I am working on the readings and assignments for my new class, Organizational
Ethics, Values and the Law. I have been intensely fascinated with all subject matter
to this point and I am sure that I will not be disappointed with this course. I
apply myself to my courses as though I were a blank slate. I don't want to apply
what I am learning to what I know already. My aim is to unlearn and relearn.. then
evaluate the information and apply or replace the new information. That is my
strategic plan..

I have a background in the law, but I have probably forgotten much of it. Not only
due to the amount of time that has passed since I had legal studies, but the time
frame in which it occurred. I had a work related back injury three and a half years
ago. It left me with my world turn upside down.

This pissed me off.

Daily physical therapy, painful injections into my back, financial ruin, exorbitant
weight gain, friends fading into the background, depression, meds that were
prescribed then later taken off the market, insomnia and future uncertainty made me
feel broken.

Broken yet pissed off. I would not stand (no pun) for the inability to take care of myself. I hated everything about this period of my life, and I had to do what I could and even more, to make it better. I mustered what little strength I had to work really hard, one day at a time to get better. It took almost a year, but I managed to get to the point where I could work again. Believe me, that was the worst part of all. I guess I base much of who I am on what I do. And my stubborn need totake care of myself. Everything I had learned in school and life felt fuzzy to me. I felt, “dumbed-down”. I found out later that this is common in painful injuries/life traumas. I have the horrors written out in both my paper journal and livejournal. I don’t know if I can revisit that “place” quite yet.

Skip to: I begin work (at my current place of employment). I could barely get through the day, but I managed. I would get home and sleep the rest of the evening and into the next morning. Each day I got stronger; physically and mentally.

Two and a half years after starting this job I am still going strong. I have not had any related issues in two years. I am still in a high risk for injury environment, but this is where I belong. I love the chaos, the physical nature of the job (still working on the last 35 lbs) and the ever changing nature of the job. I am also in school, which I love;I feel as though I am in my element.

Recently, in my interview (for internal position), when asked what my greatest accomplishment has been, I said it was the strength, courage and tenacity to overcome an injury and being able to see the growth that has occurred as a result of this period in my life.

Post injury me is a more compassionate/feeling individual. I take time to see and understand people and things around me. I respect and admire people who also respect and treat others with dignity. Mean spirited is weak. My tolerance of he said-she said games are done with; I speak up when people are generalizing stereo types regarding relationships and gender.

I get to know people on an individual basis, but that is how I have always operated.

Anyway, the post injury me is kicking ass and taking out the trash 

And soon to buy a coffee maker.
A bean grinder.
Beans.
Tupperware to house the beans.
Cross Country skiis.
And an updated cell phone. Here is a pic of my cell phone ;)

(e:pyrcedgrrl) assisted me this evening in impregnating my iPod with a plethora of music. She allowed me to violate her iTune files, and I gleefully did just that, and supplemented what I couldn't find in her files with plenty of stuff from Lime Wire.

I hope the 20 gigs is enough storage space :) I have two weeks to determine if I like it or not.. so I can always go for the 60 gig, hehe

There is so much more that I need.

I am up way past my bedtime in search of more and more music. I keep saying, "just one more download.."

Help feed my addiction!

the makings of madwomen: [inlink]pyrcedgrrl,8[/inlink]

I will be on the strip shortly.

I plan to eat... I am thinking, Sahara Grill... yum

get coffee..Spot, ofcourse

have some drinks.. havent decided yet


You love me
call me
join me
622-6639

:)

update: I have a taker!
woo, I went over to (e:pyrcedgrrl) 's house and we jumped in her car (as 2 of my four doors do not open.. I will get it fixed before winter or once I have to get in Dukes of Hazzard style, whichever comes first)

So our venture out took us to Sahara Grill (still Yum), SPot (not so yum) and Pink (Magic Potion hat #9 on tap- yum).

I saw a few girls come into Spot to use the bathroom. I was intrigued by their outfits, pondering whats new at Abercrombie this week. It had a bit of a buckeneer flare. I thought I was imagining things when a few fellas, making fun of them, responded with an "Aaaaarrrrr". I giggled as I took a closer look to their attire and realized that it was indeed to the theme of pirate.
They left shortly thereafter.
Finishing our coffee, we went outside. (e:pyrcedgrrl) was going to take a stealth picture of (me) them, when they suddenly came running across the way to jump in the picture w/ me. I found myself surrounded by girl and boy pirates, laughing really hard. Hence the updated post with pictorals.




Hummus, babaganoush, tahini

(e:pyrcedgrrl) not loving the babaganoush (more for me!)

