days. holy shit. i am gonna swim, eat, 0 . . .
whoever you are, you cant pick up chicks in gay bars. we go to gay bars to avoid that sort of thing. and by the way, where is your bling, because if you play for the nfl, which, we know you dont, you 0 . . .
hmmmm. got offered two jobs today. which one to take. one that gives me more scheduling freedom and a little more money, and one with a pretty crazy schedule and i get to work with kids. its 40 hours 0 . . .
kenmore has entered its final faze of gizettoness. there is now a store on delaware, about 50 feet from my old home(sniffle sniffle, i love you house) called "lotions 11". they sell lingerie0 . . .
thank-goodness -its -thursday. rough week. feeling kinda pukey, really kinda pukey. heart pounding. heart and tummy, you stop it. i miss you chamille :( yea, im ready for a new userpic. one sho0 . . .
"dance, too much booty in the pants!" I've been singing this song in my head all day, and it make me thin of you. miss you. id like to know about a sleeping aid as well, help. :( 0 . . .
and still no sign of sleep. haven't really slept in a long time, but i just can't . i want to wake up and feel ok. understand what is going. have something about this all make sense. have my memory0 . . .
happy breakup day. i hope everyone else feels just as shitty as i do now! :) 0 . . .
i read a headline in the news today. apparently, people were waiting at target at 345 am, to get the early bird specials yesterday. what is wrong with people? stuuf or sleep? I'll take sleep anyd0 . . .
bad picture, but i got a haircut. ill have matt take a better one tomorrow, or wait for tina to get back and take one. wheres my laundry buddy? i needs her to come back. oh well. this whole weekend0 . . .
so, all my hs friends are home for the weekend, and im feeling like i don't even want to see them. i don't really want to do/see much of anyone, with the exception of about five people. the boys, tk0 . . .
i know the feeling. the past two nights my sleep has been interupted by less than cordial roommates. lets go back to sat night: sleeping was going all right after working a long hard day. nick was0 . . .
my aunt wants to know what size underpants i wear. ? my faimly is strange.0 . . .
I Officially HATE THE MALL. there's no angry face, otherwise i would show it now.0 . . .
well, i cant. well, i couldnt. what ever happened to my f*&^%$# family? i feel like i have none. well, realy i dont. oh well. i guess its time to bite the bullet and grow up. growing up is the sad0 . . .
paul wants to throw everything away terry wants to keep everything i really don't care. but i did do their dishes today, those bitches can't clean up after themselves. the shame. paul 0 . . .
yea, that's right. sleep is the best. especially on a new bed, equiped with matching bedding, a mattress pad, and some nifty memory foam. it's weird though. i never sleeep well unless i know i am tota0 . . .
I think the world is just a struggle, or I know it is. everyone feels lonely, sad, depressed some of the time; especially me. right now, my sadness is a result of feeling alone without any family nea0 . . .
ok. i was wrong. i guess the saying, "kill 'em with kindness" is right. somebody i work with said some meany-poo things about to another co-worker, who happens to be a friend. this woman,0 . . .
Party on saturday! why? chemille tina and i have some reason to celebrate. the first is leaving for bigger better things. the last are having a late bday celebration. sat, the 30th. 930ish? byob, see 0 . . .
remember that ben folds song," carrying cathy"? well, we was singing to it in the car, me matthew(mmdog) and terry(tdog), and i decided im sick of carrying that bitch. she heavy. she smell. 0 . . .
what i ate today, chorizo omelette, homefries, toast cheeseburger, fries, soda ice cream. no more food for sausage girl today. too much sausage, not enough casing? oh yea. im a 0 . . .
deleted my entry. now in mad. :( 0 . . .
they say its ur birthday.... 1004/birthday3538.gif "No spring nor summer beauty hath such grace as I have seen in one autumnal face." ~by John Donne~ Happy Happy Birthday Tina an0 . . .
drove to school today. there was no school. 1 hour of driving. many hours of stupidity on my part. it seems these days, everytime i go somewhere, i seem to either get lost, or just drive the longest w0 . . .
had a convo with the stripbot this evening: elmwoodradio (10:40:59 PM): hey baby estripbot (10:40:59 PM): Don't call me "baby". Can I help you? elmwoodradio (10:41:08 PM): weather es0 . . .
has officially become too small a town for me, i think. since when can people you dislike a lot, move into the same house as a loved friend? maybe i have too much anger inside me as of late. actually,0 . . .
