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Category: castration

07/05/07 12:18 - 66ºF - ID#39918

what the hell is wrong with women?

what is the deal with women saying they are going to hang out, make plans to do something, or say they want space or whatever, AND NEVER GETTING BACK TO YOU OR IN TOUCH WITH YOU TO AT LEAST LET YOU KNOW WHATS GOING ON? i mean, wouldnt it be considerate to just drop a line and be forward and say-

"hey, i don't feel like hanging out"

-or-

"hey, im not going to be able to make it"

-or-

"hey, this just isn't going to work"

and here the typical stereotype is that men never show enough concern for plans/emotions/commitment.

i swear to god, as far as romance and gender roles are concerned, more and more im beginning to believe the proverbial tables have been turned.

on another note, i have met somone... and she is gorgeous. but, for some reason, i cannot get the last one out of my head(heart?). i don't know what to do, because she could be soo much better for me, but im just not feeling as into her as the other (previous) one. i seem to have little in common with her comparitivley to the last girl, who was by all means, save reciprocation, my dreammate.

its been more than three weeks. when somone asks for space, generally they don't mean 4+ weeks. she still hasn't deleted me from her myspace profile, but has ignored the few attempts i made to reach her to at least get some form of closure.

i don't want to hurt this new one, but i don't want this previous mess to tangle me up, either. i want to be able to move on and try somethin with somone, and why not with her (new girl)? she is gorgeous, and i mean that, but she dosent interest me as much (or quickly?) as the other. maybe its just because we didn't fuck within the first 4 hours of meeting each other like i did with the last one. i feel like my heart is constantly being put through a rock tumbler.

maybe if im lucky it will come out all smooth, polished, and pretty. hopefully somone might be able to ignore the fact that despite its brilliant veneer it has gone cold and hard...
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Category: help!

06/27/07 08:26 - 79ºF - ID#39832

moving...

im moving on friday, around 1pm. im going to need a few extra pairs of hands, just to expedite the proceedure as i am only being given 2 days off to do this. im not asking for anyone to move heavy items, i will take care of those with my roomie, but it would save a lot of time if someone could help with the boxes/bags of clothing. i know i hardly know any of you, but the majority of my friends are unable to help and i don't want my old man having to move me as he is getting too old.
expenses are rough right now, but im willing to see what i can throw together for alcohol depending on your preferences. maybe even dinner when its all said and done.

anyone up for a moving party?
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Category: apologies

06/24/07 04:32 - 82ºF - ID#39794

okay, okay...

perhaps i was a bit cynical. well, okay.... i was. its not a very long story. simply put, the first woman i have had an attraction to in the past 6 years decided to just snub me over a feigned insult when i asked her if i was just a hookup after a bit of sex, cancelled dates, and shifty behaviours. i don't often get all soft on the pretty ones, but she had much more than that going on. so here i am, like, 3 weeks later, and still no word from her after she needed "space". nobody likes being played, you know? i suppose at this point im just sad for her and her inability to deal emotionally or maturely like an adult.
to boot, i work with a bunch of evil, catty women. in fact, almost every person i work with is female, and i really don't get too many positive impressions from them about the entire feminine gender- as they are all uncareing, vougue reading, view watching, husband-hunting, pieces of mass-media trash. what has happened to women in the past 6 years? it seems to me like they have all changed, become careless and caustic, with no regard for anything other than instant pleasure and gratification. to be honest, women are reminding me more and more of the typical MALE stereotype, and men- the other way around. i don't watch television or read any media, so what the hell is going on in america?! i don't understand women like i used to... and i didn't really get them to begin with. i really am beginning to feel like mass media has changed the demands of the gender roles in the past few years.
all that said, im going to apologize to the individual ladies who may not represent these "qualities" and in a twofold manuver, ask for you to stand up and take a shot at proving me wrong. godz know i need some positive impressions, right now. being a curmudgeon will not ever help me meet that special "somone".

oh yeah, and im a pacifist. i could never resort to physical violence, let alone murder. lets just say my words can kill and leave it at that.
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Category: castration

06/23/07 03:04 - 53ºF - ID#39778

for the ladies...

i have got a major hate-on, right now. it will be a long time before i can feel even comfortable to hang out with females. they simply cannot be trusted worth shit, and are incapable of being forthcoming or upfront. its funny how i have allways been told the males of the species mature slower, and have never seen anything to prove it through my personal experiences. maybe its just because im not like most men.
i would like to think that women are all individuals, but im beginning to see base character traits among all of them, and it seriously disgusts me. petty, greedy, shallow, calloused, and unflinchingly manipulative- i see it every day in just about any way a woman regards a man. we are cattle to them, worker drones. all of us are replaceable by somone thinner, more attractive, more wealthy, popular, or just plain more anything. i simpley cannot trust the bond of a woman, anymore. genetics simply place their concerns with security over that of either emotion or social regard.
im sorry, im sure you are all great on an individual basis, but as a whole, you are deceitful, hurtful, plotting creatures whos only concern is hooking up with somone you can show off to the rest of your catty, fucked up little population of breeders.


maybe ill just get lucky and it will only be the women in buffalo.

hell, who am i kidding.

feel free to send me hate comments to perpetuate my new paradigm.
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06/22/07 10:39 - 59ºF - ID#39776

doom.

...and heartbreak.
im also moving in a week.
that is all.
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Category: photos

03/25/07 04:06 - 52ºF - ID#38614

pattys day pics

finally had the time:

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sorry i didn't take more, im still learning the camera as much as im starting ti get to know most of you. im sure once i have been to a few more parties i will be more comfortable taking pics.

but... there they are. enjoy.
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Category: lack of pictures

03/22/07 11:01 - 43ºF - ID#38584

so sorry..

i have been working excessively since monday, haven't had the time to post the few party pics i took up. i promise i will, but its too late right now, so im going to bed. they aren't much, anyways. don't get your hopes up. seriously.

not to say that all of you werent a blast. i had a great time meeting those of you i had not beforehand and seeing the res i already knew. good times. just a busy week, thats all. aww, shit. thats right.. electric six is playing at the mohawk, tomorrow. well... i wont be posting the party pics tomorrow, either. but i may have some e6 pics by the time i do. anyone else going? maybe we can meet up. i know knife is going.
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Category: doctor

03/14/07 12:04 - 46ºF - ID#38449

Doctor Tran









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Category: photos

03/08/07 11:39 - 16ºF - ID#38403

mystery post...


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Category: nerd

02/23/07 01:21 - 23ºF - ID#38251

swm iso gpu...

something in the affordable range. im looking to upgrade my pc, not make it the next ps3. i mean, I've seen some crazy new cards they have for pci express. earlier today i found a link on videogames. com for a 1 gig gpu that had two cards stacked as a single pcix slot insert. cool right? sure, if you have 700 dollars.

so i do, in fact, have a pcix slot, and am running off a gforce 6600 with 256mb or vram. im looking to upgrade to 512mb, but there are more on the market than i thought. so i started comparing core and memory speeds, and weighing against the pros and cons of having a fan-less card. im pretty sure i know which card i want to go with in my price range, but its not an nvidia card, its an ati. never used an ati, but its pricing and stats are weighty. check it.

so i guess my question is this:
do any of you out there know what specs to look for on new video cards, to compare them adequately?

im planning on building my next rig in about a year or so, after the quad core mobos become more prevalent and less expensive. that mobo will most likely be either sli or crossfire compat, so whatever card i get now will most likely be the brother/sister to the one following.

or how about this:
is it better to increase your ram before your gpu, or vice versa? how can you tell when you need each one?

woot. nerdy.
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