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Category: nature

10/12/05 05:19- ID#35813

Essesntial Elements

So I have a few minutes before I must tackle some school readings and a paper. I came staight home from work instead of heading out to the park to run around as I normally would. Maybe later I will go for a brisk walk around town. I like the night..

Yesterday I took a bunch of pics. I am a big fan of wood. I am not sure what the fascination is, but I am drawn to it. I love my green space, water and woods. I do what I can with my digital camera and have thousands of pictures to sort through and print someday; and this number will continue to grow as my favorite time to photograph is in the fall. I will post some wood pics in a few days. I would love to get out to Letchworth.

Any advice on whether I should print them myself or take them somewhere? I have many of people, animals and nature, on disk and on the hard drive.

yesterdays fresh air... It is the most amazing smell.. fresh earth.. the scent of fall. I can't breath it in deep enough. Come out and view the scenery and smell the air..



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Going down the staircase to my secret pier
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coming back up..
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10/11/05 10:15- ID#35812

sharin gthe quiz

snagged from a quiz in (e:ladycrofts) journal

  • The keys to your heart**

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

  • How you are in love**
You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You tend to give more than take in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.
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10/11/05 10:15- ID#35811

This turned into a little bit about Me

I am working on the readings and assignments for my new class, Organizational
Ethics, Values and the Law. I have been intensely fascinated with all subject matter
to this point and I am sure that I will not be disappointed with this course. I
apply myself to my courses as though I were a blank slate. I don't want to apply
what I am learning to what I know already. My aim is to unlearn and relearn.. then
evaluate the information and apply or replace the new information. That is my
strategic plan..

I have a background in the law, but I have probably forgotten much of it. Not only
due to the amount of time that has passed since I had legal studies, but the time
frame in which it occurred. I had a work related back injury three and a half years
ago. It left me with my world turn upside down.

This pissed me off.

Daily physical therapy, painful injections into my back, financial ruin, exorbitant
weight gain, friends fading into the background, depression, meds that were
prescribed then later taken off the market, insomnia and future uncertainty made me
feel broken.

Broken yet pissed off. I would not stand (no pun) for the inability to take care of myself. I hated everything about this period of my life, and I had to do what I could and even more, to make it better. I mustered what little strength I had to work really hard, one day at a time to get better. It took almost a year, but I managed to get to the point where I could work again. Believe me, that was the worst part of all. I guess I base much of who I am on what I do. And my stubborn need totake care of myself. Everything I had learned in school and life felt fuzzy to me. I felt, “dumbed-down”. I found out later that this is common in painful injuries/life traumas. I have the horrors written out in both my paper journal and livejournal. I don’t know if I can revisit that “place” quite yet.

Skip to: I begin work (at my current place of employment). I could barely get through the day, but I managed. I would get home and sleep the rest of the evening and into the next morning. Each day I got stronger; physically and mentally.

Two and a half years after starting this job I am still going strong. I have not had any related issues in two years. I am still in a high risk for injury environment, but this is where I belong. I love the chaos, the physical nature of the job (still working on the last 35 lbs) and the ever changing nature of the job. I am also in school, which I love;I feel as though I am in my element.

Recently, in my interview (for internal position), when asked what my greatest accomplishment has been, I said it was the strength, courage and tenacity to overcome an injury and being able to see the growth that has occurred as a result of this period in my life.

Post injury me is a more compassionate/feeling individual. I take time to see and understand people and things around me. I respect and admire people who also respect and treat others with dignity. Mean spirited is weak. My tolerance of he said-she said games are done with; I speak up when people are generalizing stereo types regarding relationships and gender.

I get to know people on an individual basis, but that is how I have always operated.

Anyway, the post injury me is kicking ass and taking out the trash 

And soon to buy a coffee maker.
A bean grinder.
Beans.
Tupperware to house the beans.
Cross Country skiis.
And an updated cell phone. Here is a pic of my cell phone ;)

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10/11/05 10:07- ID#35810

GoGoGadget iPod

(e:pyrcedgrrl) assisted me this evening in impregnating my iPod with a plethora of music. She allowed me to violate her iTune files, and I gleefully did just that, and supplemented what I couldn't find in her files with plenty of stuff from Lime Wire.

I hope the 20 gigs is enough storage space :) I have two weeks to determine if I like it or not.. so I can always go for the 60 gig, hehe

There is so much more that I need.

I am up way past my bedtime in search of more and more music. I keep saying, "just one more download.."

Help feed my addiction!

the makings of madwomen: [inlink]pyrcedgrrl,8[/inlink]

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Category: quickies satisfy

10/07/05 07:07 - 52ºF - ID#35809

Update: I was attacked by pirates

I will be on the strip shortly.