1004/bush_baby5938.jpg i was searching for the animal, but came across this pic. 0 . . .
great line from the movie "anchorman". but anyways it's true. whats wrong with me? anyways, my career as a professinal makeup artist starts tomorrow. i will be great. high society, here w0 . . .
i feel like there is no time for anything but work and school and grandma. school is fun. its just long and a lot of hours. 24 per week. it may sound silly, but its intense, as intense as you make it,0 . . .
us epeeps is crazy. what do you gwt when you have all of us, and alcohol, and a bucket of fries. just plain fun. i didnt drink though. i am high on life, or something like that. i realized, i need 0 . . .
i wrote an entry before. iit was erased. oh well. bad day turned good day; i think. long time since: i saw the ocean saw my mom saw brother liked working/ wanted to work 0 . . .
so, i have new place which i like. new job, dont know if i like cuz i dont start til tuesday. going to school. owe mom lots of money. shes real mad. at least i got happiness. how about this weathe0 . . .
0804/kennyg.jpg 0804/michealbolton.jpg the same person? they are corny, have(or did have) strange long curly hair and make bad music. lets make love to some micheal bolton and kenny g baby. 0 . . .
paul once told me that i am. its not true. i really wanna go. someone needs to pay. ummm. the gov or my mom. well, i would eventually get money from vesid and just pay her back. so, it starts in a wee0 . . .
for tha summer, for tha summer...wow, everyone is very thoughtful and kinda wierd right now. i agree, it sucks that summer was over, but not really for me. summer is such a great season, and normall0 . . .
sounds like i missed out on a good time last night. however, i am in no condition for partying. must find job and make sure that my mom is gonna pay the bills. going to call saigon bangkok one more ti0 . . .
yes, they are one and the same person... postal service was just a side project that ended up being pretty popular. hopefully they will get back togheter and do something else.0 . . .
im sure it'll be ok tomorrow, but right now i really feel like crying or losing it; something. it seems the more i try to get done, the more impossible it gets: *have to pay rent- no money *tho0 . . .
0804/tkinny08250655.jpg so, there's this website style.com, and i like to go and look at designer stuff and runway looks. its really fun anf the stuff is all so beautiful and artistic. i was goin0 . . .
i hate those m-f-ers. they drilled the shit out of my mouth. my day was ruined by them. now i dant talk or chew. im hungry. the dentist fucking sucks.:( four cavities.one day. not recommmended.0 . . .
why do i always use ever after everything? it is the new "like". well, attempted to find VESID; they are an organization thats give assistance and aid to people with diabilites looking to in0 . . .
but why does it feel like fall? yes, i agree the party was hit. hehe. i was kinda boring though. too much drug induced fun equals paranoia for this little one. i had to go to bed early. nonetheless, s0 . . .
the partay is okay. but not as good as it could be. i think i just miss some vital members. two people who have been at the last couple parties there has been. you know who you is. you are missed. i w0 . . .
yea, im poor. however, i am so rich in other ways. its better like this. being wealthy doesnt make you any better. any happier. any prettier. you just have more stuff. i am trying to get rid of things0 . . .
i will wake up now. i just woke up. yowza. i really think this new allergy stuff is making me crazy sleepy. or maybe im just lazy. new job good. nice people. fun. hopefully i will make good money i0 . . .
that tj maxx is the best ever. i went in looking for a white shirt and black pants, and found both items at the total bargain price of $32.45. yay! tina called me on my way shopping to check up. s0 . . .
Paul, I too am shocked about the whole Google thing. However, it doesnt mean that I thik Google should shut down. Remember Columbine? Those kids found info on the net how to make bombs and posted info0 . . .
"Suburban life, the American dream. Suburban life aint what it seems."-from some song that some people sing, but i cant remember who? Found place to live in city. Feel much better about0 . . .
Ok, to set the record, i was for sure the first to use chillax, Hodown. Do not think that because you are older, you are cooler. it just wont ever be that way. hahahaha. Why is it the best day ever0 . . .
