06/06/04 07:45 - ID#25977

sleepy sunday

after a couple of produvtive days, i managed to slee all day today. well, at least until now.

if you were ever wondering, what is the difference b/t a 19 yr old and a 20 yr old, apparently it is just too much to even comprehend. i was lucky enough to see some kiddies partying last night, all at the ripe age of 19, here's what i observed:

they were 19, but seemed 15
are they still in hs? it seems like it-i swear i even saw some varsity letters
the boys and the girls were kinda separate- boys in one room, girls in the other
boys were doing some strange dance-perhaps to get the attention of the girls
there wasnt much alcohol, but everyone seemed wasted
lots of minskirts
lots of eyeliner
lots of highlighted hair
sports jerseys-real people, not athletes actually wear these? they remind me of when i had to wear pinnies in gym class
lots of really skinny girls

so, this is what i saw. very interesting.i was definitely as outsider, but i enjoyed observing from afar. what an odd group of kids, i feel like im 15 again! or 19, whatever. if you wanted to know what the kiddies are doing, that's it.

i want thai food so bad right now. i would fight for it. thai food...yum. indian food...yum. where is sister? sister, i want to eat yummy food with you.:O(

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Location: Buffalo, NY

06/05/04 01:30 - ID#25976

garage sale...woooooooo

i think this computer is about to break any moment. here's the info:

Where: 27 Mang ave. (kenmore) b/t elmwood and delaware
When: sat and sun 8-3
Why: we movin
What: anything from 100 yr old trunks to kitchen things, who know what you may find

-stop by if you can, even just to say hi, i have to wake up at 5:30 for this crazy event. i hope my mom does not physically harm me.

p.s. matthew, i have a bench for yo jardin. come n get it!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

06/03/04 12:18 - ID#25975

mmmmm...pretty flowers

ever since i saw the movie "adaptations", i have loved orchids. they are now my favorite flower. i want one sooooooooooooooo much. they are hard to take care of though. pretty things just require a lot of care i guess.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

06/03/04 12:13 - ID#25974

i have no title for this entry

nausea; no fun. i hate taking pills. thats about all i have to say for now. except for a couple more things.

professional sports are a waste of time.
the zoo is just a bad poopy place.
i miss my sister already.
cars are a huge ripoff, they just fall apart and cost tons of money.

i think im gonna go home and puke now. bad bad pills go away.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

06/01/04 09:23 - ID#25973

accidents waiting to happen

oh today, what a day. it all started with a trip to the airport, to see the sister off. she started to cry, and i was to tired for emotion. however, i did manage to get out a tear or two on the ride home. she is definitely a sibling worth having. she gets the, "best ever" award.

i returned home to go back to sleep and woke up late, at 1130. spent a quality half hour with a special somene and then headed to work. work was decent; boring, but decent. it is nice to wander around completing mindless tasks, because i get the time to think about a lot of things, which seemed to help clear my mind today.

the ride home wad going smoothly, until, CRASH, SNAP, CRUNCH, and my rearview mirror falls to the ground.we both get out of our cars, and he starts yelling and swearing at me. I am just in shock, thinking about how much this mf-er is going to cost to fix. the accident oocured conveinantly close to a car dealership, and we head inside to work it out. this is when the tears come, i just started crying, as all the car salesmen stare and continue to ask me if i need help. at last nothing fell off of me right? i called the mom, and she rushes to the scene. shes the best, because i had no idea what to do.

accident over, i head home following the mom. we walk in the house to brother burning the shit out of yet another pan. most of the silverware is missing. so many things missing. how do you deal with a brother who steals and lies? am i supposed to just forget him and move on? do i tell him how hurt i am?

the day is almost over, minus the cleaning and work i have to do. i am without a mirror and a brother.

p.s. who wants to go to the junkyard to help me find a new mirror tomorrow?

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/28/04 10:49 - ID#25972

doghouse for paulie

paul, i tld you not to post that picture, i look cuter in the other one. can we fix this problem?

i think it is possible that i will have arthritis at a very early age, my knees, back, feet, shoulders, ankles; they are hurt. im an old lady.

p.s. why is the world a toxic waste dump?

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/28/04 01:28 - ID#25971

just breath

hmmmm, how to say this? life is a precious thing. it is happy and sad and beautiful and ugly all at the same; but in the end, i would like to think that the good stuff makes up for the bad. i try to be happy or at least content, most of the time, but, i think it is good to just let it all out. whatever you are holding inside, any doubts, fears, bad feelings; it is better to just let these go. afterwards, you will feel so much better.

some people, hold things in, with the belief that it is silly to let these emotions out. no emotion is petty or dumb, or without reason. without feeling, life becomes numb, boring and mundane. it bothers me to think that some people around me, people that i love and care about, let past experiences or bothersome emotions gether inside them. they might think i don't see that they are hiding these things, but i do. if i know you, and care about you, i want to know what is bothering you. i hate it when people are not honest with me.

it is not good to be conditioned, or condition yourself to hide emotion. it can even kill you; if not that, it can create heart problems, high blood pressure, and a whole slew of other problems. basically, all im saying is let it all out. we all go through tough times, and we should all be there for eachother. after a good cleansing, everything just seems more clear; life seems easier to tackle; and you can continue on your day with a smile onm your face.

i know i will go to bed with a smile on my face. i love my friends. i love my family. i love summer. i have a job. i have my health. the possiblites are endless...life is good.

>>Posted By: lilho

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/24/04 08:54 - ID#25970

sausage fingers and superduper last call

what a night. tina and i are still awake. after two nights of no sleep, i am still going strong. we went out with tk last night, and saw shrek and then headed to the pink. tina said she never stayed for last-call, so we stayed for the "superduper last call." the dude(bartender) kept asking us if we wanted drinks(tina and i), but we were at the mercy of tk's wallet. we took some sips here and there, and managed to make it through. someone took stuff from my car, tk's stuff, we think. my mask is missing too. that thing took 20 hours of grueling work to make, mind you. i will miss you mask, you are not forgotten. tina and i laughing/crying right now. that mask was not appreciated, and that thing was the bombdiggity. ub art school, someone went into my car and found that mask, and wanted it enough to take it. whoever you are, godbless you.

all of this makes no sense, unless you are me, or tina, maybe tk. go see shrek 2, but only for the puss in boots...so cute!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/23/04 05:45 - ID#25969

thief

i really really wish he would stop taking stuff from me. who knows what he has taken in the past year. why don't you just take everything? why don't you just spit in my face? that might get your point across quicker. just because i don't see you take, doesn't mean i wont find out. lets see: my car, my pearl and diamond ring, money, any drug you can find, cds, discman, headphones, more money. hey, maybe you could take me and sell me for money.

soon, it will all be over.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/23/04 03:07 - ID#25968

busy busy bee

so much to do, so little time. wanting to sleep. i keep not being able to sleep at night and getting tired during the day. sleepovers are fun!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

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