However I do know when I'll be back again (unlike the song).

I'm leaving first thing tomorrow morning for Fountain Hills, AZ I need to get out of the city, breathe some fresh air, re-center myself, maybe do some art projects with lilho, eat a gas station taco and get family hugs.

I predict this should help immensely.

• Oh and happy bday Terry. I wish I was there to eat some Ben and Jerry's with you!!

Ok I promise my wallowing is ALMOST over. Really though I couldn't let this thing die without posting a picture of the never eaten birthday cake that I slaved over for 3 effing hours.



I mean if he wasn't going to fawn over how amazing it was someone has to. And yes I did eat only one piece. I had to at least know if it was good or not.

Also as a side note:
Yesterday I was on my way to work, kinda crying. So I'm walking towards my building and right past me walks a man dressed as a geisha type person, little platform shoes, hat, full get up but with out any make up and no pretense that he was trying to be a tranny. No one turned a head. At that moment I was in love with New York all over again. Where else can a girl be left alone to cry as a oddly dressed man walks by and no one blinks an eye.

Now that I stopped crying (for the most part) I think I can write about what happened.

Actually I can't. All I can say is he was amazing, but too self centered to see anything other than what he wanted to.

I feel hurt because he made it seem like it was ok to show him my feelings and emotions (which I think we all know I am adverse to doing under any circumstances). And in the end if I would have just kept my distance, like I do with everything, I would have never ended up hurt.

Normally, knowing myself, I'd be a vengful bitch and say a bunch of mean things. But in reality I have no desire to do anything other than sit on my couch and cry.

and invited everyone I knew (Mike Visco fill in the rest)..

I'm home from a night out. I'm so thankful (redundant I know) for my girl friends. I can not imagine life with out them. It makes me cry even more to know I have such amazing people who want to give me hugs and get me drunk (which I so am) and share cupcakes with me.

So thanks to everyone for their kinda words. Once I feel like I can go blog about what happened you can bet I surely will! It was really hard not being about to share everything (the good and the bad) via my blog. I feel like this is such an outlet for me.

Until then I'm so thankful for my friends here in the city. As always they have banded together and are making me feel so much better (booze and cupcakes heal everything).

You'll want these shoes:



The are $24 from wet seal. I'm totes in love.

• Also the blackout on blogging on my personal life continues. It makes me sad because I really like blogging about the dirty details of life, but out of respect for those involved in my life the blackout is in place. Let's just say I'm so happy and he's fantastic!!

I was taking my normal break (read goofing off) and reading the NYT. I came across the article below. Really that's news? I'm kinda speechless.

Slingshot wrong way to get girlfriend's attention
By THE ASSOCIATED PRESS
Published: August 6, 2008
Filed at 3:48 p.m. ET
SOUTH OGDEN, Utah (AP) -- An 11-year-old boy who wanted to get his girlfriend's attention without waking her parents got a lesson in the strength of a window pane. A pebble fired from a slingshot has more velocity than a pebble tossed by hand.
''We were just trying to get her attention,'' said Joe Brunton, who is now doing odd jobs around his neighborhood to raise the money he needs to replace the window.
Joe and a friend were trying to see the girl early one morning a few weeks ago. At first, they threw wood chips at the window, but that wasn't enough, so the boys went home for heavier artillery. The slingshot worked in getting the girl's attention, but it also cracked the window.
The boys immediately owned up to the broken window and promised the girl's parents that they would replace it.
Joe went to his mother, who covered the $160 replacement cost but said the boy was going to have to do extra chores. Joe's friend Justice Kane decided that was going to take too long, so they have been going door to door and asking neighbors if they need any household chores done.
They also explained why they are raising the money.
''It was kind of embarrassing,'' Joe said.

That's what the dude I'm dating (my boyfriend? I'm not sure really how to refer to him) said I was last night.

It was insulting and awesome all at the same time.

Exactly what I like in a man.