Last Saturday, I really started my search for a place to live this year. After taking the advice of my sister and friends, I headed to Spot for the newest Artvoice, and to check the message board for0 . . .
Let's see here... I suppose there isnt anything interesting going on, well, nothing that you would find interesting. Just got back from camping, hmmmm. what can i say about camping? I can say that I a0 . . .
so, i applied to live in the co-op house, which i am excited about, but also nervous. not nervous about being there, but nervous that i won't be voted in. the members are all having a meeting now, and0 . . .
i was so right, that party was not worth it. well, it was just to be with the epeeps and friends. rusty is always fun at parties too. i ate a disgustiing amount of food last night before bed, and now 0 . . .
parties suck when you dont want to go i want: a job a place of my own a trip to az and nyc i dont think wishing on stars works, so i have to try this on my own.0 . . .
hey sqb, that number didnt work? i wonder if you wrote down the wrong number or what happened? get back to me, if you can. hey, thanx for helping! in other news, well there really is none. i need n0 . . .
yea. im basically kinda freaking out right now. i need to get a lot of stuff done fast. money should have been invented, created or whatever it is; its evil, and it puts so many boundaries on ever0 . . .
I NEED A ROOMMATE, MUST BE OUT OF HOUSE BY SEP 1ST. ANYONE KNOW ANYONE? PLEASE HELP ME!0 . . .
so, i am writing here again today. just wanted to say that sometimes it is neccessary to do the uneccessary. if you feel like something isnt working, fix it. if it cant be fixed get rid of it. your li0 . . .
i decided not to go to work today. partly because i just dont want to work, and partly because i hate them and i got the shaft big time. the girl that i was working with now has another aide, so i fi0 . . .
beast, i always want to talk to someone right before i go to bed too. someone that will have pleasant conversation and give me kisses or hugs before i go to sleepies. ie, mommy, sister, boy. i must0 . . .
so, after a pretty rough day, i am gonna sit in the sun and swim. i think being this age is just hard no matter who you are. life is very exciting, and filled with new experiences, but very very uncer0 . . .
its been over a month now, the longest i have ever gone without seeing my mom. its quite possibly the hardest thing i have ever had to do. i am ao used to her always being there, leaving me notes ever0 . . .
i was holding Basra, paul, matt and, terry's tortoise friend. we were bonding, having tortoise, eskimo kisses, and it peed all over me. the tortoise wet my pants and arm and hand. i squeeled, oh well,0 . . .
first, i went to bed before 7 last night. i did not go anywhere, i did not talk to anyone; i just sleep. let me tell you, it was the best time i have had in a long time. sleep is great. after a day0 . . .
apparently some people on this site have sadi some nice things bout me. that makes me feel all good inside. diana, im still laughing about the squaredancing joke. racheal, of course im still here, and0 . . .
damnit terry, who sat and dip those little critters forever? three pounds of little chunks of fich and me. i dipped and dipped like it aint been done before. congrats to me. the 40 always come0 . . .
to: *kiss fancypants *be with family *say im sorry to all the people that i have not been up to par with this past year or so *hug the mommy *laugh with sister *find a better place for brother0 . . .
it friday night. i'm staying in. wow. this is huge. i remember the days when friday night was party night, but i ust dont seem to have that urge lately. maybe its because everyon who i would be par0 . . .
its only 20 to 7. why has this been the longest day of my life? not the longest day that is a bad day. it HAS been the longest day thus far, but the best long day. i would try to write something poeti0 . . .
