I'm preoccupied with sadness cause I feel like none of my close friends want to really be my friend anymore.

What's worse is I don't entirely know why, and all I can do is react to the signs I read like some kinda stone aged witch doctor. I keep shaking chicken feet at everything and nothing seems to really work but the show is captivating...or polarizing.

I figure if so many people really don't like me so much they're nervous to say why it must be a pretty valid reason...It'd just be nice to know what it is. I'm sure I have an idea, but knowing for certain is always easier.

I've noticed this pattern in my life and I'm really dead set on trying to fix it. I don't really like my family and anytime a group gets so close as to become something like that I tend to fuck it up pretty bad (my genetics, my band, Megan, now these guys).

I can only hope that I will somehow figure out what is happening and reverse it, or at least learn from it. I'd hate to carry this virus to a whole new country, and it's a whole new country I must find if I am to survive. I am gregarious by nature and I'll just curl up and die without someone to love nearby all the time.

My last hurrah will be soon and it is a very secret secret, but I'm sure you'll all enjoy it. I hope that's what I'm remember by when the rest of me is forgotten and people move on. Don't worry, I'll get the lights on my way out.

Looking like this guy #winning. Feeling like this guy #fail


PS. I hope this doesn't publish I'm still contemplating it's meaning. There used to be a draft button on this thang. What's worse is I really just want this to be a fond farwell not a pity party, that kinda shit is for babies.

PPS. There was no last hurrah, but I think I did all I could. I'm tired of trying. I wish you all very very well. So long.

I watched this on HULU for xbox through my room sound. Um, so if you don't have a sweet speaker set up or are not wearing headphones go get some now or you'll rob your self of an experience.

BEAT JAZZ

Ok.

I'm trying to not complain in public anymore. Espousing my woes hasn't ever really proven useful in any way other than to cause more woes, so I'm going for broadcasting solutions.

I got my Wii right when they came out cause I was up partying too late with Mitch and we knew they might have them at Target if we went. The line was short. I interviewed a few nerds about it and hopped in line my self. A few hours later I was the proud owner of a brand new 1st generation Wii.

We had a ton of fun with our Wiis since then but also since then it's started to make this horrible buzzing noise that makes me wanna smack a moose.

Apparently this is common amungst old Wiis. So much so that Nintendo isn't doing anything about them though they usually hook it up when your gear is broken.

So to find a solution I have turned to the interwebs. Here's a couple of short videos on how to disassemble the Wii and resolve the buzzing issue. If you have a mod chip lying around you can kill a few birds with one stone. I don't have a tiny lil screw driver yet, but I will grab one soon so I can get inside this thing. It's eyeglasses sized so I figure they're around to buy I just don't know where... lemme know if you know.

I digress. On to fixing this sic Wii.

Opening the Wii. Be careful. Bring a razorblade and a tiny screwdriver


Buzz Kill: Fixing the Wii. Turn one Screw, fixed!


I figured this is time well spent since (e:Terry) and TK are Smash Bros. aficionados and might be able to teach me some moves until these computer parts become a computer. #escapingStreetFighter.

Avid Dallen: Hey brother how are you? 10:18 PM
Me: not bad who's this? 9:15 AM
Avid Dallen: Avid Dallen 1:55 PM
Me: Oh. You don't say. 2:07 PM
Avid Dallen: Yes say whats good 2:40 PM
Me: Alls well. Sup? 2:41 PM
Avid Dallen: Just touching basis my brother we need to have a meeting for next year concert 2:44 PM
Me: Qua? Concert? I wasn't aware I was to be informed of such goings on. 2:51 PM
Avid Dallen: Is this omar 2:53 PM
Me: Omar? Nope. Who do you think your texting... 2:54 PM
Avid Dallen: Who is this 3:18 PM
Me: Tony...:-) 3:18 PM
Avid Dallen: Tony who 3:19 PM
Me: KayShew 3:20 PM
Me: I feel like I must know you. From Prince of peace right? I don't have you in my list of FB friends, and you've gotten in touch with me via this #. So, if we do know each other, hi. If not well. Sorry for the mix up. 6:38 PM
Avid Dallen: How long have you had this number 6:39 PM
Me: Not too long. You can call it too.. I'm mostly cordial on the phone. 6:40 PM
Me: well about a year or more so long enough I guess. 6:40 PM
Avid Dallen: Ok 6:41 PM
Me: So was it a wrong # or were you trying to get in touch with me? 6:42 PM
Avid Dallen: I thought you was someone else but nice to meet you 6:44 PM
Me: Oh. Ok... cool. Take it easy Avid. Later. 6:44 PM
Avid Dallen: You too lets stay intouch 7:55 PM
Me: I guess. I mean really what do we have in common besides the ability to be nice to people we've meet in strange ways....

So I guess I have a new friend now. Wonder what he does....

Uuggg....

I couldn't fall asleep last night so I watched a few episodes of Elfin Lied on netflix. Now I feel like a zombie. I'm downing B vitamins, drinking coffee, answering emails and writing this post till the caffeine kicks in and I can function like a human again.

Elfin Lied


Elfen has just gotten hilariously good after 8 episodes, but its at the point where I don't know where it's going to go next.

Seems that always happens to Anime...sigh. This one hooked me because of the Gustav Klimt intro. It's kinda vapid and bizzare, but isn't all good anime?

Here's the intro I was talking about. It has some "tastefully" bare cartoon boobs in it so be careful it may be NFW for you.

Elfen Lied: Opening Credits