(e:pyrcedgrrl) loving the crunchy things dipped in hummus


(e:theecarey) loving, bonding.. the babaganoush





guess who.. (e:theecarey) and (e:pyrcedgrrl)


Dave/David Buster just opened. I really want to go there. It is like an adult Chucky Cheese.. how cool would that be????????

This week has been insane and mildly stressful. After a minor cold which killed this past weekend, I found myself thinking that each day was further in the week than what it was. This was confusing, as I want this Friday to come quickly (its pay day) and I need to do "weekend" things. Yet I had an ass load of school work, including an exam from hell. So I did not want the days to fly by, as I needed plenty of time to get the work done. Which is due, um, now. I am in class (its break time) and I have the completed product next to me. I am nervouse about it, as I always am.

I kicked ass on the last paper. I took a risk in the style and content and it paid off. Embarrassingly it was modeled in front of the class.

On the work front, I was called in for a second interview [inlink]theecarey,22[/inlink], it was quite entertaining, and I can't quite pinpoint as to why. (e:pyrcedgrrl), I will fill you in on all the fabulous details, as I am sure you will appreciate the story I have to tell, lol. Call me!!


I am very ready for the weekend. I am looking forward to engaging in some fun activities, although I have nothing on my itinerary as of yet. I thought I was starting my friday off at happy hour, but I am not so sure about that now. (e:ladycroft), I know you wanted to get some drinks.. are we still on?

any ideas? anything going on? I know we have a photo shoot, as per (e:alison). What else???? get in touch peeps, .. 622-6639

OooOooh, i am planning on buying an mp3 player of some sort. I really have no idea what I want other than these expectations:

play lots and lots of music
play music through fm frequency
have extra gadgets to play with
did I say, play lots and lots of music?

ok, so there are diffents kinds, models and brands.. where do I start.. what do you recommend.. what should I stay away from, etc?
I love electronics, and while this shouldn't be a difficult process, I want to make sure I am getting something wonderful.. so please, I would appreciate advice. Thank you in advance!!!!

Ok, back to class- till 10pm. Then off to Sonoma Grill (we celebrate on the last class), then Caputi's (becuase I was encouraged to stop by).

The bed. yum..
The Friday.. W00T!

Friends Share: a glimpse into my sense of humor..

This one really cracks me up:


ahh. um.. no comment. :)


'cause i am dirty minded:








I want to make a t-shirt out of this and parade up and down chippewa!?




ew!


one more.. If you can't read it, pull down a little on the corners of your eyelids.

Hello Monday

Taking a study break.. trying to make it quick. We'll see how that goes..

I am feeling quite a bit better, after spending a majority of the weekend asleep. I just felt run down on Friday, then by Saturday I had swollen glands. I kept it low; rented movies, ordered in chinese, and totally vegged.. and drank lots of oj. It is all that I want when I am sick. ((e:metalpeter)), what damage could/would it do to me??!!! Am I going to sprout oranges? Did I give my intestines an acid bath?? ahhhh! Sunday I slept some more. I vaguely recall going outside and twisting some metal ..With my bare hands. Aweee yeah. My neighbor came out and stated that he never wants to make a run in with me when I am mad.. I wish I had pics. I don't claim to be a super hero with super duper powers, but this could be the start of something. I would say that it was delerium, but the evidence is stacked up next to my garage, soon to go out for trash. After that, I was exhausted and slept some more. Sleep is delish.

I think I did well to stay put all weekend. *boring*-- feel out of the loop.

I will be up to some major adventuring come this weekend. Any ideas?

My last post, which I did over the weekend, and I don't remember doing it (was it the effects of mass Orange Juicing?).. referred to the Niagara River and Lake Ontario. ((e:sbrugger)) recalls fond memories of chilling at the piers in Wilson, which totally brought back memories of, well, probably the same piers...ever hang in Olcott? Also lovingly referred to as All Rot, Crotch Rot.. lol. Had to have run into each other somewhere along the way. Lots of fun have been had on the piers from Youngstown to Olcott. I spent a lot of time out on there .. I'll skip the details, but it was always a good place to stay up all night and drink, etc.

Wonder what it would be like now??