1. i hate the zoo. its just an afwul sad smelly place. i also hate the zoo when it is 90 out. way too hot. way too stinky. too much chasing around crazy girls in wheelchairs. (i was also wearing jeans0 . . .
so, i was just reading your journal. i read it a lot as it is one of my favorites. i owe my mom a lot of money, and she keeps paying my bills for me. and now she moved to az, and i m still here, but n0 . . .
i just typed this whole long entry and then realized that it was all a bunch of garbage. whenever i try top write something interesting here it turns out to be a bunch of blah. what was the name of0 . . .
im a sickypoo-poo. you know that feeling when you first feel you throat hurting. its all scrathy and you drink a million glasses of water, and ur still so freakin thirsty, you feel like you need a tro0 . . .
im a sickypoo-poo. you know that feeling when you first feel you throat hurting. its all scrathy and you drink a million glasses of water, and ur still so freakin thirsty, you feel like you need a tro0 . . .
where to begin... i have lost contact with all estrippers. some of them arent talking to me. some of them forgot about me. i forgot about some of them. and most i just dont know anymore. thats ok. 0 . . .
i have found out the secret to boringness... just work a million hours. all you will want to do is sleep, or work more. working makes me feel good though. especially at one of my jobs. those kids real0 . . .
im a crybaby. and im not that interesting. i need to take interest in something rather than me. ive started drawing againich feels nice. after all those figure drawing classes, it seems i only want0 . . .
im a crybaby. and im not that interesting. i need to take interest in something rather than me. ive started drawing againich feels nice. after all those figure drawing classes, it seems i only want0 . . .
im a crybaby. and im not that interesting. i need to take interest in something rather than me. ive started drawing againich feels nice. after all those figure drawing classes, it seems i only want0 . . .
i am going to call my mom tonight. i miss her. probably because i know i cant see her anytime soon. it will be me calling and then crying. thats what i do when i am sad and i talk to mommy. things 0 . . .
0704/05192523.gif i forgot to mention she got it at the carnegie deli. i would have saved the salami and made fifty more sammies and given them to 50 lucky random homeless people who would dance fo0 . . .
nicole is funny. when she was in nyc she got the biggest salami sandwich ever. she ate half. she paid 11 bucks to eat part of a half of a huge salami sandwich containing only samlami b/t two pieces of0 . . .
the site is getting so crazy and big. paul has done an amzaing job. i just feel like i enjopyed it more when it was smaller. i felt like i could read everyones blog and get to know them. i even got to0 . . .
mommy's left for az. she's got a long drive ahead of her. ny was fun. sisters are fun. jersey city is fun. i heart ny. i will live there in a couple years. maybe one and a half. i miss my room, 0 . . .
slept in this room for 16 years. this is our last night together. once filled with many many many things. now houses only a bed, some clothes and me. my childhood is over. goodbye house.0 . . .
paul, this site s getting crazy. crazy good. im so proud of you pookie. i will bring you home special nyc treat. you wll be of in computer land, and i will be outside seeing and interacting with peopl0 . . .
last two days of packing... * i love plastic bins *i love nyc. i love sister in nyc. i will see her soooooon. *matthew, sorry i havent come by. maybe tonight? i make no promises. *my mom0 . . .
last nght after getting aunty carol from the airport, her, i, and aunty ann all had a nice little talk about pooping. family bonding time. we were up at 2 talking about doodoo...hahaha.0 . . .
so, today all in all was a god day. not a productive day, but a good day. usually i hate sundays, but this one was nice. it would be good to have a lovely monday as well. before i forget, welcome t0 . . .
Mike, I am so up for some dodgeball madness, tshirts and all! :O)0 . . .
i am bad at giving my entries titles, so, well, that is all i have to say about that. calling taiwan is really confusing. either tina gavce me the wrong number, or her line is always busy. this is 0 . . .
my aunt has not cleaned out my room or gotten rid of that cat. the cat will kill me befoe i kill it. anybody want a cat? its a pretty one.i shall live in a box and accept donations. nobody is retur0 . . .
0604/sad.jpg i was in the car with my mom today, and she grabbed my hand and started to cry. i've never see her cry; she is such a strong woman. i'm sad. i hate crying. im happy for her tho0 . . .
im am so bad at being organized... i need a personal assistant. so far, 90% of the packing has been done by my aunts, they are the best. i have so much more to do, and i dont want to do it. i keep ge0 . . .
life is often taken for granted... these moments are short and sweet, so stop for a second a listen to the bird songs, they sing for you. :O)0 . . .
disregard anything i just said. have a good day. welcome new people. where did you all come from??0 . . .
i have not seen anyone in some time... all i do is sleep and eat and work. all i want to do is sleep and eat. i must have another garage sale and hen go to work. i must survive on little s0 . . .
maybe... *people on this site should put up a real pic of themselves?even if if its in their journal, its hard for to really rwad someone's stuff if i cant put a face to the name. *i should ike 0 . . .
