09/16/09 02:14- ID#49784
More sad is the responses seem to be rolling in with the "NOs". Some people I expected not to be coming due to distance etc, others I was confident would be coming but turns out they're not :(
Then news of late has been completely tragic regarding 'almost marrieds'. The girl from Yale due to be married and gets murdered instead. Someone from work went to attend their cousin's wedding in Pakistan and the groom, his mom, brother and cousin all died in a car crash the night before. I swear if anything like that happened to me I would die of a broken heart.
06/10/07 03:27- ID#39597
money, money, money
I knew there was a lengthy process involved in getting my visa to work in Qatar. I didn't know it was going to cost me around $300 to do it. I don't have $300. I also didn't know I had to get a physical with a major work-up in addition. Physical, plus chest x-rays, tb test, urinalysis, blood work to test several functions, something to do with viruses and I forget the last thing.
Fuck knows how much that's going to cost. I don't have any insurance. I'm pretty sure a plain old physical would cost around $100, but that doesn't count all those other bells and whistles. Great.
I also have to pay the air freight costs up front and get reimbursed. Right, no money for that either. So looks like, unless I go rob the A-Plus, I'll be traveling over with only what I can fit in 2 pieces of luggage and a carry-on. Snap.
I've been having more bad dreams, lots of anxiety, more depressed days than happy days...and I have to babysit another 3 weeks. It's not how I wanted to spend my last month in Buffalo. But even if we get what we want it's not what we need.
04/18/07 05:57- ID#38946
02/22/07 08:04- ID#38249
I was under the persuasion that I was taking on these responsibilities and would be compensated. Today I find out that instead of being paid the 2 grand, this job has been turned into a 3rd internship for me. I don't get paid and I have to complete an additional 120 hours. This means I'm going to be working full-time to the end of the semester and not getting one extra dime.
To say I'm disappointed is an understatement. I feel like I've just been given a prison sentence for a crime I didn't commit. I guess there is a reason I identify with La Femme Nikita.
10/11/06 04:45- ID#25448
Nil ann ach an marbh: updated
Ta mo chroise go bron
Oiche' s me liom fein
Speartha dubh go domhain, a choich
Uaigneas mor, go deo, a choich
Taim bronach, buartha' s briste
Nil ann ach an marbh.
It is Gaelic, from an Enya song.
My heart is grieving
Night and I am alone
Endless deep black skies
Great loneliness, forever, and ever
I am sad, sorrowful, and broken
Nothing is left except the dead.
09/05/06 05:00- ID#25443
1.I've been working 10-14 hour days
2.I've been babysitting my nephew, who has colic, every weekend because my sister has been very ill.
3.I get no sleep on the weekends.
4.I get little sleep during the week because our landlord has been remodeling his apartment all hours of the day and night.
5.I miss my Gramma horribly and am still grieving her death.
6.My other grandmother, aka Mamaw, had a heart attack and is in the ICU with neuphmonia.
7.I'm still battling my personal demons, aka depression.
Things I'd like to say:
1.I apologize to anyone who's feelings I hurt.
2.Sincerely, Happy Belated Birthday to Terry & Mike.
3.Happy Belated Birthday to Jen, I forgot your card too.
4.Thank you Ryan for the huge cake.
5.Thank you for coming PMT, Mike and Carey.
6.Some people refer to drama in my cohort as 'so high school'. I'd like to downgrade that to 'middle school'. That's what it is. There's so much bullshit flying around down we could fertilize a small African country.
7.I accidentally deleted some voicemails before I heard them, sorry if I never called you back.
8.I'm losing my mind. Desperately trying to hold my soul together without slitting my wrists (figuratively speaking, I'm not really into harming myself).
02/18/06 04:24- ID#25344
the black fact is, i was thinking of you
I had a great time tubing and I thought perhaps I was on the upside of this particular valley, but not so much. It appears it was only an illusion, a small hump in the valley floor. So I went and chilled with (e:Jenks) for a while. Thanks girl.
I came home to this little poem from my friend Jen which made me smile.
Are we friends, or are we not?
You told me once, but I forgot
Tell me now, and tell me true
So I can say, I'm here for you.
Of all the friends I've ever met
You're the one I won't forget
And if I die before you do
I'll go to heaven, and wait for you
I'll give the angels, back their wings
And risk the loss, of everything.
Just to prove my friendship is true
To have a friend, a friend like you
I still have a ways to go on this journey but the black fact is, all day I was thinking of you.
12/19/05 01:13- ID#25292
11/05/05 01:02- ID#25250
lemons, lemons, lemons
10/28/05 02:30- ID#25246
of spray paint and pumpkins
Thankfully Lee and Walt were nice enough to pick me up and take me back to their place where I dined on a most delicious homemade soup. Then (e:Leetee) and I went up into my favorite attic space and sprayed away at my ‘armor’.
Lastly, we carved some pumpkins, and save the seeds for roasting.
My car is still sitting in the parking lot outside Party City. Maybe not, maybe it got towed to impound. I don’t know. Thanks for the talk (e:Leetee). Nite ya'll.