• thinking*
  
• brain cells getting fired up*

I so want to do that now! Grab some beer/wine.. a comfy hoody and stay up all night chilling on the pier.. watch the sun rise (take pics),then go to bed.
OoOOoOooh, and/or I could put up a tent, and have a little bonfire on the beach. Lake Ontario is in the backyard of my mothers house, I doubt she'd mind. Fall camping is the best, anyways..
hmm..


study breaks are good :)

I love October. The fall weather is here, along with the fresh crisp earthy smells. I am energized and feel anticipation with the onset of autumn.
I picked my pumkins. Last year I let a pumkin rot, well, I was too lazy to chuck it into the compost pile at the end of the season.
At the beginning of spring, I saw some funky little leaves pop through the dirt. While I hadn't seen them before, the leaves did not look like weeds, either. As with most things, I waited to see what would develop.
Very quickly the plant grew quite large. I took a measurement mid-summer and figured it was approximately 30 feet wide and fifteen feet deep. I had a jungle of a pumpkin patch growing in my front yard, through other plants and even up and out of the lilac bush; all due to one pumpkin rotting.


I have six all together. They are pretty good size.




I love being out doors. I walk and hike around a lot. I live in a gorgeous area. I love my green space. It does something good for me, mentally. Come winter I will ski, maybe snowboard.. definitely cross country ski. I am going to look for a pair of skiis of my very own soon. I can ski alongside the Niagara River and Lake Ontario. Amazing things to be seen all year long..
I have many sun set pictures. I do not have any sunrises, though, as havent been up to watch one from the lake/river.

I have downed a ton of orange juice these past few days. I experience an intense desire for juice occasionally; usually before and during a cold. I managed to chug 64 oz on my lunch break today. Although I do not feel any cold/sick symptoms, I felt a bit sluggish all day..felt, “odd”.
Upon getting home from work, I just wanted to crawl into bed and sleep for awhile. I put in a movie and buried myself under covers, but did not fall asleep. A couple of hours later I got up to get ready to go out.
Instead I did the heap of dirty dishes vomiting over the sink and counter top.
I made dinner.
I had a glass of wine.
And now some red bush tea.
And watching the Simpsons.
I feel fine. I could get in the car; but I just don’t feel compelled to do so, but what I do tomorrow could be another story.

Sometimes, I just don’t care whether I stay in or go out. I am comfortable enough with myself to just spend an evening chilling at home. I moved out of my house at the age of 19. Moved in with a boyfriend for a few years, went our separate ways.. had room mates, ditched them, had some more, realized that wasn't working for me (I consistently pay my bills), and then took to just hacking it alone.. for more than a few years now. I function at warp speed most of the time, and it just feels really good to not do anything. I have a lot of school work due this week, so I must get up early-ish and get started. It is the last week of this particular class, and there is an intimidating exam. I think that is the source of my feeling ‘odd’. I must be stressed. When I am stressed I can be ‘quiet’. Ahhh, I have it all figured out now. Just had to write out my thoughts.


I am certainly not opposed to visitors, though.


Here are a couple of pictures from the Tiki Party that I did not include before. I had wanted to include them in a post well before this, but better late than never. Fire! Fire!












And upon request: the quirky picture of (e:theecarey), (e:ladycroft) and (e:leetee)

Rock on!!!
I totally aced my mid term exam. 99% Looking around, there were many B grades on this in the class, so I am intrigued with this.

I am psyched.

And...
I got my student loan check today!

woo hooooooooooooooooooooo!

This girl can pay the rent and put gas in the car.. not sure what else to do.

I am not in the habit of spending money, since I am not in the habit of having an abundance; but maybe I'll get a little somethin' somethin' for myself.

or not.

I just finished up an assignment for class this week. I hadn't looked at it until last night. It was a paper that would be an address from me, as the CEO of an organization on the vision of the future. I found this oddly funny seeing as I had just had a coversation about this with a bunch of supervisory people at my work
[inlink]theecarey,22[/inlink] , in an interview of all places. Go Me.

I am not sure if I wrote it out as I should. I take artistic licsense in this one. Once I got started, I found I was having too much fun with it. I like it, so why change it?? We'll see if it is acceptable or not. I am young, have no major responsibilities, I do my own thing and take care of myself.. so I just go forward with what feels right. I have moxy..
this chick is not scared of anything.
(liar)

OK, the wind is freaking me out a bit. It has picked up and I haven't taken the Sin Tents down which (e:drchlorine) affectionately refers to them as. I hope they don't blow away. But its supposed to be mad windy. I'd go outside to get them, but its dark and scary out there. There are hairy beasts lurking.. they'll eat me or something. I have a wild imagination, and can't bring myself to do it..

(e:joshua) if you see my tents out there in KC, bring 'em home for me, k?

:)

I need bed. Dream land. I can't write coherently any longer.

good night