Dear Tina, This one's fer you. I have finally begun to sort through my stuff, in prep for he big move. I stumbled upon the missig mp3 cd you made for me, that i am no listening to for the first tim0 . . .
tis better to be content with less. the person who has more, will always feel that they need more. i am not sure where i fit into this riddle, but i know i sure dont have much. i'm ok with that. i don0 . . .
after a couple of produvtive days, i managed to slee all day today. well, at least until now. if you were ever wondering, what is the difference b/t a 19 yr old and a 20 yr old, apparently it is j0 . . .
i think this computer is about to break any moment. here's the info: Where: 27 Mang ave. (kenmore) b/t elmwood and delaware When: sat and sun 8-3 Why: we movin What: anything from 100 yr old tru0 . . .
0604/02231515.jpg ever since i saw the movie "adaptations", i have loved orchids. they are now my favorite flower. i want one sooooooooooooooo much. they are hard to take care of thou0 . . .
nausea; no fun. i hate taking pills. thats about all i have to say for now. except for a couple more things. professional sports are a waste of time. the zoo is just a bad poopy place. i miss my 0 . . .
oh today, what a day. it all started with a trip to the airport, to see the sister off. she started to cry, and i was to tired for emotion. however, i did manage to get out a tear or two on the ride h0 . . .
paul, i tld you not to post that picture, i look cuter in the other one. can we fix this problem? i think it is possible that i will have arthritis at a very early age, my knees, back, feet, should0 . . .
hmmmm, how to say this? life is a precious thing. it is happy and sad and beautiful and ugly all at the same; but in the end, i would like to think that the good stuff makes up for the bad. i try to b0 . . .
what a night. tina and i are still awake. after two nights of no sleep, i am still going strong. we went out with tk last night, and saw shrek and then headed to the pink. tina said she never stayed f0 . . .
i really really wish he would stop taking stuff from me. who knows what he has taken in the past year. why dont you just take everything? why dont you just spit in my face? that might get your point a0 . . .
so much to do, so little time. wanting to sleep. i keep not being able to sleep at night and getting tired during the day. sleepovers are fun!0 . . .
Change has a considerable psychological impact on the human mind. To the fearful it is threatening because it means that things may get worse. To the hopeful it is encouraging because things may get b0 . . .
let's see... I just feel very strange right now, the same way I felt all last night. It's hard to explain I guess; it seems I am feeling a mixture of things. I will try to explain further. Have you ev0 . . .
i wake up at 530. my mom has surgery. i hate the hospital, i hate seeing my mom in an inferior position. i hate seeing her in any pain, it make me want to cry. today was supposed to be about her. we g0 . . .
My dear Tina, All I know how is much I care about you, and that I simply wish for you to not feel this way anymore. I can't say I have or ever will know what it is lie to feel like you do now, but 0 . . .
tina is coming back! i know, it's crazy, we thought she was gone for the summer, but she has come back to get some stuff. this means there will be a celebration of sorts, and of course, we should play0 . . .
i was thinking yesterday, while at work, about how everything, or many things in our lives are based around control and fear. It is the sick notion that sitting at the top of my work ladder, is a big 0 . . .
the flowers, they is perty. the theme of my day is tropical. just being in warm weather, and walking around in the sun, smelling the lilac trees, sitting in the garden. all of these just make life so 0 . . .
ladies: don't use tampons. just dont use them. they might get lost somewhere in there.0 . . .
apparently not i. for a while now, i have been having the most awful dreams. the kind that include people you know, and situations that seem so real, that when you wake up, you are not sure if that re0 . . .
I hate being tired and wanting to go to bed, but cant. Something is wrong. Ce n'est pas bon. The more I go out, the more I dislike it. I dont like being around people that are really drunk, or just0 . . .
the sun is just about the best thing ever. it makes everything more fun. sometimes i like to just sit outside and listen to the noises of summer, birds chirping, people passing, and the ice cream truc0 . . .
what a weekend. friday we moved tina out of the dorms. that was crazy, and also somewhat fun-gotta love the iternational dorm. sat we partied. sunday we felt like puking and then celebrated mothers da0 . . .
ok people, heres the deal. you missed the last hodown, and you missed out. so, be there sat april 8th at 1030, for some good family fun! there is sure to be some estrip folks there, and also some not 0 . . .