I plan to eat... I am thinking, Sahara Grill... yum

get coffee..Spot, ofcourse

have some drinks.. havent decided yet


You love me
call me
join me
622-6639

:)

update: I have a taker!
woo, I went over to (e:pyrcedgrrl) 's house and we jumped in her car (as 2 of my four doors do not open.. I will get it fixed before winter or once I have to get in Dukes of Hazzard style, whichever comes first)

So our venture out took us to Sahara Grill (still Yum), SPot (not so yum) and Pink (Magic Potion hat #9 on tap- yum).

I saw a few girls come into Spot to use the bathroom. I was intrigued by their outfits, pondering whats new at Abercrombie this week. It had a bit of a buckeneer flare. I thought I was imagining things when a few fellas, making fun of them, responded with an "Aaaaarrrrr". I giggled as I took a closer look to their attire and realized that it was indeed to the theme of pirate.
They left shortly thereafter.
Finishing our coffee, we went outside. (e:pyrcedgrrl) was going to take a stealth picture of (me) them, when they suddenly came running across the way to jump in the picture w/ me. I found myself surrounded by girl and boy pirates, laughing really hard. Hence the updated post with pictorals.


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Hummus, babaganoush, tahini
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(e:pyrcedgrrl) not loving the babaganoush (more for me!)
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(e:pyrcedgrrl) loving the crunchy things dipped in hummus
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(e:theecarey) loving, bonding.. the babaganoush
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guess who.. (e:theecarey) and (e:pyrcedgrrl)
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Dave/David Buster just opened. I really want to go there. It is like an adult Chucky Cheese.. how cool would that be????????




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Category: potpourri

10/06/05 08:16- ID#35808

brain cell energy level depleted

This week has been insane and mildly stressful. After a minor cold which killed this past weekend, I found myself thinking that each day was further in the week than what it was. This was confusing, as I want this Friday to come quickly (its pay day) and I need to do "weekend" things. Yet I had an ass load of school work, including an exam from hell. So I did not want the days to fly by, as I needed plenty of time to get the work done. Which is due, um, now. I am in class (its break time) and I have the completed product next to me. I am nervouse about it, as I always am.

I kicked ass on the last paper. I took a risk in the style and content and it paid off. Embarrassingly it was modeled in front of the class.

On the work front, I was called in for a second interview [inlink]theecarey,22[/inlink], it was quite entertaining, and I can't quite pinpoint as to why. (e:pyrcedgrrl), I will fill you in on all the fabulous details, as I am sure you will appreciate the story I have to tell, lol. Call me!!


I am very ready for the weekend. I am looking forward to engaging in some fun activities, although I have nothing on my itinerary as of yet. I thought I was starting my friday off at happy hour, but I am not so sure about that now. (e:ladycroft), I know you wanted to get some drinks.. are we still on?

any ideas? anything going on? I know we have a photo shoot, as per (e:alison). What else???? get in touch peeps, .. 622-6639

OooOooh, i am planning on buying an mp3 player of some sort. I really have no idea what I want other than these expectations:

play lots and lots of music
play music through fm frequency
have extra gadgets to play with
did I say, play lots and lots of music?

ok, so there are diffents kinds, models and brands.. where do I start.. what do you recommend.. what should I stay away from, etc?
I love electronics, and while this shouldn't be a difficult process, I want to make sure I am getting something wonderful.. so please, I would appreciate advice. Thank you in advance!!!!

Ok, back to class- till 10pm. Then off to Sonoma Grill (we celebrate on the last class), then Caputi's (becuase I was encouraged to stop by).

The bed. yum..
The Friday.. W00T!
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Category: quickies satisfy

10/04/05 08:28 - 76ºF - ID#35807

Ad signs

Friends Share: a glimpse into my sense of humor..

This one really cracks me up:
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ahh. um.. no comment. :)
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'cause i am dirty minded:
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I want to make a t-shirt out of this and parade up and down chippewa!?
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ew!
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one more.. If you can't read it, pull down a little on the corners of your eyelids.



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Category: quickies satisfy

10/03/05 07:21- ID#35806

I am back, feelin' fine.

Hello Monday

Taking a study break.. trying to make it quick. We'll see how that goes..