0504/06200003.gif a quote from a metric song. i think its funny. 0 . . .
there is no end to the allergy season for me. i shall live a live of stuffy nose and tissues. i have so much to look forward to. i really do have a lot to look forward to. i just have to do lots of w0 . . .
0504/03182105.gif tina and i are amazed with jill's sketching ability. jill, what drugs are you taking to complete your wondeerful sktech masterpieces, can you share with us, we need help!0 . . .
the rain has come ,and shows no signs of stopping. at least we can have two months of nice weather(maybe) before we return to the snow. i cant update from home anymore. my computer wont load the site0 . . .
i have been completely devoid of estrip for the past five days, or so. why is my computer so dumb? the answer is easy, its really old, and was never good in the first place. perhaps my recent separati0 . . .
dont want to write much, i am not in a typing mood, or writing mood for that matter. maria stopped by today. matthew terry and i went for a nice long walk. i feel refreshed. met with my aunt today, an0 . . .
it seems that life is constantly making us wait. waiting for the phone to ring. waiting to hear to good or bad news. waiting for someone or something, just sitting, or pacing and wanting that monet to0 . . .
this journal is fun to keep, but also somewhat frustrating. i guess i know that people read it, or i think they do, so i neverreally say what i would say in a "real" journal. i dont have any0 . . .
lots of stuff happened yesterday. i am too lazy to write in sentences, so i will list: *bush came, i slept. i feel bad. i wish i had been there. *4/20-enough said *i recieved flowers for the firs0 . . .
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in this past week, i have talked to way too many women who feel they are being mistreated by the man they are involved with. i have not talked to any men who feel this way. something is not right. it0 . . .
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i am le tired. i shouldnt be tired. i need to do stuff. i would just like to let all hairstylists out there that when i say trim, i mean trim, not chop. i can no longer sport the pony tail, :O(. 0 . . .
i was just trying to update some stuff on this fabulous journal of mine, and my brother walks in. it's 9, what is he up for? anywho, that will not discourage me fom prancing around in my underwear, it0 . . .
0404/14210828.gif Ya'll should go and see the breakwall. It is fun to walk on and see the broken "ice-boom". Terry wrote a poem about it but a few days ago. I visited just this past week.0 . . .
in this current moment, i am happy. i am having visions of fields filled with flowers and tall green grass, and me dancing around in it. mind you, this feeling and vision comes all without drugs; who 0 . . .
i haven't updated in a long time. it seems that i am still sick, and i now spend all of my time sleeping. all of my extra time sleeping. there are a lot fo things that i want to do, and people i wanna0 . . .
after another day or night full of fun and open house, i shall sleep til there be morrow, then i shall do some cooing cleaning and opther random housewife duties. anyone need a wife? sometimes it seem0 . . .
i think i am going to die soon, or just finally get some sleep and not wake up for a while. the party, i must say, was quite fun. good tunes, good people, good drinks, and good other things. if only y0 . . .
come one, come all, to the ho ball. anyway, check out elmwood's journal for info. lalalala.....0 . . .
should we just designate the pink as the offcial bar of estrip? it seems to be popular with us these days. meeting people who you know from the site, but dont actually know is quite entertaining, and 0 . . .
after possibly the coldest winter of my life, spring has finally come! lets all dance around in a field full of flowers...lalala. The only problem with spring is all that sutff that starts growing0 . . .
The more I write in this journal, the more addicted I become. I never really say anything that matters, and most of the time, I make no sense. However, it is nice to have a place amoung friends, where0 . . .
will it be nice like this tomorrow? I think not. Thank god for this strange illness that I am having while it is warm. I need to shower. That has not happened in at least 48 hours. I actually really d0 . . .
drunkies, like me should not be able to update their journals, when drunk. i am pissed off at a lot of people right now. shape up or ship out. nough said.0 . . .
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i am writing in a state of unawareness. thank the lord jesus and mel gibson that i dont have to work tomorrow! i think i shall go hiking and ponder many thoghts. i shall be high as well. i shall ponde0 . . .
The sinus issue is still present and ever so annoying. Being filled with snot is just no fun. Not only does it constantly drip down my throat and make my throat itch/sore, but it also makes me tired. 0 . . .
There are two thing that I would like to complain about this morning. The first, my reoccuring sinus problems. Grrrrr, this is really starting to bother me. Every time the weather changes, i.e., freez0 . . .
i picked tina up from the airport today. it is good to have her back ,to say the least. the past week has been a good one; an interesting one. i guess i have learned a couple of things. i am young. 0 . . .
!hAPPY bIrThDaY mATThEw! , 0304/muppets.jpg Matthew, Happy Birthday my dear friend. It is weird to try and think of when I first met you, or when we really became good friends, but my m0 . . .
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ever cleaned an oven? well, i did today. and let me say, it is not for the faint of heart. theres some nasty shizzle in there. this weather is no fun, my car got stuck in my driveway, and i had to0 . . .
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wow. the snow is like an evil everpresent froce that comes and gos as it pleases, just for the puprose of irritating the resdients of poor dreary buffalo. thankfully, i will soon, never have to see, h0 . . .
my user pic changed. matt used his fancy new camera to take it. i want a fancy new digital camera, that doesnt look like a digital camera. i hung out with jess tonight, and she is real swell. she i0 . . .
so, i m officially at the crossroads, and i have to make some major decisions. the problem is, i have no clue what to do. my sister and her man called me today to discuss my lack of ambition, and i0 . . .
this is more like it! can you hear the music? i can and it sounds good n nice. i ate the worst chinese food of my life. i took some bites and then moved on to the beers...always satifsying. i ho0 . . .
Wow. i just read my last journal entry, which, by the way; I have no memory of. It is quite funny, and really stupid. Oh the joy of getting plastered. There are too kinds of drunk. The first involve0 . . .
oh dear, once again, i have made the drunken phone call. the one that involves a former lover or such, and angry talk, and blaming, and all that shit. do i even care? apparently i do when i am drunk. 0 . . .
oh dear.... last night was one to remember. i went to mixers to meet rachel, and geoffrey. so, we was a chillin. tina was there too, of course. desi left for a while, and we got to play bartender. 0 . . .
ok, knowing that someone reads my journal makes me happy. it makes it even more fun, when people email you. it is fun. the same kind of fun that used to have while passing notes in class when the tea0 . . .
oh boy. paul is a lucky one. he gets to go to ny and visit the greatest sister ever. she will cook for him, give him special treats, and if he is sad or homesick, she will cheer him up with a cup full0 . . .
people i miss: *jessica kim ho, i miss that girl like crazy. most of the time i just womder how much fun my life would be with her in it. she could be possibly the greatest person of my life that i0 . . .
sometimes paragraphs are just too much trouble so i shall list: last week: *drank alot of vodka and beer...fun for me! *still didn't get school stuff done, now i am soooo behind *finally met the0 . . .
i want to be the leader of the journal entry, read my journal...gross pictures and all. i must win. why is this a competition. the two greatest things of my week have been my child(vodka) and a new sp0 . . .
check it out, garunteed to make you hate bush even more!http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/nm/20040211/pl_nm/bush_marriage_dc_4 0 . . .
so, they tried to remove the second head, and the poor little baby died... this pic is not for the faint of heart. 0204/r4253507934.jpg 0 . . .
i thought i should update, but i really have nothing new to say. i have been very good at doing nothing these past few weeks; years. i do need help with something though... i have an interesting new 0 . . .
ugh. i don't want to move to arizona, but the more i think about it, the less of a choice i have. i have no money, in fact i have negative money, and lots of it. if my mom goes, i have nobody here. th0 . . .
i just saw this, and i think you should see it too... http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&cid=589&e=4&u=/ap/dominican_two_heads0 . . .
we gon watch finding nemo tonight...fun times...during all the madness. my granny comes home tonight, i shall be happy to see her. i bought her some flowers, yay for granny. yay for maria, and yay for0 . . .