I am feeling quite a bit better, after spending a majority of the weekend asleep. I just felt run down on Friday, then by Saturday I had swollen glands. I kept it low; rented movies, ordered in chinese, and totally vegged.. and drank lots of oj. It is all that I want when I am sick. ((e:metalpeter)), what damage could/would it do to me??!!! Am I going to sprout oranges? Did I give my intestines an acid bath?? ahhhh! Sunday I slept some more. I vaguely recall going outside and twisting some metal ..With my bare hands. Aweee yeah. My neighbor came out and stated that he never wants to make a run in with me when I am mad.. I wish I had pics. I don't claim to be a super hero with super duper powers, but this could be the start of something. I would say that it was delerium, but the evidence is stacked up next to my garage, soon to go out for trash. After that, I was exhausted and slept some more. Sleep is delish.

I think I did well to stay put all weekend. *boring*-- feel out of the loop.

I will be up to some major adventuring come this weekend. Any ideas?

My last post, which I did over the weekend, and I don't remember doing it (was it the effects of mass Orange Juicing?).. referred to the Niagara River and Lake Ontario. ((e:sbrugger)) recalls fond memories of chilling at the piers in Wilson, which totally brought back memories of, well, probably the same piers...ever hang in Olcott? Also lovingly referred to as All Rot, Crotch Rot.. lol. Had to have run into each other somewhere along the way. Lots of fun have been had on the piers from Youngstown to Olcott. I spent a lot of time out on there .. I'll skip the details, but it was always a good place to stay up all night and drink, etc.

Wonder what it would be like now??
  • thinking*
  • brain cells getting fired up*

I so want to do that now! Grab some beer/wine.. a comfy hoody and stay up all night chilling on the pier.. watch the sun rise (take pics),then go to bed.
OoOOoOooh, and/or I could put up a tent, and have a little bonfire on the beach. Lake Ontario is in the backyard of my mothers house, I doubt she'd mind. Fall camping is the best, anyways..
hmm..


study breaks are good :)


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Category: nature

10/01/05 11:10 - 63ºF - ID#35805

smells good

I love October. The fall weather is here, along with the fresh crisp earthy smells. I am energized and feel anticipation with the onset of autumn.
I picked my pumkins. Last year I let a pumkin rot, well, I was too lazy to chuck it into the compost pile at the end of the season.
At the beginning of spring, I saw some funky little leaves pop through the dirt. While I hadn't seen them before, the leaves did not look like weeds, either. As with most things, I waited to see what would develop.
Very quickly the plant grew quite large. I took a measurement mid-summer and figured it was approximately 30 feet wide and fifteen feet deep. I had a jungle of a pumpkin patch growing in my front yard, through other plants and even up and out of the lilac bush; all due to one pumpkin rotting.

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I have six all together. They are pretty good size.

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I love being out doors. I walk and hike around a lot. I live in a gorgeous area. I love my green space. It does something good for me, mentally. Come winter I will ski, maybe snowboard.. definitely cross country ski. I am going to look for a pair of skiis of my very own soon. I can ski alongside the Niagara River and Lake Ontario. Amazing things to be seen all year long..
I have many sun set pictures. I do not have any sunrises, though, as havent been up to watch one from the lake/river.

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Category: quickies satisfy

09/30/05 11:40 - 55ºF - ID#35804

mental break

I have downed a ton of orange juice these past few days. I experience an intense desire for juice occasionally; usually before and during a cold. I managed to chug 64 oz on my lunch break today. Although I do not feel any cold/sick symptoms, I felt a bit sluggish all day..felt, “odd”.
Upon getting home from work, I just wanted to crawl into bed and sleep for awhile. I put in a movie and buried myself under covers, but did not fall asleep. A couple of hours later I got up to get ready to go out.
Instead I did the heap of dirty dishes vomiting over the sink and counter top.
I made dinner.
I had a glass of wine.
And now some red bush tea.
And watching the Simpsons.
I feel fine. I could get in the car; but I just don’t feel compelled to do so, but what I do tomorrow could be another story.

Sometimes, I just don’t care whether I stay in or go out. I am comfortable enough with myself to just spend an evening chilling at home. I moved out of my house at the age of 19. Moved in with a boyfriend for a few years, went our separate ways.. had room mates, ditched them, had some more, realized that wasn't working for me (I consistently pay my bills), and then took to just hacking it alone.. for more than a few years now. I function at warp speed most of the time, and it just feels really good to not do anything. I have a lot of school work due this week, so I must get up early-ish and get started. It is the last week of this particular class, and there is an intimidating exam. I think that is the source of my feeling ‘odd’. I must be stressed. When I am stressed I can be ‘quiet’. Ahhh, I have it all figured out now. Just had to write out my thoughts.


I am certainly not opposed to visitors, though.


Here are a couple of pictures from the Tiki Party that I did not include before. I had wanted to include them in a post well before this, but better late than never. Fire! Fire!



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And upon request: the quirky picture of (e:theecarey), (e:ladycroft) and (e:leetee)
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