0204/janetboobie.jpg the only good part of the superbowl was this picture. if it isn't too hot for cbs, it ain't too hot for me! p.s. where can i buy a little nipple shield like that??? cute huh?0 . . .
i shall try to die, very soon. i lost mommy's credit card, and she says there is no replacement, so now i shall go to sleep and never wake up. actually, my plan is to stay away from home as much a pos0 . . .
i couldn't sleep, so i decided to write... i don't even know where to start. i am really sad. i guess the winter just makes it worse too. seeing somebody you love go through such difficulty is real0 . . .
who wants to have an anti-super bowl celebration. i will celebrate the bowl, but not the superbowl. fuck you superbowl, bowl i love you...0 . . .
tk is definitely the man of the hour, or the last 24 hrs. that sexy bitch gave us the vip treatment last night, when we went to see big fish. not only did the movie kick some serious ass, he got our a0 . . .
sometimes i wonder what could be. i wonder if should just take off and not look back. life in the emerald city might be fun. there are however, about 6-10 people here that i depend on for sanity, and 0 . . .
I was read some stuff for a class i am taking, and it is pretty interesting. so, i have decided to share with you. just a little trivia about color... colors and their meanings: red= blood, ma0 . . .
i think i died last night, and then again today. but it sure was worth it! i must say, mr. paul, you throw a kickin bday bash. well, actually i would say, we threw a damn good party for you. i thin0 . . .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PAUL, MY SPECIAL MONKEY BIRTHDAY BABY!0 . . .
grand puba, grand puba, go go go go... i luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv you jessica kim ho, having a happy chinky china new year, from the lil' ho!0 . . .
i am not sure what day chinese new year actually is, hold on, let me check...ok so i lied, i don't know. but let's celebrate anyways. now, onto the real topic. have you ever become uninterested? not 0 . . .
did you know that eating meat may be a contributing factor leading to male impetence...interesting. today's subject will be meat...it is obvious that the meat industry is fucked up, and beef is jus0 . . .
this whole journal thang is really fun, and interesting, however, i feel that i need to be given a topic. otherwise, i will just write nonsense about my life that really doesn't matter. so, to all tho0 . . .
point blank, t.v is bad if you need to know more, check out the kill your t.v. webiste... http://www2.localaccess.com/hardebeck/killtv2.htm if you disagree, you are just dumb some exceptions0 . . .
here's my question: does cold weather make you an angry person? my personal answer is yes. at least when it is warm and sunny outside, you can be happy and wake up to the pleasant warming rays 0 . . .
i am officially going back to school, and i am officially going to actually try this time. so, that is the plan. the other plan is to stay away from assholes. i have been informed by numerous people t0 . . .
it seems that after the age of eighteen, you should have as little contact with parents as possible, this, i have decided will be the solution to my problem. who wants to be nearing twenty-one and hav0 . . .
At pano's, with the creator and master of the domain, paul, and tk, who didn't create anything. Fun times, feed the tummy.0 . . .
after a very long and strange day, caused by what i believed to be the observation of a full moon last night, i have arrived home in one piece. to make a long story short, the snow storm in seattle tu0 . . .
i am stuck here in seattle for one more day due to the massive amounts of snow-about three inches. it's kinda cool actually because i can spend some more time with my cool family and stuff. we are gon0 . . .
today, i went back to the asian market, and finished the gift shopping. i was looking at these little tea cups, and then i knocked the whole shelf of them over, and every time i tried to set them back0 . . .
i am gonna get a major ass whooping when i get back...i failed two classes...the other two, i got d's. man, i suck. but truthfully, i really don't care. i guess i am in a really huge state of not-cari0 . . .
so, everyday i have been here in seattle it has snowed, what tha fudge? perhaps i bring the curse of snow with me, hmmmm. i wish there was an asain market in blo, it is so much fun to shop for asain t0 . . .
yea, so i was on the computer at my uncle's tonight, and all these pop-ups kept coming up, and the speakers were really loud. so then my uncle came downstairs, i think i woke him up. that was not cool0 . . .
i have finally decided to enter into the world of the online journal...scary huh? so, seattle is a pretty cool place, and the people are cool too, but they are all so rich, or maybe just the people th0 . . .